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RE: AM & GIRLS - COMMITMENT AND BALLS - LionMonkey - 09-19-2021
Quick update - day 18
Had a break last week for 3 days as I caught some weird coughing again post corona.
After those 3 days break of basically no social interactions I started to go out again..
But this time.. bouncers had completely different attitudes towards me.
Strange but yeah.. nothing to fuss about.
Also within last week, 2 different guys showed aggression towards me but still coming from a beta standpoint.
Also different guys will just open me or want to talk with me and give their respects..
I'm getting bored of AM haha.. girls department it's hard to tell.. I am more assertive when I know exactly what I want but it doesn't necessarily sync with the girls, so extra work on calibration..
-LM
RE: AM & GIRLS - COMMITMENT AND BALLS - GreekGod22 - 09-20-2021
Is it your first AM run? And are you running AM5 or AM6?
RE: AM & GIRLS - COMMITMENT AND BALLS - LionMonkey - 09-21-2021
(09-20-2021, 03:39 AM)GreekGod22 Wrote:
Is it your first AM run? And are you running AM5 or AM6?
Here's summary until 2013 - (btw. SM 2011 got deleted from my account.. no one knows how or why)
Quote:I want to give a short summary of my story on the subliminal train. It looks like this;
1. Absolute Self Confidence 3G/4G ~ 1 month
2. Aura of Sexiness 3G/4Ga ~ 1 month
3. Alpha Male 2011 ~ 6 months
4. Sex Magnet 2011 ~ 6 months
5. Alpha Male Refresher (Stage 6) ~ 1 month
6. Woman Magnet 2.0 ~ 6 month
7. Alpha Male 5.0 ~ NOW ~ 2013
After that I believe I was on and off on different subs but not running a full period.. like OF v3 I bought a months ago with recommendations from Shannon.. was running it for around 2 weeks.. unfortunately it turned out it didn't match what I was very focused on at the period.
Now in September 2021, today I'm on my second run of AM 5.0
-LM
RE: AM & GIRLS - COMMITMENT AND BALLS - LionMonkey - 09-30-2021
Day 28 - quick update
All around relaxed around other guys.. sometimes I will have a "fit" where I'm like wanting guys to be more alpha towards me.. so I bump into them a little or tease them a little..
The recommended usage days are 32 days - I might have gone too low in exposure like 6 hours on some days so we will add 6 days (38 days total) to catch up anything missing.
-LM
RE: AM & GIRLS - COMMITMENT AND BALLS - LionMonkey - 10-02-2021
Day 29 - update girl part
Seems like I got more confident and my desire for girls have gone up a notch last few days.
I feel sexual when I look at girls body and also eye contact.. it's a fantastic feeling and I get how you can easily get sex-addicted.. such a powerful feeling when it's new girls.
I'm more dominant and give less of a damn about rejections.
One girl I would like to continue conversion on sm and she's like.. I'm not that into it/you.. while walking away with her 2 girls friends..
I didn't feel bad.. just a bit out of energy after listening to her talk..
Danced with girl who looked drugged.. she rreeeeeallly enjoyed herself and danced in slowmo.. good practice for leading and sexual vibes.. she was ok into me at first but the drug must have had her return back to her own world for the enjoyments sake and so she was a flirt.. tested the waters and she said no at a point so I stopped.
Later other guy dances with her and I steal her and she wants to come to me.. so yeah.. not sure what she was all about lol but I wasn't going to stay with her all night bc. She evaded my advances again...
Meet 2 girls sitting with wing. At first they are a bit cold.. shortly after they warmed up a lot and the brunette with fringes, I liked, was laughing at everything I said and had these cute, charming, hopeful eyes when looking at me..
my wing bailed me 3 minutes in the interaction and luckily her friend was not too bad so she didn't cockblock at first..
I sit beside brunette and 2 minutes in we make out.. it was very natural and sexy.. we exchange sm and kiss and I look for my wing..
F**ked it up by returning to them later when I found out my wing went home.. asked another guy in the bar if he could wing me and he was all on..
when I got back to the girls, I looked behind me and he got Harry potters blanket or something.. gone.. I sit with the girls.. mainly just brunette and kiss more and talk a little.. eventually blonde cockblocks.. very bad to wait for it to happen basically..
Had a good night.. asl felt my energy was too low later and I couldn't be as powerful in my intent..
