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RE: **Jake's Overcoming Fear v.3 5.75.7G Journal** - Jake2015 - 05-20-2021
(05-20-2021, 01:09 AM)AriGold Wrote: As Qiel recommended I would use the masked version, otherwise you are the whole time overthinking the usage (is the device right, is the sound loud enough, ...).
Just listen to the one loop either on ocean or trickling stream in a comfortable volume. Do that and follow the instructions. Do not expect anything to change within the first 3 months of usage. Just use it and continue with your life.
Thanks AriGold, everytime I see your profile picture I have to remind myself that you are not him (Jeremy Piven) lol
Yeah that could be an idea once im back as could headphones too. Right now the US 13/15 volume is all I can stick to with the lifestyle I have at home. Its so busy and chaotic due to personal reasons and people I care for but yeah thank you for the advice bro!
RE: **Jake's Overcoming Fear v.3 5.75.7G Journal** - Jake2015 - 05-20-2021
(05-20-2021, 09:02 AM)Shannon Wrote: It will be far better to use Ultrasonic on speakers (even phone speakers) instead of Masked with headphones. Remember... DON'T CHANGE ANYTHING ONCE YOU START FOR AT LEAST 14 DAYS. Just use ultrasonic on your cell phone at 13/15 and follow the instructions. Stop trying to fiddle with it all the time!
Ah the GURU has spoken. So US with speakers or phone speakers it shall be.
Yes not changing anything now for atleast 14days but since you said it Shannon, then ill stick with US for a long while hopefully yet. So no headphones to be used which clears that consideration for me.
Deal!
RE: **Jake's Overcoming Fear v.3 5.75.7G Journal** - Jake2015 - 05-20-2021
Thursday 20th May 2021 - Day 2
Played on my s10 phone today (not s7 edge as I had yesterday). Volume 13/15.
Hit play, then put head onto pillow. Time was around 6.30am.
Soon as my head hit the pillow this time there was NO negative or fearful thoughts BUT BUT BUT I did feel that there was some pressure (not tension as that to me implies headache of sorts or a troublesome feeling but this was a pressure feeling, not unbearable but there was something going on in my head).
This pressure feeling was around my head. So do any of you remember 80s sweatbands that went around the forehead and back of the head? Or perhaps the 80s style head band worn by Daniel San in Karate Kid or Rambo? I know Shannon will when he reads this. So I thought about this when I felt this pressure that it around the area a head band would be worn. I also then wondered if from there it was also above it to the top of the head. I was considering this as I lay in bed but sadly cant remember now.
The point is that yes I did feel some pressure.
I woke again tired and groggy as yesterday.
Today I have had fearful thoughts surrounding my future once I finish my degree, but also the fact that as a mature student ive wasted so many years of my life and only now im finally doing what ive always wanted to do but I feel im not the age I am but im at the age a new graduate would be, as if im decades behind where I should be. I also had fearful thoughts around not knowing enough to do the job and how will I even cope.
I then got talking to family about what car to buy and the sports car is a dream but it was shot down by them and then they discussed what car I should get and tried to put the decision on me even though I was sat there and then well I just got annoyed inside. Im the youngest so now matter how old I am to the world im still insignificant to them when it comes to these grand decisions it seems.
Anyway whilst typing this ive come to realise the the real data from my POV is the obvious pressure feeling. The rest such as fearful thoughts etc could be
1) simply a placebo since im aware im listening to a particular sub designed to combat fear
2) could just be my normal thoughts of the day and for the purpose of this journal ive simply focused on anything fear related so I cannot say for sure if this is normal or not.
Either way its too early to say anything I feel but im sharing all I can.
My 3 days break starts now so ill just note down those dates here incase I lose track...
Day 3 off - Fri 21 May
Day 4 off - Sat 22 May
Day 5 off - Sun 23 May
ill update with data if anything is noticed.
Day 6 ON - Mon 24 May
Day 7 ON - Tues 25 May
Day 8 OFF - Wed 26 May
Day 9 OFF - Thurs 27 May
Day 10 OFF - Fri 28 May
Day 11 ON - Sat 29 May
Day 12 ON - Sun 30 May
Addendum:
I am using Ultrasonic Flac track and I am using PULSAR music app as recommended to me by Shannon himself. (ive now added this extra info to post #1 too)
RE: **Jake's Overcoming Fear v.3 5.75.7G Journal** - Jake2015 - 05-20-2021
Thursday 20th May 2021 - Day 2
Part 2:
So having completed my journal and whilst browsing other members OF v3 journals, I was disturbed by the sound of our home security alarm being set off.
After an initial startle I closed all tabs on my browser (had this and xhamster open even though had no desire for porn lol ) and stepped out into the landing/hallway and stood with my fists on my hips (superman pose) whilst listening to see what if anything was wrong.
My brother woke saying he will check the alarm from him phone whilst still half asleep on his bed whilst I remained silent and stoic.
