(07-08-2018, 07:32 AM)Raz Wrote:

(07-08-2018, 07:19 AM)Shannon Wrote: US/UM appears to be an option. US/LM also. But bringing all three together seems to create a conflict that does not work well.

I like the idea of US/UM more than US/LM. Motivation is an activity driver while waiting for synchronicities seems like a more passive approach.

(07-04-2018, 08:21 PM)subliminalsrcool Wrote: ...Also just curious is that really you in your avatar?

(07-07-2018, 02:57 AM)ChangeMaker Wrote: @Shannon
I am having very hard times, and recently, thoughts of suicide is coming to my head. I have developed lots of issues in the last 4-5 years! I would like to share here about those in details. Maybe you guys could help, give advice
• I started masturbating to porn from age 12. I slowly grew the habit, and internet was also becoming more and more available, easy to access. I have been a chain-masturbator from then! I couldn’t live without it a single week… I would do it 2-3 times a week, but each time I started to masturbate like 5-6 times! Sometimes, my penis started bleeding, my balls became very painful. I believe, from there, I started to develop sexual damages. My penis is terribly curved on the direction I masturbate aggressively (like a banana, curve towards up, and very steep curve!). I can’t pee if penis is erected because of this kind of bend! I blow my load within 5-10 seconds of masturbating now (I believe I have created Premature Ejaculation issue). My hair is falling very fast (already baldness is noticed above forehead), my eye sight is drastically decreased. I feel low all the time. No motivation, no drive to do something in life! Yet, I can’t stop this life damaging habit! I can stop for maybe 2 weeks, and then, again, urge takes control.

Quote:• Perfectionist Procrastination. Every time I masturbate, I feel guilty after the event. Then, I slowly gain motivation to stop this addiction, start doing something in life. I plan many things! I start as plan, and within next 3-7 days, I lose all motivation. Jerk off some porn, give up everything, Feel guilty again. And then, Again, I start gaining motivation to change my life forever, plan on something…. And my cycle goes on… it’s a vicious cycle! And I am on it for last 4-5 years maybe. I think, I want everything perfect, not expecting anything outside my plan, and even if they happen, I would lose motivation, give up on plan. And start over with new plan… another vicious cycle!

Quote:• Where the pain started. My failure with girls. I think I was a “nice guy” from my childhood, and maybe my family life affected me to be that character! More on that later… I think, I started to feel attraction for women in my coaching classes from class 8 in high school, Before that, I rarely met girl-classmates, as I was in a boys high school. I liked girls from there. Somehow managed to talk with some of them, and they became my good friends! I mean, I got a group of girls (17 of them as far as I remember) who talked with me in coaching class. I liked some of them. I was very “nice” with them. I even proposed one, and got rejected! That was my first proposal, and first rejection! Heartbroken me got obsessed with that girl. I was thinking about her all day long! Then I created another trauma in my mind called “imaginary relationships”. I would imagine all the things with her (mostly negative, and that emotion was addictive too). I was also ashamed of the situation. Finally the coaching was over, and one girl from there remained very good friend of mine. Other women just didn’t talk with me after that rejection! We remained friends for 2-3 more years, and I fell for her too! Btw, I was also very “nice” with her. In the mean time, I “discovered” PUA, read stuffs, and realized that I was very nice with this girl, and she was just using me for her advantages! I proposed her with confession, and got rejected too!

Quote:Anyway, after I joined university one year ago, I disconnected all contacts with my previous friends, that girl too… I wanted to start my life again with new motivation, friends in the varsity. I joined Architecture. Now architecture is really interesting to me as I never expected to study it before, I was like a study guy who would read books, do maths! Architecture is about creativity, making things out of nowhere, travelling to see different architecture, sculpture! I enjoyed, and pretty much forgot my past life. But Pornography, masturbation habit remained! Perfectionism remained. Vicious cycles remained! Then…
In university, I met lots of hot women! But Mr nice guy is still virgin, masturbate to porn, and wonder how some guys just get these hot girls with very short time, make them their girlfriend, **** them, then leave them for more!!

Quote:Here, in varsity, I met women! Again, I proposed a woman I like, and got rejected. She is my classmate. I lost the friendship between us, and she started to ignore me! Now, I am stuck with a cancer in my class! Everyone knows about this rejection in my class, We meet everyday in class but don’t talk. It is very weird, embarrassing for me! I lost my focus, joy of architecture too because of some BS I have done so far! Every girl friendzone me! I don’t know what to do! Now I wonder, even if I marry someone, they will cheat on me! And I am frustrated too! As I see my classmates, cousins **** lots of women, and I can’t! I am helpless!

Quote:• My childhood. The strictness of my mother. My mother has been very strict about me from my childhood. She kept me away from many things. I believe, that affected my natural growth, and maturity! I always feared her from childhood. She never let me go outside, so I am an introvert now, I have social anxiety, I fear to meet new people, talk to new people! I still properly don’t know many things as an adult. I can’t shop alone, I don’t know roads very well, I can cook though(LOL)… After coming to university, I have met classmates who are far far mature than me, so that made me question my current position. I am also not very free with my family, as I have grown shame about me! I can’t even discuss my issues with them now. Even if I do, what may they do! I am bringing this childhood issues, because, it is possible that, many things from my past are blocking me! My cousins used to bully me because they thought I walked like strange! I was also a fat kid then! My mom always adviced me to stay away from girls, relationships, these are not good etc etc…

Quote:• Present Depression, Negativity. I am very fed up with my life. I am frustrated because I don’t know how to get out of these! I want a happy life, I want to get free from my dependence of my family, make money, do something in life, get women. But these are not happening! I am very depressed! I drink coffee all day, because I think it makes me relief a bit from thinking too much. I am addicted to caffeine too! Negative thoughts, imaginations come to my mind always. Blood flow to my brain when I imagine negative things. Still I can’t stop them. My condition has become like Chester Bennington of Linkin Park band who suicided few months ago! His song “Heavy” kind of relates to me!