Btw. Also got my soda paid by a guy.. another place, bartender gave me a free tonic.. didn't think much about it at the time.. pretty nice
-LM
RE: AM & GIRLS - COMMITMENT AND BALLS - LionMonkey - 10-06-2021
Day 32 - Outing meeting girls
Met 10+ girls, mostly young.. some late 20's too
Enjoyed it a lot..
6 days left of stage 1
-LM
RE: AM & GIRLS - COMMITMENT AND BALLS - LionMonkey - 10-12-2021
Stage 2 - day 0
Tonight I change to AM stage 2..
So many things happened and met tons of girls..
It has actually become difficult for me to tell what is the subliminal effect helping and what is my natural self who have gotten his shit together and control my life..
Out of many outings and meeting lots of girls lately I will share earlier tonights outing:
FR - Outing - Invitations.. cuties.. a little dilemma
Soccer match ended.. more people out than usual weekdays.. feeling 6-7 out of 10 to do ng.. the reason that helps me a lot for doing it anyway is that it’s cardio to walk.. bc. I’m naturally into health and it’s a high priority of mine..
23:50 - enter small bar.. 5-6 young girls singing and dancing loudly in a circle.. not too connected.. catch girl staring at me after entering.. two girls bump into me while dancing.. all over the place.. rest of bar, guys or mixed sets with lots of guys.. decide to leave after a minute.. did not feel dancy yet and it would be fake to match their energy or go a little higher.. not loose enough to let go as them yet..
00:10 - streets.. one set.. waiting for her colleagues to come out of bar.. they were slow.. sat with her with a ftc.. initially she cold.. then warmed up.. liked me.. cute, petite, brunette, curly hair and sort of my type.. I cold read her on work and ethnicity well and it makes the connection better.. she asks me where I work etc.
One colleague comes.. she’s still focused more on me.. I acknowledge him.. talk more with girl.. he cockblocks a little.. girl says I work at the same restaurant as them.. just another location.. I deny it and tells the truth again.. maybe should have just went with it as she needed a reason for me to be with her group of colleagues to not feel strange or judged that she brought a random guy to the group.. then he says the others are going to abc bar.. and she looks at me like bye then..
00:30 - walk into bar.. hallway shaped.. walk towards the toilet at end.. very pretty young girl catches ec. And starts dancing slowly and sexually.. I go toilet.. intend to open her after.. come out.. she dance still sexually and slowly but in front of guy she’s with.. and her brunette friend with another guy.. I leave place.. no other sets..
00:45 - bigger bar, more open, better air quality.. see a set with 2 8-9 blondes, 1 guy.. a two set 7 brunettes.. and a few mixed sets who doesn’t look connected.. decide to get a soda.. guy from two blonde is right beside me at bar.. I open him.. we talk a bit.. extract info about their relation.. they go to school together.. 18yo’s.. ask if he needs a wing.. he’s like no need.. I can handle them both.. his game is mostly about knowing higher status people but he’s cool enough.. have hit ec. with both blondes while talking with him.. hot blonde friend comes in.. impatient where their beers are.. and bc guy couldn’t get a hold of bartender.. she moves in and goes in front of another guy like a beast.. gets served quickly.. some lost value there.. they go back to their table..
Shortly after I get opened by a guy.. very friendly and cool.. we chat a bit.. he says he owns a clothing brand.. thought at first he was by himself.. I intend to open the two brunettes who just bought 20 shots.. ask him if he wanna wing for the brunettes.. he denies as he got a lovely gf.. but says he’s got a friend who just got single.. 1 minute and he’ll be back.. he brings in guy.. not as cool but ok good-looking.. we chat shortly.. I look back.. brunette is by herself.. her friend went to bathroom.. so I tell guy we wait till friend is back.. which in hindsight was not the best.. we wait a few minutes and guy gets impatient and says he’ll be back.. he doesn’t come back..
I stood same place for too long.. I move outside for a moment.. go back in.. pass table where I see the cool guy.. the houdini wing guy.. other guys.. and some girls! interesting.. I acknowledge some of them.. pass them and open 2 set brunette.. fvck it I thought.. they ok open.. I do a ftc.. take a chair and sit beside the shorter one.. they kind of cold but sitting with fvcking 20 shots.. not waiting for others to come.. just the two of them.. they ask who I’m here with.. I tell them I got a friend who I can bring over.. I look back and houdini wing guy is talking with another girl.. so I’m like fvck it.. I get a weird feeling when I take chair to sit beside shorter girl.. Try to continue conversation entertaining.. it’s hard though.. loud music under speaker.. other brunette have hard time to hear.. they look at each other like they know something I don’t.. then they whisper to each other.. I felt weird about situation so I excused myself.. in hindsight the brunette beside me was probably whispering to her friend what I said bc. She couldn’t hear me lol.. but they were both very quiet and not talking.. yeah could have used a wing there.. but it’s ok.. for what comes next..
