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RE: OFv3 being fearless - Kol - 09-21-2021
Im so non needy that, when I see an attractive girl, I feel nothing yet am thinking I should feel something, an that makes me a bit uncomfortable. Has me dwelling a bit on "missed oppurtunities"
P*rn is absolutely and utterly boring aswell. No interest. Zero. Why would I? Sex is everywhere and I am attractive.
Financial confidence and discipline are kicking in good aswell. Discipline and changing habits has aside effect, which is dopamine detox, while growing the confidence whilebeing present and fearless.
Im closer to nature. Standing free. Deeper connection.
Edit: feeling suddely really good. I let it bloom for the night. No hybrid.
RE: OFv3 being fearless - Kol - 09-24-2021
5 loops hybrid
Flowstate is senior to a work - break - work set up. Dont undermine flowstate by inferior set up. Im more disciplined in my worldview, walk and posture. posture is firm, walk is having a marching tempo. Im really clear headed and present, taking the lead in my life. My communication is also more authoritarian. Running the place.
Discipline = freedom - Jocko Willink.
Cant rely on motivation. Discipline triumps. Its when motivation stops you still do it.
Also, understimation, cant's, people underestimate their potential. Wants and not wants.. how much is a defense of your comfortzone? He who is outside of his comfortzone and makes it a habit, he has the world.
RE: OFv3 being fearless - Kol - 09-27-2021
Day 126 3 loops over night
Frankly, im terrified to take a break from OF. Its now 7 days with loops, ranging from 3 to 8 a night. 2 nights with 1 loop to process all the others, but here I am, running loops.
The idea of a break- day scares me. Lol, go figure. Im running this sub till im having green light to take a break, as I sense something huge is going on under the hood.
In public, im relating differently. Connected with everything and being everything, everyone. Its like a network..
Also, im seeing people way tinier while feeling im towering. Bodylanguage and posture are tall and erect, but I wonder, is this how really tall people see the world? Lmao
Im also present,atleast, I think so. Strange place to be in. Its being fearless but somewhat slightly off compared to the on top of the world, all whole, together,complete sense.
Another is masks. The one we wear, several, different masks. Even what I id with, is a mask. Since when is there an original mask? Im reading on subjects that are covering the whole shapeshifter thing, mask thing, chameleon thing, it has me reflecting, thinking, applying and seeing. Big chance you can do behavioral prediction with this.
RE: OFv3 being fearless - Kol - 09-28-2021
Day 127 5 loops hybrid over night.
Im even more disciplined. In my actions, directions, bodylanguage. Mind is sharp, social anxiety or whatever it was, absent. Im doing what needs to be done and take the lead. Im managing people on the floor. Im gathering information as conversations naturally happen on several topics. I find myself talking with someone still in the army for example. Its very interesting how it manifests and translates in my day to day life. Relations keep improving. My social life is growing in ways that it has key people, such as the gym owner and business owners.
Im also still reading material from ex navy seals, books on discipline,business and leadership, chain of command, communication, mental fortitude etc etc. Peopke dont honor positions anymore. Calling yourself coach doesnt make you.one, just like the title "relationship" might be smoke and mirrors ( on dmsi I sniped a girl for example,who was in a "relationship" , so how did she get sniped if it wasnt all bs ?)
Something weird is going on tho, which I think is a body flush. Running to the toilet. Also, out of nowhere, after the gym, I found myself puking in the toilet. No clue why that suddenly is, gym was fine, didnt ate anything weird. Maybe the girl at work is feeding me food that I didnt know I was allergic for. As far as I am aware, I have no food allergies.
RE: OFv3 being fearless - RTBoss - 09-28-2021
You may want to get tested for COVID. Nausea, vomiting, and diarrhea are possible initial symptoms in some people.
RE: OFv3 being fearless - Kol - 10-03-2021
No covid. So im good. About that..
Update: went to my dads birthday and it went well. The energy was ok and somewhat chill. Till something happened, a conversation that had me exploding out of nowhere. 0 tolerance. Im not going to break rules here on the forum, so I leave it at this. Current world events taking place right now. Thats all im sayin
Anyways, my initial reaction after this burst, was that I wanted to go home and aimed for it. I didnt follow up with it btw. The going home, so left 1 hour later.
