(09-09-2016, 08:10 PM)Dubls Wrote: Let me preface this by saying that I've got some kind of low-key cold and it's just dragging me down mentally.

Kind of a rough day. One thing I haven't mentioned is that since Stage 5 I'll have these moments where it just hits me how lonely I am. Not in the sense that I want a gf but that I haven't had any female companionship since the last and only girl I ***** 5 years ago. Has an effect on you as a man when something that...human...is lacking in your life. I've touched on this but there have been times at the gym where I just stop myself and ask, "Why am I doing this?". It can take a real dump on my motivation. Health should be a good enough answer but I'm not the only guy reading this who can honestly say that a big part of it is for looks. But if I'm not getting laid or even going after pussy, why do I need to look good? Rhetorical question.

Today at the gym I got the usual attention even though I didn't feel the usual confidence. There's a girl I told myself I'd talk to you the next time I saw her and I didn't. Besides that there was this girl who was dressed so low-key in sweat pants and a plain white top but her face was like 9 or 10 model material and you could tell that her silhouette was bangin under all that baggy shit. Her ass was the right kind of fat. A smile that would stop some guys dead in their tracks. I have a semi. I digress. So I was working out pretty close to her and she looked over at me at least ten times. Now I wasn't feeling particularly confident—and kind of like shit due to cold. In retrospect if I allow myself to pass up opportunities because I don't feel 7 kinds of prepared, I'll get nowhere. There's only one way to build up that skin. Or maybe the resistance simply become bearable. Or the act of defying bad instincts becomes instinct itself. There are definitely days where I feel more belligerent than others. So there was that. But honestly I was also in disbelief that she could be interested me. She seemed so out of my league. Haven't felt that in a while. The other thing is—and feel free to chime in here—I'm not sure if she came with a couple of guys, but she seemed to know like 3 or 4 bros who were there. They chatted her up intermittently and she would occasionally walk over to them. So I'm watching this and thinking ok look at all the attention she's getting. She's used to it. She knows she's a dime piece. Do I really want to walk over there and be yet another dude who strokes her ego?

(09-10-2016, 03:41 AM)FREAK4LIFE Wrote:

(09-09-2016, 08:10 PM)Dubls Wrote: Let me preface this by saying that I've got some kind of low-key cold and it's just dragging me down mentally.

Kind of a rough day. One thing I haven't mentioned is that since Stage 5 I'll have these moments where it just hits me how lonely I am. Not in the sense that I want a gf but that I haven't had any female companionship since the last and only girl I ***** 5 years ago. Has an effect on you as a man when something that...human...is lacking in your life. I've touched on this but there have been times at the gym where I just stop myself and ask, "Why am I doing this?". It can take a real dump on my motivation. Health should be a good enough answer but I'm not the only guy reading this who can honestly say that a big part of it is for looks. But if I'm not getting laid or even going after pussy, why do I need to look good? Rhetorical question.

Today at the gym I got the usual attention even though I didn't feel the usual confidence. There's a girl I told myself I'd talk to you the next time I saw her and I didn't. Besides that there was this girl who was dressed so low-key in sweat pants and a plain white top but her face was like 9 or 10 model material and you could tell that her silhouette was bangin under all that baggy shit. Her ass was the right kind of fat. A smile that would stop some guys dead in their tracks. I have a semi. I digress. So I was working out pretty close to her and she looked over at me at least ten times. Now I wasn't feeling particularly confident—and kind of like shit due to cold. In retrospect if I allow myself to pass up opportunities because I don't feel 7 kinds of prepared, I'll get nowhere. There's only one way to build up that skin. Or maybe the resistance simply become bearable. Or the act of defying bad instincts becomes instinct itself. There are definitely days where I feel more belligerent than others. So there was that. But honestly I was also in disbelief that she could be interested me. She seemed so out of my league. Haven't felt that in a while. The other thing is—and feel free to chime in here—I'm not sure if she came with a couple of guys, but she seemed to know like 3 or 4 bros who were there. They chatted her up intermittently and she would occasionally walk over to them. So I'm watching this and thinking ok look at all the attention she's getting. She's used to it. She knows she's a dime piece. Do I really want to walk over there and be yet another dude who strokes her ego?

You are the dime piece man! that is why she looked over to you 10 TIMES.

Those other guys haven't got anything on you man.

You are the stud the di caprio and the clooney.

The other are average pussy orbiters man!

