(06-03-2021, 03:36 PM)RTBoss Wrote: Another observation: My sense of humor is returning to a more care-free place.  It's much more free-flowing, rather than held back-and-down by the "weight of the world."  Much more playful.  Kind of reminds me of my early-20s.  Back when I had everything to look forward to, and mid-life-and-beyond wasn't staring me down.  More belly laughs, and more enjoyment.  Very cool.

(06-03-2021, 04:06 PM)NOMAD Wrote:

(06-03-2021, 03:36 PM)RTBoss Wrote: Another observation: My sense of humor is returning to a more care-free place.  It's much more free-flowing, rather than held back-and-down by the "weight of the world."  Much more playful.  Kind of reminds me of my early-20s.  Back when I had everything to look forward to, and mid-life-and-beyond wasn't staring me down.  More belly laughs, and more enjoyment.  Very cool.

I'm becoming more care-free too in the "here I am" sense. Where that differs from the past is that it isn't the "here I am...screw you if you don't like it" that I used to experience. Now, it's simply, "here I am" and that nothing more.

It's nice.

• In the first, I was unzipping my pants to use a toilet.  I looked to my right, and saw that a floor-to-ceiling window provided full view of me and the toilet.  Five or ten feet from the window, a girl I know from my past (in real life, a friend I was extremely attracted to) was kneeling on the floor, unpacking clothes from a bag.  In waking life, she's a brunette with brown eyes.  In this dream, she had neck-length blonde hair, and piercing blue eyes.  I noticed that see was taking peeks at me from her periphery.  So I casually leaned my shoulder against the door frame and confidently pulled out my privates to start urinating.  This dick was big, lol.  As I went about my business, I could see out of my periphery that she was observing me, as she (unsuccessfully) tried to hide it.  I felt confident - almost egotistical.  After I finished, I went to talk to her.  She asked me to help her put some sort of top on (which, for some reason, was to cover a loose t-shirt she was already wearing).  As I did so, she leaned back so that I could see her breasts.  End of dream.
  
• In the second dream (which for some reason came across as a series of connected shorter dreams?), I was at some sort of indoor theme park.  There was a ticket taker at the entrance of a spooky-themed walkthrough that involved slides, bridges, accelerated walkways (as you'd find in an airport) and sideshow attractions.  In order to enter, you were required showed ID as proof-of-age, and then were handed a fruit square (much like a fruit rollup) that was a delivery system for some sort of legal, edible, substance that altered one's perception of reality.  I entered many different times - each time a different version - accompanied by friends or family.  End of dream.
  
• In the last dream, I was patronizing a high-class gym/fitness center.  In this gym, again I came across the girl from my first dream.  She looked the same.  This time, she was a fitness trainer and manager.  She approached me and asked how I liked the gym, and how I would compare it to the other two gyms in their chain.  The only conversational detail I remember is that we discussed the different locker sizes available at the different gym locations.  She was surprised at my observations, and appreciated my input.  As she went back to her duties, she shot me a flirty glance over her shoulder and waved goodbye, with a glowing smile across her face.  Then, as if in a different scene of the same movie, I was leaving the gym.  Men were sitting around inside the entrance, casually making small talk.  The next thing I know, I'm being walked around by a guy who was introducing me to people - all of whom were "special" in some way.  "This guy is a hero, he did this, or that."  Then it was explained to me how I had inspired them all in some way to do whatever it was they did to be "special."  End of dream.
  

(06-05-2021, 08:03 AM)GreekGod22 Wrote: How do you guys even remember dreams with that much detail? I mostly forget most details.

(06-11-2021, 10:42 AM)RTBoss Wrote: Had a tough time sleeping last night.

Woke at 1:30 AM, had to pee, needed water, and was hot as hell - even though I had the AC on and the fan at medium speed.

Stayed up until 2:45 AM, eventually had to take 1mg of melatonin and another diphenhydramine (Benedryl).  

More dreams, involving women and money, but don't remember any details. 

Tired as hell today, but what's completely different is that today I feel really good - no anxiety, no stress, very good mood.

Going out to celebrate with my wife sans kids now.  As I alluded to before, big changes are afoot.  Probably will fill the forum in around the end of July.