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RE: OFv3 - Dominant & Fearless - GreekGod22 - 06-27-2021
Day 17 / 180 ON
Ever since starting the hybrid track, I have yet to take a day off.
Last night, I did a cold approach without hesitation and felt no anxiety while talking with the girl.
2 nights ago, I had a dream, I was back in the city where I was in my university years, the theme of the dream wasn't fear, but I was a very fearful guy back then.
Setup: 1 loop hybrid on high-end Sony earphones | volume 11-12 / 15
@Shannon Is there a maximum recommended volume for the hybrid track?
RE: OFv3 - Dominant & Fearless - Shannon - 06-27-2021
(06-27-2021, 01:12 AM)GreekGod22 Wrote: Day 17 / 180 ON
Ever since starting the hybrid track, I have yet to take a day off.
Last night, I did a cold approach without hesitation and felt no anxiety while talking with the girl.
2 nights ago, I had a dream, I was back in the city where I was in my university years, the theme of the dream wasn't fear, but I was a very fearful guy back then.
Setup: 1 loop hybrid on high-end Sony earphones | volume 11-12 / 15
@Shannon Is there a maximum recommended volume for the hybrid track?
Maximum volume is whatever is comfortable to listen to for both the ultrasonic and masking audio.
RE: OFv3 - Dominant & Fearless - GreekGod22 - 06-28-2021
Day 18 / 180 OFF
I played the sub last night before bed. Woke up multiple times at night needing to eat / snack on something(milk and orange juice). As soon as I would get back in bed and close my eyes, I would enter a dream sequence while still being awake / conscious, but in alpha brain state. For a few seconds, I was conscious of it being a dream. In about 1m of closing my eyes, I was fully unconscious, dreaming & sleeping.
RE: OFv3 - Dominant & Fearless - GreekGod22 - 06-28-2021
Day 19 / 180 OFF
I realized that now it is time for a break, so today will be an OFF day too. Had a persistent mild headache and my brain feels "overloaded" and tired.
Still have a tendency to use masturbation as a coping mechanism for my emotional pain.
RE: OFv3 - Dominant & Fearless - GreekGod22 - 06-30-2021
Day 20 / 180 ON
Felling some degree of depression coming back. Masturbation impulses are very high these days, I didn't even try to resist them. I have to bounce back because every time I indulge excessively in this habit, I feel depressed and with a negative attitude towards life.
I have a high libido these days, so I don't know to what degree is OFv3 triggering these impulses, or is it due to my libido.
RE: OFv3 - Dominant & Fearless - Shannon - 06-30-2021
I suggest you keep increasing loops by 1 each ASPB cycle while the coping mechanism is manifesting. The goal is to override that coping response by providing just enough force to overcome the fear causing it. You should reach a point where the urge to masturbate is overridden and goes away, or you hit exhaustion. If you hit exhaustion, back off one loop per day on for the next cycle and run ASRB2 cycles on that number of loops to see how things progress.
RE: OFv3 - Dominant & Fearless - GreekGod22 - 07-01-2021
Day 21 / 180 ON
I played 2 loops of hybrid last night for the first time, that counts for day 20. I woke up feeling quite calm. Got up early and went to the gym in the morning (I usually go in the afternoon), which was a great choice as I feel energetic today.
I now think of my previous days where I've wasted time on porn and masturbation and just feel above it. It doesn't tempt me at all in this moment. Like I recognize that it was a waste of time and energy and will seek to make better use of my time.
RE: OFv3 - Dominant & Fearless - GreekGod22 - 07-02-2021
Day 22 / 180 ON
I have a lot of internal anger suppressed in me for so many years. And now I am struggling to reach a place of acceptance.
Sometimes I think lowly of myself, other times I have regrets about the past, about my decision, depressed how I haven't lived life to the fullest in my adolescence & youth.
RE: OFv3 - Dominant & Fearless - GreekGod22 - 07-03-2021
Day 23 / 180 ON
Today I did not took a day off as I felt a need to run the sub, so I ran 1 loop of hybrid on days 22 & 23, and 2 loops of hybrid on days 20 & 21.
I have felt a lot of calm and acceptance today about my life.
We all want amazingly fast permanent result of course, but I realize I will have to be patient with OFv3, and will probably need to commit to a full 6-months, which means that I will be running the sub until the end of year 2021.