(09-10-2016, 08:20 PM)DisneylandUSA Wrote:

(09-10-2016, 03:41 AM)FREAK4LIFE Wrote:

(09-09-2016, 08:10 PM)Dubls Wrote: Let me preface this by saying that I've got some kind of low-key cold and it's just dragging me down mentally.

Kind of a rough day. One thing I haven't mentioned is that since Stage 5 I'll have these moments where it just hits me how lonely I am. Not in the sense that I want a gf but that I haven't had any female companionship since the last and only girl I ***** 5 years ago. Has an effect on you as a man when something that...human...is lacking in your life. I've touched on this but there have been times at the gym where I just stop myself and ask, "Why am I doing this?". It can take a real dump on my motivation. Health should be a good enough answer but I'm not the only guy reading this who can honestly say that a big part of it is for looks. But if I'm not getting laid or even going after pussy, why do I need to look good? Rhetorical question.

Today at the gym I got the usual attention even though I didn't feel the usual confidence. There's a girl I told myself I'd talk to you the next time I saw her and I didn't. Besides that there was this girl who was dressed so low-key in sweat pants and a plain white top but her face was like 9 or 10 model material and you could tell that her silhouette was bangin under all that baggy shit. Her ass was the right kind of fat. A smile that would stop some guys dead in their tracks. I have a semi. I digress. So I was working out pretty close to her and she looked over at me at least ten times. Now I wasn't feeling particularly confident—and kind of like shit due to cold. In retrospect if I allow myself to pass up opportunities because I don't feel 7 kinds of prepared, I'll get nowhere. There's only one way to build up that skin. Or maybe the resistance simply become bearable. Or the act of defying bad instincts becomes instinct itself. There are definitely days where I feel more belligerent than others. So there was that. But honestly I was also in disbelief that she could be interested me. She seemed so out of my league. Haven't felt that in a while. The other thing is—and feel free to chime in here—I'm not sure if she came with a couple of guys, but she seemed to know like 3 or 4 bros who were there. They chatted her up intermittently and she would occasionally walk over to them. So I'm watching this and thinking ok look at all the attention she's getting. She's used to it. She knows she's a dime piece. Do I really want to walk over there and be yet another dude who strokes her ego?

You are the dime piece man! that is why she looked over to you 10 TIMES.

Those other guys haven't got anything on you man.

You are the stud the di caprio and the clooney.

The other are average pussy orbiters man!

Great expressions.

(09-11-2016, 07:06 PM)Dubls Wrote:

(09-10-2016, 08:20 PM)DisneylandUSA Wrote:

(09-10-2016, 03:41 AM)FREAK4LIFE Wrote:

(09-09-2016, 08:10 PM)Dubls Wrote: Let me preface this by saying that I've got some kind of low-key cold and it's just dragging me down mentally.

Kind of a rough day. One thing I haven't mentioned is that since Stage 5 I'll have these moments where it just hits me how lonely I am. Not in the sense that I want a gf but that I haven't had any female companionship since the last and only girl I ***** 5 years ago. Has an effect on you as a man when something that...human...is lacking in your life. I've touched on this but there have been times at the gym where I just stop myself and ask, "Why am I doing this?". It can take a real dump on my motivation. Health should be a good enough answer but I'm not the only guy reading this who can honestly say that a big part of it is for looks. But if I'm not getting laid or even going after pussy, why do I need to look good? Rhetorical question.

Today at the gym I got the usual attention even though I didn't feel the usual confidence. There's a girl I told myself I'd talk to you the next time I saw her and I didn't. Besides that there was this girl who was dressed so low-key in sweat pants and a plain white top but her face was like 9 or 10 model material and you could tell that her silhouette was bangin under all that baggy shit. Her ass was the right kind of fat. A smile that would stop some guys dead in their tracks. I have a semi. I digress. So I was working out pretty close to her and she looked over at me at least ten times. Now I wasn't feeling particularly confident—and kind of like shit due to cold. In retrospect if I allow myself to pass up opportunities because I don't feel 7 kinds of prepared, I'll get nowhere. There's only one way to build up that skin. Or maybe the resistance simply become bearable. Or the act of defying bad instincts becomes instinct itself. There are definitely days where I feel more belligerent than others. So there was that. But honestly I was also in disbelief that she could be interested me. She seemed so out of my league. Haven't felt that in a while. The other thing is—and feel free to chime in here—I'm not sure if she came with a couple of guys, but she seemed to know like 3 or 4 bros who were there. They chatted her up intermittently and she would occasionally walk over to them. So I'm watching this and thinking ok look at all the attention she's getting. She's used to it. She knows she's a dime piece. Do I really want to walk over there and be yet another dude who strokes her ego?

