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+--- Thread: **Jake's Overcoming Fear v.2 5.75.5G Journal** (/Thread-Jake-s-Overcoming-Fear-v-2-5-75-5G-Journal)
RE: **Jake's Overcoming Fear v.2 5.75.5G Journal** - Jake2015 - 01-14-2021
Thursday 14th Jan - Day 5 of cycle 2
Listened through s10 - no tension at start anymore.
RE: **Jake's Overcoming Fear v.2 5.75.5G Journal** - Jake2015 - 01-15-2021
Friday 15th Jan - Day 6 of cycle 2
s10. Used Frequensee out of curiosity to assess around my bed and seems to work great - saw the quiet and the sub parts of track show up nicely.
Today got angry at my bro and shouted. It was more anger at getting back at him due to an issue from earlier and something occured which angered me so I let loose in the day. Relevant no idea but its data.
I do feel as if ive lost or reduced confidence or masculine grit this year. not sure why.
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Saturday 16th Jan - Day 7 of cycle 2 (1 Day break which is every saturday for me)
The end of cycle 2 and week 2 of being on this sub so far.
cycle 3 will commence on Sunday
RE: **Jake's Overcoming Fear v.2 5.75.5G Journal** - Jake2015 - 01-16-2021
Friday 15th Jan - Day 6 of cycle 2
Continued...
Got pushed by my mother to do work and so it was around 2am, I sat down to do something. Wasnt academic but housekeeping ie things on my mind I need to tick off. Point is I got into the zone/a flow and got on with it and the procrastination went. As is usually the case.
Point being I got pushed, and I did it.
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Saturday 16th Jan - Day 7 of cycle 2 - day of break
continued...
Anyway I repeated the work again without being told to. I work great at night but I also want to eat and relax too.
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Sunday 17th Jan - Day 1 of Cycle 3
will start the sub shortly.
RE: **Jake's Overcoming Fear v.2 5.75.5G Journal** - Zane - 01-17-2021
Yeah, that's how it is.. You need a push even if you don't like. Things work in mysterious ways but it works.
RE: **Jake's Overcoming Fear v.2 5.75.5G Journal** - Jake2015 - 01-18-2021
(01-17-2021, 05:27 PM)Zane Wrote: Yeah, that's how it is.. You need a push even if you don't like. Things work in mysterious ways but it works.
Thanks bro been a while, hope alls well.
Yeh thats how its been, that push helps me to overcome the lack of action, or to overcome the excuses that seem to be there in the mind. its worked but that work ive done has been the easier less fearful or boring work.
RE: **Jake's Overcoming Fear v.2 5.75.5G Journal** - Jake2015 - 01-18-2021
Sunday 17th Jan - Day 1 of Cycle 3 - s10
Monday 18th Jan - Day 2 of cycle 3 - s10
Tuesday 19th Jan - day 3 of cycle 3
Nothing to report except that I may have to use s7 today for this run of the sub as I need my s10 free.
Hopefully it will still work and do the job for me.
RE: **Jake's Overcoming Fear v.2 5.75.5G Journal** - Jake2015 - 01-19-2021
Tuesday 19th Jan - day 3 of cycle 3
continued....
Played on s10 - now realised that I do tend to wake up I THINK not 100% certain but think I may be waking up either as the sub is ending or once it has ended. Im not too sure or clear on this however but have a feeling of "what if"
Wednesday 20th Jan - Day 4 of cycle 3 - ready to be played.
RE: **Jake's Overcoming Fear v.2 5.75.5G Journal** - Jake2015 - 01-21-2021
Wednesday 20th Jan - Day 4 of cycle 3 - s10
Woke agitated wondering when will the sub work and when will I execute. Its now cycle 3 of the latest tech and so far nothing to report sadly.
Also remembered when ive been so afraid as a child and how in high school every day was an anxious day. All the bullying I face (mental) and the way I never was comfortable at school due to it.
I realised that this anxiety I faced every day caused me to shut down academically and then coming home to a stressful home wasnt any better.
So thinking about this and realising that I must be where I am due to all this isnt great and thus the sub not working was pissing me off.
Extra:
I cant recall when this was but it wasnt on this date maybe a week or so ago but I came down and heard a noise and fear hit me. There was nothing and no-one there and I composed myself ready to kick ass but the anxiety within was elevated instead of me feeling like a jedi knight.
Conclusion I dont see the sub working as yet
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Thursday 21st Jan - Day 5 of cycle 3 - s10
No agitated feeling today because I am playing the sub and just thinking fine carry on and hope that it does work for me.
My academic procrastinations and the fact im not reaching my goals is causing fear of the future in me.
I know its fear that stops me from focusing academically and fear is what is surrounding my academic experience and goals.
I need OF to start working man!
RE: **Jake's Overcoming Fear v.2 5.75.5G Journal** - Jake2015 - 01-22-2021
Friday 22 Jan - Day 6 of cycle 3 - s7 & s10
So had to listen with s7 at first then during track 3 had to move to s10 and leave my bedroom.
RE: **Jake's Overcoming Fear v.2 5.75.5G Journal** - Jake2015 - 01-23-2021
Saturday 23 Jan - Day 7 of cycle 3 - s10 - supposed to be 1 day of break
I missed the break today so listened to the sub.
I was talking to mum when something mum said reminded me that I had a nightmare. I totally forgot and cannot remember if it was a bad dream I had lastnight or a night before.
I cant even believe that I forgot all about it.
The dream I dont think helps in being shared, since nobody is exactly dream interpretation qualified but it was a dream in which I did get a jolt of panic and fear perhaps.
I slept alot today about 14hours with 1 break for the bathroom in between. I was exhausted but I cannot sadly say if this was the sub or not as all week ive hardly slept and do believe it caught up with me. Whether the exhaustion is the sub or not matters little to me as long as I get some execution and results. So far nothing concrete to say im executing yet.
Thats all folks nothing as yet to share and im about to begin cycle 4 tomorrow.
At the end of cycle 4 it will have been 1 month on this powerful sub and as yet I have nothing to show for it
RE: **Jake's Overcoming Fear v.2 5.75.5G Journal** - Jake2015 - 01-24-2021
Sunday 24 Jan - Day 1 of cycle 4 - s7
done
RE: **Jake's Overcoming Fear v.2 5.75.5G Journal** - Jake2015 - 01-25-2021
Monday 25 Jan - Day 2 of cycle 4 - s10
Done
RE: **Jake's Overcoming Fear v.2 5.75.5G Journal** - Jake2015 - 01-26-2021
Tuesday 26 Jan - Day of break today.
https://subliminal-talk.com/Thread-Shannon-s-Journal-Discussion-Thread-Vol-5?pid=242183#pid242183
As per Shannon's reply in the above link, I took a 1 day break today.
I will start cycle 4 tomorrow and will reduce the volume from 13/15 to 12/15, as per Shannon's advice in the link.
RE: **Jake's Overcoming Fear v.2 5.75.5G Journal** - Jake2015 - 01-27-2021
Wednesday 27 Jan - Day 1 of cycle 4 - 12/15
Today is the first day of using the volume 12/15 as per my previous post.
I will use this for this week and see if I notice anything. If I do not then I shall reduce the volume again for another week.
This is the start of my 4th week, so far as you have read I have noticed absolutely nothing and at 13/15 I was very optimistic and hopeful, especially as I paid money for this updated version even though I had the previous version.
I was optimistic and now im midly less so and not sure if I will get away even with this sub and its FRM :/