The point is I didnt feel fear nor recall feeling any apprehension. I felt well, confident and strong.
Significant who knows but its data and its here in this journal.
RE: **Jake's Overcoming Fear v.3 5.75.7G Journal** - CatMan - 05-20-2021
(05-20-2021, 08:07 PM)Jake2015 Wrote: stepped out into the landing/hallway and stood with my fists on my hips (superman pose).
I remained silent and stoic.
I didnt feel fear nor recall feeling any apprehension. I felt well, confident and strong.
Jake: Stands like Superman, has an avatar of Batman.
NOICE.
Now just stay the course, and don't invent any more reasons to not listen EVER. Sounds like you're getting results already. I knew V3 would be a winner. Excellent.
RE: **Jake's Overcoming Fear v.3 5.75.7G Journal** - Jake2015 - 05-20-2021
(05-20-2021, 08:20 PM)CatMan Wrote:(05-20-2021, 08:07 PM)Jake2015 Wrote: stepped out into the landing/hallway and stood with my fists on my hips (superman pose).
I remained silent and stoic.
I didnt feel fear nor recall feeling any apprehension. I felt well, confident and strong.
Jake: Stands like Superman, has an avatar of Batman.
NOICE.
Now just stay the course, and don't invent any more reasons to not listen EVER. Sounds like you're getting results already. I knew V3 would be a winner. Excellent.
Haha good point about batman and superman there bro!
Thank you lets wait and see but im optimistic.... with 1 loop, 2 days on and 3 days off id be a real fool to not keep up thats for sure lol
RE: **Jake's Overcoming Fear v.3 5.75.7G Journal** - Qiel - 05-20-2021
(05-20-2021, 08:20 PM)CatMan Wrote:(05-20-2021, 08:07 PM)Jake2015 Wrote: stepped out into the landing/hallway and stood with my fists on my hips (superman pose).
I remained silent and stoic.
I didnt feel fear nor recall feeling any apprehension. I felt well, confident and strong.
Jake: Stands like Superman, has an avatar of Batman.
NOICE.
Now just stay the course, and don't invent any more reasons to not listen EVER. Sounds like you're getting results already. I knew V3 would be a winner. Excellent.
I think so too. He even wrote the xhamster link without hesitation. The result are kicking in.
RE: **Jake's Overcoming Fear v.3 5.75.7G Journal** - fab10 - 05-20-2021
You. Are. Executing.
Congrats!
RE: **Jake's Overcoming Fear v.3 5.75.7G Journal** - Jake2015 - 05-21-2021
(05-20-2021, 08:31 PM)Qiel Wrote:(05-20-2021, 08:20 PM)CatMan Wrote:(05-20-2021, 08:07 PM)Jake2015 Wrote: stepped out into the landing/hallway and stood with my fists on my hips (superman pose).
I remained silent and stoic.
I didnt feel fear nor recall feeling any apprehension. I felt well, confident and strong.
Jake: Stands like Superman, has an avatar of Batman.
NOICE.
Now just stay the course, and don't invent any more reasons to not listen EVER. Sounds like you're getting results already. I knew V3 would be a winner. Excellent.
I think so too. He even wrote the xhamster link without hesitation. The result are kicking in.
haha well I really do hope so but still being patient and calm until atleast more days are passed
RE: **Jake's Overcoming Fear v.3 5.75.7G Journal** - Jake2015 - 05-21-2021
(05-20-2021, 08:50 PM)fab10 Wrote: You. Are. Executing.
Congrats!
haha thanks bro if that is the case. For now im going to say same as I did above to Qiel, that lets see what more I share and what more happens.
RE: **Jake's Overcoming Fear v.3 5.75.7G Journal** - Jake2015 - 05-21-2021
3/180 days
Day 3 off - Fri 21 May
So day off today. Its been a crazy one as I didnt sleep due to having 2 University webinars to attend online.
1 was at 6.30am and the other was at 8.30am. Since I was awake and had updated this journal around 4am I stayed awake all night.
Around 9.30am the webinars finished and I fell asleep...heavy because by now my body and eyes had to give in to the sleep.
I woke around 2.30pm, usual time for me when in UK, getting 6hours on average as usual (so sleep cycle is same whether on this sub or not) however I woke extremely tired as if I had woken up during deep sleep suddenly (which is a possibly what happened ofcourse).
All day ive been feeling either tired, sleepy or mild headaches now and again. Now and again because other times I felt fine too but today was more of these symptoms or perhaps more prevalent and deeper than usual days.
These can all be put down to the sub or can be to the fact that this 1 day was an extreme day due to the webinars and staying awake all night thus resulting in a messed up energy level today.
I cannot be sure for certain but i dont feel as stressed today as I did yesterday and didnt feel fear today or anything fearful. On the contrary I think it was this morning I did a quick google search for a topic I know I need to study myself for myself when I return back to uni as its something I need to know going into the job market and I felt no real fear or stress around it.