You are the dime piece man! that is why she looked over to you 10 TIMES.

Those other guys haven't got anything on you man.

You are the stud the di caprio and the clooney.

The other are average pussy orbiters man!

Great expressions.

Great username

(09-19-2016, 03:57 PM)Dubls Wrote: I need a pep talk. I hate to admit that because a) I have high expectations of myself and b) it's like talking to a therapist - you know you're going to feel better, but then you're like why couldn't I do that for myself?

So a little backstory. I got a server's # and it was the tightest game I've ever spit. I surprised myself. My frame was incredibly strong. I also have a lead from Tinder. The server is probably an 8 or 9 in my book, and the Tinder girl is a 6, maybe a 6.5. The server has shit tested me plenty in conversation, while Tinder girl laughs at everything I say. Tinder girl is in her late teens, server is in her 20s. Feels like the server is slipping only after a few days because I haven't made a definitive plan to go out with her. I should assume she has other suitors, with more experience and killer instinct than me.

Recently I talked about a girl that pursued me in the beginning and was almost explicitly dtf, but I waited too long to meet up and she moved on. I think she lost respect for me because I didn't move quickly. The server's tone has changed and I sense that if I don't try to meet up with her this week, she's lost. As it turns out, I'm going to have the house to myself, which is the perfect opportunity for both of these girls, but I'm choking like I usually do.

SM3 unlocked the ability in me to get to this point, but the results are not yet consistent and I'm still fighting them. I guess part of me is freaking out because I'm closer than ever to having success with women and this is what my insecurities have had me running from all these years. All I have to do is set up a date and I feel paralyzed to do so. I'm angry at that part of myself that's ok with letting these girls slip. Guys who get laid want this and there's no internal conflict. I bet there are guys reading who are like, I don't understand, just **** them why is this is even a thing? It's so ridiculous that I'm kicking and screaming every step of the way. Clearly I want to indulge my irrational fears more than I want to face **** a leggy blonde.

So here I am on the cusp of letting another one get away, trying to reframe the situation in mind that if I don't act, I am disrespecting myself as a person and as a man; an infringement of my self-respect being way more unacceptable than losing the respect of any woman.

(09-19-2016, 03:57 PM)Dubls Wrote: I need a pep talk. I hate to admit that because a) I have high expectations of myself and b) it's like talking to a therapist - you know you're going to feel better, but then you're like why couldn't I do that for myself?

So a little backstory. I got a server's # and it was the tightest game I've ever spit. I surprised myself. My frame was incredibly strong. I also have a lead from Tinder. The server is probably an 8 or 9 in my book, and the Tinder girl is a 6, maybe a 6.5. The server has shit tested me plenty in conversation, while Tinder girl laughs at everything I say. Tinder girl is in her late teens, server is in her 20s. Feels like the server is slipping only after a few days because I haven't made a definitive plan to go out with her. I should assume she has other suitors, with more experience and killer instinct than me.

Recently I talked about a girl that pursued me in the beginning and was almost explicitly dtf, but I waited too long to meet up and she moved on. I think she lost respect for me because I didn't move quickly. The server's tone has changed and I sense that if I don't try to meet up with her this week, she's lost. As it turns out, I'm going to have the house to myself, which is the perfect opportunity for both of these girls, but I'm choking like I usually do.

SM3 unlocked the ability in me to get to this point, but the results are not yet consistent and I'm still fighting them. I guess part of me is freaking out because I'm closer than ever to having success with women and this is what my insecurities have had me running from all these years. All I have to do is set up a date and I feel paralyzed to do so. I'm angry at that part of myself that's ok with letting these girls slip. Guys who get laid want this and there's no internal conflict. I bet there are guys reading who are like, I don't understand, just **** them why is this is even a thing? It's so ridiculous that I'm kicking and screaming every step of the way. Clearly I want to indulge my irrational fears more than I want to face **** a leggy blonde.

So here I am on the cusp of letting another one get away, trying to reframe the situation in mind that if I don't act, I am disrespecting myself as a person and as a man; an infringement of my self-respect being way more unacceptable than losing the respect of any woman.