(04-22-2017, 03:58 PM)RTBoss Wrote:

(04-22-2017, 03:01 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote:

(04-22-2017, 01:42 PM)RTBoss Wrote: I'm sure we all have a "darkside," but to say I'm as normal as a "picket fence" is laughable. My own wife is the epitome of a good girl. Her "darkest" interests are war movies, romance novels that take place in 15-17th century England/Scotland. She doesn't drink to excess, and has never done drugs. She's never cheated, and as far as I know, even had thoughts. I've never caught her in a lie, nor has she ever hidden anything from me. And that's just one example. Then there's my dad and my brother - the Dual Princes of Morality. Anyway, I could go on w/ example after example.

No, I never watched Two & a Half Men. I didn't like it, for whatever reason.

My wife not making sex a big cornerstone of life may be a red flag, but I'm not leaving her for it. She's been through some shit - kidnapped by a man who was going to rape and kill her, then "rescued" by her boyfriend who then beat her, and force-***** her whenever he wanted. Then she lost her dad in a hunting accident. Yeah, if she has some trauma in that area, I'll leave her be.

I'm glad you're ***** up, though, Sarge. It definitely makes me feel better - haha. You have to understand, it's not like everyone just goes around airing their dirty laundry. It's the opposite, everybody goes out wearing their "Face." So as far as "getting over myself," it's not like there are a ton of examples of ***** up people out there, unless you count porn stars and the assholes killing people that end up on the evening news. My "best friend" (I've talked about him in my journals before) is a ****-up, and ***** up, and he does ***** up things. I'm pretty sure I could entrust these things I'm talking about with him, except...OH YEAH, I don't trust him. So really, I guess you could say I'm the Black Sheep of my immediate world. The people I interact with on a regular basis, in person, I'm it.

You say my SIL fantasies are tame, well...maybe that's why a lot of ppl on these forums are into the story. I dunno, it's kinda funny that no one has said, "Man, really? Your sister-in-law? That's just ***** up!"

My brother-in-law doesn't get girls. He got my sister-in-law. Big difference. This guy couldn't get a girl if she was spit-out chewing gum and he was a shoe that stepped on it. Seriously. She was his first everything. First date, first kiss, first lay, and he had to beg her about 10 times to go out with him.

I don't live as if I'm going to die tomorrow. People like that...die tomorrow. I just live my life as I want to, and do the best I can, and try to accept that as being good enough. I'm always trying to be a better version of myself, but sometimes I become a somewhat worse version, to get to the better, for a time.

Thanks for your input, though.

I sense I struck a nerve, which was not my intention. But if you're not f*cked up, you're normal (i.e. "white picket fence") so you're one or the other my friend.

No, you're reading to much into it. Lovely thing about the written word, at times it doesn't convey tone all that well if you aren't careful.

I don't think it's that black and white, though, dude. F*cked up or normal. There's a lot of gray area. More than 50 shades of it.

(04-22-2017, 04:36 PM)RTBoss Wrote: In the photos, there's a small shout out to a forum member here... wonder if anyone will catch it!

(04-22-2017, 01:51 PM)RTBoss Wrote: Alrighty, folks. Here it is, the many screenshots of IOIs I received the other night that I was talking about.

SO HEAD'S UP, CATMAN! I'm only leaving this up for 24 hours, if not LESS!


The pictures are in no particular order, but it's pretty accurate. You can probably figure it out for yourself.

We can discuss here, but I'd appreciate no reposting of the pictures. Thanks.

[URL REMOVED PER BOSS'S REQUEST]

If anyone would like to debate whether or not they feel something is an IOI or not, or has more to add, please do. Also, remember that it is the grouping and multitude of IOIs that tell the tale!

PS - I included 2 non-IOI photos for reference.

(04-22-2017, 06:19 PM)wolverine_i_am Wrote: Why does the link not work? Lol. I am on my android though.

(04-22-2017, 06:14 PM)chaosvrgn Wrote:

(04-22-2017, 01:51 PM)RTBoss Wrote: Alrighty, folks. Here it is, the many screenshots of IOIs I received the other night that I was talking about.

SO HEAD'S UP, CATMAN! I'm only leaving this up for 24 hours, if not LESS!


The pictures are in no particular order, but it's pretty accurate. You can probably figure it out for yourself.

We can discuss here, but I'd appreciate no reposting of the pictures. Thanks.

[URL REMOVED PER BOSS'S REQUEST]

If anyone would like to debate whether or not they feel something is an IOI or not, or has more to add, please do. Also, remember that it is the grouping and multitude of IOIs that tell the tale!

PS - I included 2 non-IOI photos for reference.

ROFL! These photos! These are some rather blatant IOIS. I don't understand why your wife isn't slapping the f*ck out of her sister! Especially with the lip touching. Every time I've seen that, if I went for a kiss, not only would she reciprocate enthusiastically, but she'd also wonder how I knew she wanted to be kissed.

(04-22-2017, 04:40 PM)RTBoss Wrote: Sitting curbside waiting for a sushi to take to my wife, who's working a 24 hour shift, pregnant and hungry.

They "didn't receive the order." I calmly showed email proof, and they were shocked.

I kept my cool, they rushed the order, and we got free dessert to boot. So more screwed up food orders resulting in more free stuff.

Moreover, I'm proud of myself for legit keeping my cool. It wasn't just external, it was internal.

Quote:So, where is all this going? There is a face I wear, and then there is the deepest, truest, most honest "me." No one knows "me," but "me." I've never found a person like me who'd I'd trust with "me." No one who'd understand, no one who'd "get it." This leaves me feeling very alone at times. I'd prefer to hide this "me" and not deal with the fallout and/or judgement of "trying to get people to understand."

(04-22-2017, 03:56 PM)RTBoss Wrote: Actually, I recently read something ... somewhere ... that showed women are capable of getting their sexual desires completely satisfied by reading material. Not sure how accurate that is, but it makes a lot of sense.

I postulated getting kinky to her. She laughed. Tieing her up freaks her out - probably something to do with the kidnapping. Spanking? No go. I've purchased toys, done all kinds of shit. The kinkiest I've got her to try was when I got out the Hitachi magic wand I bought and said I was going to give her orgasms, one after the other, until she couldn't handle it anymore. I think she stopped me at 3, lol. That was years ago.

Early on in our relationship, when we were having sex a lot, she acted as if she didn't want to - but it seemed playful. It was almost like a rape-fantasy. I couldn't tell then, and I couldn't tell to this day. I asked her about it, and she wouldn't talk about it.