As I was driving home I started to feel really good. Processing things of today and victory in situations. Confidence is sky high, and so is my attitude. Im seeing myself in front of the body. Feeling very congruent, fearless, just a sense of nothing can touch me. Like a general. My walk reflects discipline.
Will run 8 loops hybrid tonight as it was coined as "f-it lets do it, 8 loops" pinpointed as 8 already before the reason came
RE: OFv3 being fearless - Kol - 10-04-2021
Anazing how fearless and solid I am in public. I did notice some insecurity coming up, recognizing it for what it is and let it run out of steam. No matter whats going on right now, my front/presentation to the world is solid. Eye contact is solid, simply cruising while driving.
I had some memories coming up, scenarios, faint impact but vivid about my mother. How she is literally stuck in a victim mindset, closed off, glued at whatever spikes her attention. This seemed to be my main issue. Her basically rejecting anything in favor of mindless entertainment and bs, while stating deflective "idk" like im a bother. Hurts to write this.
Yesterday, at my fathers birthday ( bless him ) this pattern came back aswell. I noticed quick buildup resulting in outburst, but it felt...different this time? Progress. It pisses me off how people have a brain but refuse to think and say "wait a minute, what is being said here and am I accepting it without question?" Critical thinking and assessment hello?! It makes me want to have to do nothing with her anymore. There, I said it. Absence = power.
Dissapointment and expectations..
Whatever is in the air, the walking around like im a piece of meat is back! I almost can see people salivate lmao. And you know what? Im so completely cool with that! Im fine, no reactionairy responses from my subcobscious, nothing. Interactions are so good. Social, just completely chill.
Also, shame. What shame?! Im sayin, OF seems to make big, abubdant waves, obvious. Why? Because of FRM doing its thing, allowing for bigger changes to take place!
Edit: forget to add, im having more and more an sense of wanting to talk to someone about this, another perception, like im sad or something. Its one thing to read sun tzu, machiavelli, musashi, diplomat and militairy material, its another ( or is it?) to actually feel this desire of wanting to talk about breaking completely with my mother and never wanting to see her again.
RE: OFv3 being fearless - Kol - 10-04-2021
I might go on another rampage of filtering out the toxicity in my life. Shannons subs has do me that before ( AM6/DMSI ) and it was always beneficial. Masks cant hide you. All be exposed undoubtly.
Another is realizing, recognizing and purging my own. This also will shift in responses due to my own purging of toxicity.
RE: OFv3 being fearless - ncbeareatingman - 10-04-2021
Kol's quote "I might go on another rampage of filtering out the toxicity in my life. Shannons subs has do me that before ( AM6/DMSI ) and it was always beneficial. Masks cant hide you. All be exposed undoubtly.
Another is realizing, recognizing and purging my own. This also will shift in responses due to my own purging of toxicity."
Me: Fauklin' A Kol !! The Unmasking the undoing. wow. powerful. IM so looking forward to owning and utlizing OFv3 when the time comes next year. thanks for the update.progress and unfoldment. more power to Ya,Man!!
RE: OFv3 being fearless - Kol - 10-05-2021
OF has me having doors open for me
I cannot explain it. Everything is met with positive oppurtunity. Im the centre socially wise and it shows. Im solid in social proof, people and able to have it if I wish so due to social fearlessness and lethal/ruthless presentation of myself.
Dentist lady was the most affectionate she been with, with me. Authority such as security and cops submit. They stand no chance. Something happens that has me reign over interaction.
Result: I got some at the back of my hand. Always nice having people in position of power ( lets be real,the authority archetype is a player in the subconsciousness, like a societal pillar that has you conditioned since you were a baby ) recognize! I do understand presentation to the public, which has me to the following...
Subtext and sarcasm. Spotted. Reading in between the lines, picking up vibes. vibe is key. High interest is felt. They make it easy for you. Subtext as in the wordless communication. When someone is lying, I sense it. I can also gear the conversation that way in the direction I want. Im at the point it really doesnt matter anyway if they lie or not when it comes to dominating and reigning it. Its an extra sense or something.
When I was in the dentist chair, the lady was making sure I was comfortable, asking if im doing good, very affectionate and caring. Feminine I say, making it a destressing place she was preparing. She full pressed her body against my head, and I relaxed in it. Ngl, I wanted to cuddle in her rack lmao.