1:15 - I leave the brunettes.. cool guy and I notice each other.. we get talking.. he’s with this group of 5 guys and 3 girls.. we vibe a bit.. talk about bouncing to other place where there are more people.. suddenly girl beside him talks to me.. she’s cute.. cool guy lets us talk.. we talk some more.. I thought she wasn’t very into me but kept talking.. other girl interrupts and they go to toilet..
cool guy says.. we are going with you to the other place.. I’m like.. ok.. but I got my eyes on this blonde over there.. a mixed 6 set, 3 guys, 3 girls 8-9 pretty hot..
shortly after girls come back from toilet and they bounce and cool guy says lets go! I went with them outside.. cool guy asks what was your name again.. we shake hands and the girl in group I talked with shook it as well and held it.. ok.. I thought she wasn’t that interested.. hahaha.. it’s amazing how wrong you can be sometimes.. so they go.. I’m the last.. and he could see I wasn’t sure.. so he’s like ok you do your thing and we catch each other at the place.. we exchange insta as he’s actually one of the rare cool and friendly guys.. he asks with soe if I’m gay.. lol.. just a slight doubt from his side..
I stay.. with intention to open that mixed 6 set.. honestly I just wanted to talk to the blonde in the middle.. didn’t feel like fvcking talking to everyone in the group.. I see another guy entering and being close to the blonde like he knows her.. fvck.. had a strong feeling that if I went in the set, I would only focus on the blonde and ignore the rest.. also this new guy came in and yeah.. I don’t know.. eventually decide to let it go..
01:15 - outside bar I see previous guy with the two blonde.. I open.. they having fun.. singing something.. vibing shortly.. then hot blonde comes to me.. asks my name.. put her arm around my shoulder while we walk.. I say you like guy.. she’s like yes.. I’m why the f**k do you walk with me like this in my mind.. the other blonde was filming us.. they turn to another street.. I’m not going this way.. they were going back to their hotel.. interesting.. yeah pull idea I had in mind but I saw this blonde liking this guy in the bar.. and guy is ok cool.. my values is to not go after a girl who a cool and friendly guy likes.. and the other girl was ok.. but I also wanted to do a short outing today to catch sleep and work out tmr.. also I had the invitation from the previous group for the other place where one of the girls were down.. so it was easy for me to turn around..
01:45 - conflicted.. dilemma.. go to join the group or go home.. eventually decide to go home..
drive 5 minutes.. see guy with the two blondes.. I call his name.. invite them to come in.. drive them to their hotel not far away.. not sure why I did it.. they seem like cool and nice people.. drop them off.. they leave car.. hot blonde last.. she hugs me lovingly with her face.. could have tried kissing there actually.. get her insta.. sees she’s got a bf through it.. things could have went kinds all ways both before I left them first time and there.. her blonde friend definitely cockblock material as well.. filming her friend walking with me.. interrupting and rushing us in car when having insta.. motherfvcker girl.. I just drove you to your hotel.. you guys were lost.. you are not in a fvcking rush.. some afterthoughts.. she was ok with their guy friend flirting with her in the bar.. they go to class together.. I had to win her over more at our first meeting for sure.. was not aware of her cockblocking personality for sure when I saw her not doing anything when her friend was flirting with the guy..
Thx!! Hope you squeeze the juice out of life and enjoying it on too!!
-LM
RE: AM & GIRLS - COMMITMENT AND BALLS - LionMonkey - 10-17-2021
S2 Day 3
Got beta males making comments to their friends about me..
Most girls I meet have attraction for me..
what I need to focus on is leading more and be more selfish in what I want from the situations with the girls..
Had a night out this week where I had 3 different young girls wanting to get to know me better.. but because of lack of leadership from my side and trying too hard to appear in a certain way, nothing happened between neither of the girls and me.. I walked to my car that night feeling sad and angry.. tears came.. an emotional experience that stripped a layer of giving a damn, away..
Since that night I've felt more like a boss, giving less of a f**k..
