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RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - RainbowAbyss - 02-25-2012
stuff that I would have considered lucky or crazy for me is happening more and more on a regular basis with woman. 2 times lately I've talked to a girl for like a minute or under and they have asked for my number and to hang out-one said I was really cute-the other said that I was really sexy. Tonight I told the girl my phone was dead and to take my number and she was like "your not going to respond..promise you'll remember me".
Yesterday I was talking to my friend completely oblivious and I turn around and this super sexy and adorable girl is 2 inches from my face and starts grinding on me. My friend said she had been dancing up to me slowly for the last 20 seconds. She had left her group to do so and it was a pretty empty room. After we danced she was said "that was so sexy, super hot, we can't be doing this I have a boyfriend" and pranced away. I'm really looking to be very attracted AND connected, strong sense of energetic connection, to woman I hook up with these days and she fit the bill. We danced again later and split up and at the end of the night when we said our goodbyes I just completely directly asked if she was single and that we should go out. She wasn't single but she was all over me and I really felt our connection...to bad.
Tonight got even crazier-I had two beers in my coat, the bouncers I'm buddies with had given me, and I was waiting on the bench in the subway, this woman next to me turns and smiles at me-and makes a joke about me having a fun night (referring to the beers). I get into a talk with her and it turns out she is in training to be a paramedic firefighter, she currently is a practicing but still learning medicine man/ woman..as in shaman-she does Ayahuasca ceremonies once a week and takes it herself once a week, and she is also a stripper..what a strange mix of things to be. She is a vegan and doesn't drink alcohol or do any drugs and we were holding hands within 1 minute of meeting and plan to do coffee soon.
Anyway this set is getting more fun-at least in terms of external results. Still alot of resistance-I wan't to cry almost daily and my mindset can get very negative at times or there can just be a fuzzy background depression like nothing is good enough..in my experience this is more mental exhaustion from the set and my sleeping habits than actual resistance to the specifics of the script.
So the fact that I am meeting woman everywhere I go-even in places I was most scared to before-subway etc..and actually exchanging information with woman who want to see me again and the fact that I am getting approached at least every other night now seems the set is finally coming to blossom.
Before I joked about how I felt like the guy from the movie Shame, well know I act like a non-porn and hooker addicted version of him lol, sometimes I feel almost silly on this set for feeling so sexual all the time but unless I'm at work it really can't be helped.
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - Cortez - 02-25-2012
You should do ayahuasca with her! I was actually going to make it again soon. I think last time I didn't make it strong enough. I think ayahuasca is a very powerful ego destroying "medicine".
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - Shannon - 02-25-2012
Which stage are you on again, Rainbow?
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - RainbowAbyss - 02-25-2012
@ Shannon I am on stage 4
@ Cortez-I'd have to do some serious cleansing first-lol it is something I would love to do-but have had some bad drug experiences when I was younger and I am a little scared of what may happen. Especially since I hear it can take you into some dark parts of your own mind-I'll ask her more about it when we meet up-she certainly seemed very 'ego-less'
What was it like for you? You did it on your own...
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - RainbowAbyss - 02-26-2012
Ok-now shit is a little out of hand
a drank..alot last night-and basically borderline blacked-out
I just woke up and their is a very large breasted red headed woman, she is pretty but a little on the chubby side for my sober choosing haha, in my bed-I am vaguely recalling last night-hahaha-this is the funniest shit-we'll see what happens when she wakes up-I literally cannot stop laughing right now.
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - Cortez - 02-26-2012
(02-26-2012, 04:12 AM)RainbowAbyss Wrote: Ok-now shit is a little out of hand
a drank..alot last night-and basically borderline blacked-out
I just woke up and their is a very large breasted red headed woman, she is pretty but a little on the chubby side for my sober choosing haha, in my bed-I am vaguely recalling last night-hahaha-this is the funniest shit-we'll see what happens when she wakes up-I literally cannot stop laughing right now.
LMAO! It's a good week for those kind of nights apparently.
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - Shannon - 02-26-2012
So... what happened when she woke up?
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - RainbowAbyss - 02-26-2012
She filled me and we had sex..
which we apparently had not done the night before.
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - Shannon - 02-26-2012
lol Drunk sex is usually terrible. Much better to wake up the next day and do it.
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - ncbeareatingman - 02-26-2012
I Heard Arsenio Hall say this on his TV show back in the 90's: two things people REALLY wanna to do when they're drunk but cant = talk and have sex;-)
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - Shannon - 02-26-2012
That's why I don't like to get drunk. I don't like not being able to turn off the inebriation. Takes forever to wear off. If I could snap in and out of it, it would be fine, but usually about two hours in, I'm done and it's not.
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - RainbowAbyss - 02-27-2012
(02-26-2012, 12:44 PM)Shannon Wrote: lol Drunk sex is usually terrible. Much better to wake up the next day and do it.
lol yeah I'm glad it worked out that way
@NC-unfortunetly I'm the opposite-I do those things, and most things better when drunk lol...JK no not really but sometimes its easier to get into convo flow with some drinks and I have had some AMAZING drunk sex in before.
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - RainbowAbyss - 03-01-2012
As of the last few days my focus has shifted entirely
of pursuing or even engaging woman.
Today I am feeling a little more sexual but
in general these days sex and woman are the last thing on my mind.
I am making a huge shift with slowly leaving work, I teach 6 days a week
and I am down to 3 now, and on making money through network marketing, affiliate marketing,
and ideally my own online business or monetized blog.
I have also been hovered around by so many gorgeous woman lately its to bad
I have no drive to capitalize on it lol. I have also been approached several times again, including two days ago at the gym by some blonde porn star looking chick. She came over while I was doing an exercise asking me questions about it. I talked for a bit, we exchanged names and I left. I'm sure I'll see her again there..and if I don't..I don't really don't care lol
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - RainbowAbyss - 03-01-2012
as a side not I saw the ugliest woman I have ever seen in my life today..
I mentioned on a post that usually there is something beautiful in all woman..
well..not this one-she just scared me-and she had half pink half see weed grey-green hair..it was awful lol