Im also sure that I have passed over the magickal hump so to say. Grade A gold. Something internally snapped after 8 loops last night, like internal resistance broke, which has me completely confident and logical minded, motivated, driven, with authority. Insecurities stand no chance and evaporate.
This over the hump I called: hypephoria.
RE: OFv3 being fearless - Kol - 10-05-2021
Broken through. Im seductive af in general. Amazing how it ties with leadership and position. Im getting still mad at things and am currently working through it which I enjoy. Very positive. Also, the powerlessness in realizing me getting mad and pissed, and how it doesnt benefit me is exposed as a glass house, without feeling less, docile and beta, which used to be a source of frustration.
8 loops hybrid over night. It seems to give me an agressive push. 8 loops I used to see as overkill and to crush resistance, but not anymore.
RE: OFv3 being fearless - Kol - 10-07-2021
Day 136 ( 8 loops hybrid over night )
OF seems to hit on my upbringing and how it comes back in relationships. This is a whole can of worms to be opened. Time open it.
RE: OFv3 being fearless - Kol - 10-08-2021
This is pretty dope. Feelin light and stuff.
On the OF front, im brutally honest with myself and clear in asessment of things, creating and seeing oppurtunity. Brutally honest with my self is empowering. Accountability. Duty. Responsibility.
Now that im on a money writing rampage and all doubles, 10x's and multiplies, assign your money, direct and assign. Organize your world. Invest, invest in yourself, plant seeds ( subliminals fall under this ) and re-shape. Expand your network and networth. You always have money. Extent your health and life quality through funding, deals and investments, aswell as contacts/people. It literally opens doors to more. Life is your clay. You can direct, assign, lead and mold people. Comes to character and vision. Employ. Keeping investing in relationships and networking is another one.
Vision is huge. To manifest and create through vision. An outlook infused by inner knowing. Theyre sll capital. Monetary, mental capital.
Clear mind due OF has me see again in 4k.
Influence. Connections. Power.
What now has me thinking and somewhat got me deeper in the psychology is "relative value" having more, and making moves, how does the perceived relative value shift? When you obtain something, such as gucci, and its suddenly nothing to obtain said item while before it was a big pedestalized deal. ( we GIVE value and attention, which is key )
What baffles me is the abundant flow of wealth, flowing and establized, no matter what I think. Makes me wonder about LOA all over again, the rigidness of thought control, yet now it is like a cardhouse collapsing into acceptation of what already is, abundance of wealth. Breaking down resistence. Zooming out further, it becomes a pallet of flavors, not just wealth but anything else casted into manifestation.
RE: OFv3 being fearless - Kol - 10-09-2021
Day 137 1 loop hybrid over night
Went to sleep with fear, woke up with fear. Played 1 loop of hybrid as it was my intention to dial back on loops ( similar to @NOMAD ) from 8 to break-process. But as I was experiencing fear, I decided to give myself 1 loop.
Its clearly fear. Strong sense of powerlessness that sends of raw fear and panic. Its easy to blame the external but it is internal. Similar to dealing with the same shit, different meatsuit when dealing with women/people whatever.
I even wanted to run a loop of UMSv1 to ease financial stressors and holding on my innovation business mindset. All escape. Change internally first. As within so without. 2 steps forwards, 1 step back seems to be the pattern. Feels really uneasy when knocked off my plateau and freefall.
Enough entertaining. I know the angle of scarcity, lack, etc etc. Its an inner experience set off by my own mind. Cuz outside, everything is well. Its really about priming the pump aswell as the essence. Oh well, time to get shit done.
Currently reading: money & loa - abraham hicks. Working the kinks out. All the stuff that took place, was fear and I see it clear. Im clearly changing
Also, patience. When fear hits like that I want to get rid off it. Patience, nothing big is happening, chill tf out, it blurrs vision.
Ive seen it, i know it and its clear fear is the thing when it comes to manifestation. Way back the same thing but now im seeing it clearly. Pretty wild. Makes me wonder about more to come which excites me. Ask, want, set and it is given. Gotta get off the subject and feel good, only to return to it.
Im really fucking social. Its amazing. I love who I am, have become and am becoming. Its great. Thank you Shannon for your work.
I let this momentum roll now. Im fine with not running the sub now and letting it all process.