Again I cannot be sure if this is the sub or its me but im hoping that as I continue to provide data that if this sub is indeed working and I am executing that it becomes obvious to me as so far I cannot be certain.
Ive been here before with subs where initially I or others have felt something only for (in my case) it to fade away to nothing if ever there was anything to begin with (usually hasnt been for me).
Im not overthinking this im just providing data but erring on caution before I get excited or demotivated.
For now im just playing and going with the flow.
I cant remember anything else to add at this stage.
so another 2 days of no listening to commence but hope this data helps Shannon and us all.
addendum:
Ok shit as usual as soon as I write and post up then things eventually come into my mind to add back to the journal.
So today I did have a fearful thought. I recall a moment when in my 20s I worked and I felt lost. I had no idea what I was doing at work, not a clue how others around me were getting results (this was in sales) and I wasnt. I recall feeling as if I had learnt nothing and knew nothing at all.
I felt like this during my education days as a teen/adult and I feel it now as someone that is a mature student at uni.
This fear then made me think about how will i be when I finally graduate and start working again and I know nothing at all. I will go in and others will be walking past me and around me and I will be there in the centre feeling lost and unsure. Then all these years of studying gone to waste.
So yes today there was this fearful thought. It wasnt a long thought nor a long lingering thought but it was still a thought that I had and sharing. I dont know if I felt anxious due to it or not as I cant remember but it was enough to come into my mind now to add here as data.
RE: **Jake's Overcoming Fear v.3 5.75.7G Journal** - Shannon - 05-22-2021
How hard are you trying to have fearful thoughts, Jake?
RE: **Jake's Overcoming Fear v.3 5.75.7G Journal** - Jake2015 - 05-22-2021
(05-22-2021, 07:22 AM)Shannon Wrote: How hard are you trying to have fearful thoughts, Jake?Im not trying at all, should I be?
Im just going with the flow and sharing anything that seems relevant to at the moment i type as usual or if anything sticks out during the day that I may feel could help.
RE: **Jake's Overcoming Fear v.3 5.75.7G Journal** - Jake2015 - 05-22-2021
4/180
Day 4 off - Sat 22 May - OFF #2
So 2nd day off today.
I woke up tired and all day ive been tired. I have been getting on with anything I need to but its clear im tired and more tired than usual.
I think today I also had some light headache or maybe it was yesterday lol I cant recall but today yeah its been a tiring day. As if im not sleeping enough (story of my life) but its been noticable past few days so ive thought today that this could very well be the sub.
Anything else to share not really no fearful thoughts except that I watched the last episode today of a show ive followed for 7years. It came to an end. I just felt remorse and perhaps upset that my adult life has been wasted and dead. Inactivity due to fear and anxiety of my weight and not living to my potential.
Other than this I felt perhaps a little more free and calm. I had a little argument at my bro but less anxiety than usual and less feelings of stress perhaps. I think thats something to note that I dont feel as fearful perhaps or stressed out or maybe I dont sense as much anxiety when I could be triggered to usually feel them but so far unsure if its the sub or perhaps just the situation and how it played out today.
The biggest take away for me is the tiredness and feeling that I really need to sleep well and 2nd take away from today for me is perhaps a calmer more resolute composure but the jury is out at the moment on this one.
Im hopeful that in a weeks worth of playing this sub and perhaps in 2 weeks and then a month that it will become clearer what is happening but im definitely optimistic....lets see what happens
Unlike some of you that are playing this sub, which are playing whilst awake im hitting play and sleeping so my data is based on when I wake and what I feel in the day. Due to this and not knowing exactly what is in this sub im trying to share anything and everything I can so that a pattern can emerge for me to realise I am executing and for shannon data to know what is going on.
Addendum:
So after replying to @Qiel in the next 1 or 2 posts I went to read journals for today and then came to Qiels journal and whilst writing a reply I had an idea (https://subliminal-talk.com/Thread-Qiel-s-OF-v3?pid=245023#pid245023)
So since this sub may be so subtle that ive absolutely no idea what will happen until weeks or months into it I felt maybe I should list some obvious indicators of how I should feel 6months later or when I know I am executing and releasing all my inner fears.
The obvious one for me is less fear and anxiety or zero towards procrastinating and inaction on studying and academic self learning.
Another would be again zero negative fears around thinking about the future or what time ive lost of my past.
Third is perhaps not having fear of being unable to look after myself should I end up living when im back in a bad area of town or the rougher areas but confidence.
I think perhaps releasing all fears would lead to greater confidence and lack of oneitis or stress when into a woman - perhaps.
I just thought it would be cool to state these. Other fears I cant share as they may be dependent on being in a situation to test it out such as fear of spiders, bees/wasps or of heights for example.
Now my 3rd day off starts.