Quote:I don’t know how am I gonna get out of these, sometimes I think of suicide. I have lost the rhythm, joy of life. I am boring, depressed, sexually, mentally damaged. I am immature, I suck with women, I think negative(stroke can happen from these kind of BS thinking), I think negatively what never happened, and won’t happen, and feel the anger in my mind. Crazy!! I think I will become a perfect mad soon! Classmates friendzone me, I don’t like what I am studying now, so I procrastinate on my projects. Help me!!! I don’t wanna die like this!!!

Quote:No man ever became great, except through many and great mistakes. - William E. Gladstone

(07-07-2018, 03:40 AM)kingpill Wrote: @Shannon Is there something is DMSI that makes people assume that you will be succesful in whatever you attempt, even if you seem to be failing now? Kind of like 'oh that was just a very minor hiccup for him he's gonna kill it soon'

(07-08-2018, 07:51 AM)DarkPlouf Wrote:

(07-08-2018, 07:32 AM)Raz Wrote:

(07-08-2018, 07:19 AM)Shannon Wrote: US/UM appears to be an option. US/LM also. But bringing all three together seems to create a conflict that does not work well.

I like the idea of US/UM more than US/LM. Motivation is an activity driver while waiting for synchronicities seems like a more passive approach.

I think US/LM is better. You have countless of mundane ways to increase motivation. That can be done without a sub. But increasing luck cannot be done the conscious way.

(07-07-2018, 03:49 AM)firsthelix Wrote:

(06-29-2018, 11:48 PM)firsthelix Wrote: Shannon,

Okay, so I have been using DMSI 3.2b for a month and 3.2a for two months, one loop a day, as prescribed. I have not consumed caffeine or alcohol whatsover during that period and lived a healthy lifestyle. No results, no affects, nada. I had been exposed to people online, offline daytime, at the gym at parties you name it, in Europe, South America and the US. I have even visited a fetish party where people have no inhibitions and everything can happen. Hardly ever an approach and if, it was from unwanted girls that aren't matching my standards. Like before, I had to do all the initial work, despite my looks. I am frustrated about this and have a hard time to believe it's got to do with (unconscius) resistance, since I am doing conscious affirmation work and meditation on top of DMSI on a daily basis since many months.

Please advise...

Shannon,

Dunno if you saw this post but I am really still interested in your take on that...

Thanks for taking your time!

(07-07-2018, 08:51 AM)kornjacinvrac Wrote:

(07-07-2018, 02:29 AM)DarkPlouf Wrote: Hm, I don't feel much DMSI 3.2 now...I really felt it the first 2-3 days but now not so much.
No obvious external or internal effects. That's curious because with DMSI 3.1 I had the impression that it was getting better with the time. I'll take a week break and run one loop per day.

I had this also with 3.2 one loop, and for couple of days it was intense - for like 5 days. My energy, my eyes were with intensity, but after that maybe resistance kicked in, or my brain is just to lazy to execute. Maybe i should do aproaches (and trigger adrenaline) which is better and maybe similar to that "intensity" and then dmsi will kick off. Im curious what Shannon thinks of this.

Some days i have that "energy" inside me that just screams "feel good, be happy" but some other days, its okay. No anxiety, no regret and no shame (these three work almost always).

(07-07-2018, 02:10 PM)Raikahoken Wrote: @Shannon I just saw your latest post regarding MLS's ASRB. What does 1:1 secondary ASRB mean? How are we supposed to use it now? Is it still 4 loops everyday?

(07-07-2018, 09:45 PM)Tigerismyspirit Wrote: I've started 7 loops of B tonight. I've become impatient and had a lot of resistance today. **** my life! 8 months on DMSI and not a single interest from women. Just came back from a strip club that I went to after a while. Pissed off one stripper by making too many jokes. She stormed off and told other girls that i was an asshole. This needs to end. I can't live without getting my schlong wet.

(07-08-2018, 07:27 AM)Wharrgarbl Wrote: Shannon

Lately, I have been having dreams on AM6 that are rather complicated. Not in understanding but in scope and intricacy and length, but upon waking I cannot seem to remember them.

That being said, is it possible that the subconscious can use dreams to "explain" away the instructions of any subliminal to prevent execution? I remember you saying that the subs instruct the subconscious to dream in a way that is beneficial but if it's possible for the subconscious to dream away the instructions to prevent execution and thereby prefer and keep its own belief system rather than changing is there any defense against that? I'm not even sure it's possible but if it is there any preventative measures in place?

(07-08-2018, 09:16 AM)Shannon Wrote:

(07-07-2018, 09:45 PM)Tigerismyspirit Wrote: I've started 7 loops of B tonight. I've become impatient and had a lot of resistance today. **** my life! 8 months on DMSI and not a single interest from women. Just came back from a strip club that I went to after a while. Pissed off one stripper by making too many jokes. She stormed off and told other girls that i was an asshole. This needs to end. I can't live without getting my schlong wet.

Then stop fighting the program and execute.