-LM
RE: AM & GIRLS - COMMITMENT AND BALLS - LionMonkey - 10-21-2021
S2 Day 7
Been really focused in good ways lately.
Last week went out 4 nights and this week just 1 so far.
Met tons of girls. Last week and this week more focused on where life is headed. Planning on building a business on bio optimization as I found myself naturally very interested in being in optimal health.
Last week short summary with girls:
Girls are mostly happy to meet me. Some younger girls are less happy. They need more stimulation and more of the brain dead leadership.
Mid twenties to start thirties girls were all down to have something happen. They would also make more moves although very subtle.
Reason also this week less outings is because I fell on my ass this Wednesday, hard. Right on my tailbone. So yeah.. took me out of a confident pattern for a day and still feel some pain/soreness every now and then. Not too bad though.
Weekend coming up. Intention is to go out both Fri and sat. With focus on leading and stating my intention.
Btw. I find myself becoming more and more beautiful after going out and meeting all these cuties. It actually makes me feel alive in life.
-LM
RE: AM & GIRLS - COMMITMENT AND BALLS - LionMonkey - 10-24-2021
S2 Day 12
After the fall on my butt I felt less motivated to go out but what else would I spend my weekend nights on. Besides I like going out.
Friday felt 7/10 feeling of motivation.
Saturday 2-3/10 - didn't feel it at all.. also exhausted from last nights outing
Friday met different girls. Young 19 yo's and start 30's.
Very interesting night. I had a lot of energy and spent a lot of energy. Missed a kiss one young one, could have taken another home but she was not my type.
I often find girls becoming more attractive after I start interacting with them. Before interaction, most girls are soso.
Saturday feeling shitty to go out. What helped was I told myself I will reward myself on Sunday with the last episode of SG. Excited to watch it after this update post!
Felt disconnected with the environment. After some walking and sipping my soda, I forced myself to open 3 girls sitting. Some guys were sitting near them, had been for a while and was motioning to each other to talk with them. I just went in.
It was awkward and I could hear the two guys laughing out loud. Made me realize that reality is, some are action takers, some are observers who judge because they are too chicken to do it. So a form of jealousy/envy is not new in this world. Sometimes you just forget it exists.
After the 3 girls, I felt better but still not social. I didn't feel social throughout the outing. Talked to a few other girls.. nothing interesting.. did it mostly to get into a different state and at the end I just felt f**k it. Went to the crowded dancefloor and just focused on feeling better and moved to the music. After a few songs, two girls and a guy comes near me. Suddenly guy isn't there anymore and these two girls focus on me.
Trying to pump my state. Partying mood, yelling. Actually a bit dominant.
One girl is very judgmental and speaking what she thinks with no barriers. The other focus a lot on me and at a point she's like wake up!! She saw I was a little too relaxed or exhausted. Crazy she would be into me I guess.
We moved a bit on dancefloor and soon she made herself so available to me that you had to be a complete idiot to not notice she wanted me to take her. I had the thought of grabbing her, kissing her and leave.
The combination of feeling as I did and her not being my type although she was hot, made me think too much about it and not do it. Eventually they left.
It is the strangest thing.. because these kind of girls never approach me.. and also so aggressive and forward towards me.
Going out a lot you will experience new things all the time. What a beautiful time we live in where this can be a lifestyle option.
Btw. I read a lot and just that very Saturday night when driving home, I learned a lesson for life.
"You can decide that the process/effort in an activity is the reward in of itself".
That's how you maintain a long term healthy motivation and desire to keep doing the activity. Instead of thinking that the end result is the reward,
-LM
RE: AM & GIRLS - COMMITMENT AND BALLS - LionMonkey - 10-31-2021
S2 Day 19
Stage 2 of AM seems to be more subtle in changes.
Having had the fall on my ass previous Wednesday I had 1 and a half week break from exercising.
Got all this extra energy available from not working out 4-6 days a week.
Also this week I didn't go out and meet girls, except for yesterday which I enjoyed very much.
Learned about how our brain and body work recently and found out I've been f**king up my brain chemistry by meditating with the lights on after coming home early in the morning from an outing.
No wonder I couldn't generate excitement, although I wanted to.
After the fall on ass, I learned about this.
I could feel reeeeeaaallly good and excited again last night on my outing. Also can feel pretty damn good throughout my day again.
So yeah.. incredibly what you can learn about the body and mind so you can get clarity over what was causing your weird state of not being able to be excited.
