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RE: Back From The Living - Restarting [AM] by LionMonkey - LionMonkey - 07-05-2021
[AM Stage 1 - Day 11] – Tested and Better Eye-Contact
Waas up!
Forgot to tell about the tests girls have been giving me lately.
When I white-lied about something, they looked me dead in the eye and I held it easily.
That's attractive to them, even if they don't like to be "bested".
Sometimes I eventually tell them the truth because they keep nagging.
But once I do, they lose all interest. I'm fine either way but when they think they got you to change your behaviour because of them, it's game over – it's f**ked up. If you can explain this psychology or game they play, please do so!
Btw. my eye-contact have become better and more steady.
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Today I woke after 4 hours sleep and couldn't sleep again.
So we did errands and took a nap later.
After nap, the regular workout and then off to work.
Felt very confident. I think naps do WONDERS.
Last week I was practicing letting my attention flow more freely.
This week and onwards I'm practicing, being comfortable, being uncomfortable.
SO I'm basically actively seeking out stirrring the pot a little.
It's the CURE for my emotionless body.
It brings a sort of fear mixed with hunger that I use for feeling something to want to actively take action with beautiful girls.
It's a good start – actively looking for discomfort.
I think it's the missing ingredient for most people and therefore for society.
Instead of looking for happiness, well-being, pleasure, comfort etc.
Look for discomfort, stirring the pot a little and only relax when you put your body in bed.
I'm going to cultivate this for some time because it makes me feel alive and want to do something about my nice and comfortable current situation.
Hope you are crushing it!!
-LM
RE: Back From The Living - Restarting [AM] by LionMonkey - LionMonkey - 07-06-2021
[AM Stage 1 - Day 12] – Feeling Sexual
Yoo!
Quick update.
It has become easier to feel instant sexual when noticing a delicious chick.
I think AM helps with sort of a stability to uphold the new mindset of seeking discomfort.
Ex. today, a gorgeous chick on bike passed by as we were walking to a park.
I turned my head to seek the discomfort of seeing her and I got instead greeted with eyecontact.
I kept a soft gaze because I enjoyed what I saw.
She had a double take.
As she was biking away, in front of us, she was pulling her clothes a little bit. Sort of like so her boobies looked better in the white tee. Low-medium discomfort level for me.
Another example, I naturally chatted to a girl who was walking with a baby golden retriever. She wasn't very physically attractive but very open to chat. Low discomfort level for me.
That's it. Been spending a slow Tuesday today with some family.
Tomrrow we are going to party and meet some gals!!
-LM
RE: Back From The Living - Restarting [AM] by LionMonkey - LionMonkey - 07-07-2021
[AM Stage 1 - Day 13] – Getting Into the Game Again
Wassup!
Was out for an event. Tons of people.
People were mostly focused on the event though and then an hour later, everything closed down because of restrictions.
SO much looking forward to things getting closer to like before covid.
I'm starting to get a feel for meeting people again.
The seeking discomfort mentality has helped in taking some action.
I'm exerting myself to see what's up wherever I go.
Mostly exerting myself in I look where I want to, without hiding from things.
If something feels discomfortable, I'll look at that.
It's a starting point and I already felt more at ease with talking with people I see for the first time compared to day 9.
Talked to a few cashiers at the stands and bars.
Btw. got approached by a chick I knew from work.
She invited to sit by her table. I took opportunity because I wanted to talk to some girls close to the table.
A few minutes later, I did. It was short as they were about to leave but I did it.
Next part/leve of seeking discomfort is to talk to more groups as soon as I feel a discomfort or go and "sniper" a girl I find my type where there are obstacles that creates the discomfort.
Last night of AM and tomorrow I'll update this thread with a last post.
Then we will continue our journey with WM in a new thread.
Hope you've enjoyed the posts so far!
-LM
RE: Back From The Living - Restarting [AM] by LionMonkey - enoch - 07-08-2021
Hi LionMonkey, good to see you back.
Are you not finishing AM and switching to WM?
RE: Back From The Living - Restarting [AM] by LionMonkey - LionMonkey - 07-08-2021
(07-08-2021, 09:02 AM)enoch Wrote: Hi LionMonkey, good to see you back.
Are you not finishing AM and switching to WM?
Hey enoch, thx
That's right. I feel what I'm more focused on currently, is having more women in my life.
I feel pretty Alpha and don't see why I would continue with it after the 14 days of experiences with other people.
To me it's like you keep eating oranges (Become more Alpha) even though you've had enough orange.. and when in fact you would rather eat grapes (Attract more Women).
[AM Stage 1 - Day 14] – Switching to WM, new place, new life.. IF YOU DO THIS
Yo! As promised, last update.
I've been trying to organize everything in my new place and damn...
I realize I got so much garbage accumulated over the years.
So will be throwing out shit, even though I know they *COULD be useful but I haven't used most of them in 2-3 years.
That's a pretty good sign of to just find a way to get rid of them as they just take space.
Now let's say instead of a new place, it is YOUR MIND.
How much B.S. thoughts, thought-patterns, beliefs, do you take with you wherever you go?
It's a scary thought because most of them are the same every day, week, months and years.
And that's exactly a basic factor of why we are stuck where we are. There are NO SPACE for new thoughts and beliefs.
More useful ones that are required for the lifestyle and life that you want.
So yeah.. gotta organize my place..
Been living here for a months time now and I still can't seem to organize things.
Something I realize I'm actually not very good at. I suck at it lol.
Stuff is overrated and makes life more complicated.
The same when you implement new thoughts and beliefs when there are no space for them.
It's going to be "too much".
That's how I felt today after some family members helped move the last boxes and stuff in today.
Anyway..
Didn't notice much difference today.
Felt pretty alpha since I started seeking more discomfort and I kind of want people to be more alpha so that we can challenge each other and feel more powerful and strong.
Instead of comfortable and soft.
I did notice some guys were putting their arms around their girls after saw me looking at them.
In general 90% people I come in contact with are more polite or submissive than in the past.
But I don't care that much about this.
Rather, I'm more interested in how to push my own buttons so that I really start enjoying and desiring meeting chicks again and invite them into my life.
Though at first, I gotta make space for that
The journey is continued in my next thread running WM
Link: [WM] All in Baby
Be Great!
-LM