I really hope for permanent & long-lasting results.
Last night I realized something. Whenever I am in a situation that triggers fear, I think back to all the moments in my life where I was fearful and it's a destructive habit, here's why: because I look for reasons that keep my fear alive.
Instead, what I should to is to train myself to be completely mindful / present to the moment. The past doesn't matter. All that matters is the decision that I take in the present moment. If I take a courageous decision, I will change for the better permanently. I have the power to reprogram my subconscious every moment I am in a fearful situation.
You have to do an act of courage to transform. To signal your brain that maybe you are worthy, maybe you are entitled to your desires. If done repeatedly, that act of courage will shape the new you and be ingrained in your identity.
Your subconscious beliefs determine your behavior / actions in this world. But your behavior can also be the catalyst to ingrain new beliefs. All that is required is to repeatedly overcome your fears.
@Shannon Am I right in saying this?
RE: OFv3 - Dominant & Fearless - Shannon - 07-03-2021
(07-03-2021, 12:09 PM)GreekGod22 Wrote: Day 23 / 180 ON
Today I did not took a day off as I felt a need to run the sub, so I ran 1 loop of hybrid on days 22 & 23, and 2 loops of hybrid on days 20 & 21.
I have felt a lot of calm and acceptance today about my life.
We all want amazingly fast permanent result of course, but I realize I will have to be patient with OFv3, and will probably need to commit to a full 6-months, which means that I will be running the sub until the end of year 2021.
I really hope for permanent & long-lasting results.
Last night I realized something. Whenever I am in a situation that triggers fear, I think back to all the moments in my life where I was fearful and it's a destructive habit, here's why: because I look for reasons that keep my fear alive.
Instead, what I should to is to train myself to be completely mindful / present to the moment. The past doesn't matter. All that matters is the decision that I take in the present moment. If I take a courageous decision, I will change for the better permanently. I have the power to reprogram my subconscious every moment I am in a fearful situation.
You have to do an act of courage to transform. To signal your brain that maybe you are worthy, maybe you are entitled to your desires. If done repeatedly, that act of courage will shape the new you and be ingrained in your identity.
Your subconscious beliefs determine your behavior / actions in this world. But your behavior can also be the catalyst to ingrain new beliefs. All that is required is to repeatedly overcome your fears.
@Shannon Am I right in saying this?
Yes, but at the same time, it is more complicated than that as well.
RE: OFv3 - Dominant & Fearless - GreekGod22 - 07-05-2021
Day 24 / 180 OFF & Day 25 / 180 ON
On Saturday, I took a complete day off and Sunday night at bedtime I played 2 loops of hybrid. I did dream something last night, but can't remember anything.
Been feeling quite good and at ease with myself this weekend, however that is likely due to me resuming a certain medication that I micro-dose daily, which has great mental effects for me. It makes me much more optimistic.
Given this, I can't distinguish at the moment what effect is OFv3 having.
The goal is to feel better overall and defeat my fears, whether that happens because of the sub or both the sub and the medication, it doesn't matter. Both can potentially have lasting effects.
RE: OFv3 - Dominant & Fearless - GreekGod22 - 07-05-2021
Day 26 / 180 OFF
I'm taking a day off today as I played 2 loops of hybrid last night and woke up with a minor headache.
Desire for masturbation / porn has diminished in the last few days, which is a good sign.
RE: OFv3 - Dominant & Fearless - GreekGod22 - 07-06-2021
Day 27 / 180 ON
Had a dream last night, and I remember some of it. I was accompanying my father (who is no longer alive in this world) going about places, he was trying to escape something, he was fearful of being chased / wanted by other people.
So it was like I felt his fear, it transferred into me.
Going through a mild depression phase at this moment on my OFv3 journey. I have a tendency to isolate myself from society, which is not what I want or need.
It was supposed to be a day off today, but I decided I need to run it.. And I have decided to increase the number of loops to 3 hybrid.
Depression and porn / masturbation habits are very much linked.
RE: OFv3 - Dominant & Fearless - tolgaocal80 - 07-07-2021
sorry to hear your loss Idk when did happen this,
subconcious is able to(generally uses this) communicate with us with our beloved ones faces, I read that a few times from differents sources. So this maybe a sign from your subconsicous that it is showing you that fear and trying and removing that fear.