I thought I was getting old or smt. Like I did the meeting girls thing a decade ago. Now I'm old and can't get excited.
Partly accurate to an extent but lots of it has to do with body and brain chemistry.
It's interesting for sure.
On AM notices
Seems like I go to either extremes of spectrum.
Sometimes I feel "come and f**k with me" I don't give a damn. Whether guy is double my size and two meters tall
Other times I feel vulnerable, avoiding possibility of conflict and feel like others should move for me.
And other times I feel strong and still move around without feeling others should move for me and I'm nimble as a fox.
Yeah interesting stuff.
Anyway it's amazing I can finally feel excited again when going out and interacting with girls. It was one of the most attractive traits but also fun part of meeting girls.
-LM
RE: AM & GIRLS - COMMITMENT AND BALLS - Darkness - 10-31-2021
I had similar experience with stage2 of AM5, I loved lovedLOVED the how aggressive my assertiveness I became in conflict!
RE: AM & GIRLS - COMMITMENT AND BALLS - LionMonkey - 11-21-2021
(10-31-2021, 03:10 PM)Darkness Wrote: I had similar experience with stage2 of AM5, I loved lovedLOVED the how aggressive my assertiveness I became in conflict!
That's good. That much love must have gotten you close to fights.
S2 Day 30 - Alpha Omega
I've become very alpha. Stories will follow below.
It's good to remind yourself that Subliminal's can be like a helping hand in building a foundation.
It's a helping hand. Not the main builders of the foundation.
I've been meeting girls 5 days a week the last few weeks and it has been very interesting experiences, learning lessons about myself, girls and social clarity lessons.
I would say the main thing about AM is, the effects are more visible towards guys. Girls don't seem to be as much influenced by the effects of AM in me.
The last weeks I feel so alpha after going out solo all those nights that I've become very I don't give a f**k.
It's a hard place to arrive. Once you are there it still takes work to stay like that.
I've been very dedicated as I had planned and intended to commit to meeting girls and having bigger balls again.
Short recap of last weeks in socializing:
* Met around as many new girls as I have met my whole life, including before ex gf where I also met girls daily.
* Shifted my identity into someone I have CHOSEN to be. I'm not a byproduct of peoples thoughts about me anymore. I've gotten a lot of shit but they affect me little to none. Easily and quickly brushed off.
At the start of stage 2, in my post, u can see I was still concerned about what others thought about me.. like I had to appear in a certain way. Now I don't give a damn. All there is, is what do I want and I go and take action. The, what do others think about me? Is little to non-existent. It is about executing things in life. Getting things DONE without worrying about anything else because that's what champions do.
* I've become harder again. I had become soft before and I didn't know it. People in my life, like family, unfortunately promotes softness and safety. It's just the way they have been programmed. I'm a fresh and much needed hardness they might not feel comfortable with but deeper down craves. Because a soft man you can't trust in. It's instinct that will tell you that. A soft man doesn't get much shit done.
* Having much hotter girls respond well to me. FINALLY. Throughout my life, I've often had these hot girls look at me from afar and I would be too chicken to even say anything to them. Now I've experienced meeting and talking to these girls like I am the hottest guy she'll ever meet. Still work to be done to correct my mistakes in the interactions. Emotionally I'm affected zero if the girls leave.
* My self love has increased tremendously. It's a needed trait to safeguard when you don't succumb to being soft like most people today. It's how the society wants people so everything can be safe, I get it and it's good we got safety but we have gone too far into safety that I rarely meet strong personalities anymore. Lots of hive mind going on. The scary part is, you don't know when you are in the hive mind. It seems normal to you. But normal is mediocre today apparently. I'm looking for a society, a group that's got high standards and aspirations. People in this society sacrifice most things in their lives so that we can LIVE life in its deepest sense. By being engulfed in some kind of real life activities.. extreme present to the moment kind of lifestyle.
* Lessons in leadership, self-management, girls attraction, group dynamics, solid emotional stability
* I'm laughing when some guy is trying to appear alpha. Like it's funny he's trying so hard. But I'm also feeling a little empathy for them. Like.. what are you doing?!! Be useful, for someone or yourself.. stop wasting energy on trying to be cool for gods sake.. get some shit done!
* and much more...
Switching over to stage 3 of AM
In three days, the 23/11
-LM
RE: AM & GIRLS - COMMITMENT AND BALLS - SaltyMeatballs - 11-21-2021
@LionMonkey In which city are you doing game?