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RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 06-30-2018
Drove around yesterday before going to another friend of mine, while having a friend of mine with me, and we had the music loud. Some car next to us had its window open, and the guy, before driving off/pulling up, made some challenging remark. I didnt respond at all. Like it was air and amusing. This is some huge progress through h/c. I remained composed.
"Did he just call out?" Yeah. "Oh, pulls up like a boss as the traffic lights turned green" its like ultimate self amusement and non neediness, focus damn strong *shrugs*
Anyways, h/c is kicking my ass. Some serious memories surface along with some inner dialogue and tension, my mind spinning in bordering panic at times. Am totally going inward and feel like zoning out and get knocked out. Some real deep changes are taking place and im sort of aware of it. Nothing concrete, but more of something huge. Socially Im dull. Lost my mojo and am almost isolated. I rather drop asleep then anything else. Drive is gone, entrepreneurship is also met with resistance. Like, as soon as I want to create im facing serious knock out feelings. Like all is demanded by h/c. Many things are faced, past stuff, especially comments of people affecting me.
On the other hand, all in the way of DMSI is dissolving. Like Im turning into pure sex. Like even more then before. Like being sex incarnated and agressively pushed. Almost tunnel like/tunneling.
Inner chaos, depression come up and am continually on instagram like a compulsion and it irks me. I dont like it is a sentiment surfacing. I find myself scrolling aimlessly till the point it pisses me off. I know its wasting my time. Insta is great for going ham on, but not aimlessly passively scrolling like a zombie, chasing a drug in which IDGAF to begin with. Whatever it is, h/c demands all. Sex is almost non existant in my priority.
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 07-01-2018
Day 7 tonight break.
Broke no fap this morning but idc. Still going strong as fuck and "execute the script" is booming in my head.
Bootycalls day and night. As I entered the gym ( which is renovated" I directly brought it up. G tried to set the frame but I ignored it and directly took the reign.
After finishing workout, bantered a bit.
Drove home, now im wanting to get more ripped. I have the mass underneath. Now, im truly getting that attraction and sex is that, sex, ripped or not.
While driving home, a 2 set was looking at something, booty turned to the road, and I was hit with the strong desire to rail it. More blockages dissolved.
Also, feeling really good and vital which is attractive as f#ck.
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - findingme - 07-01-2018
(06-30-2018, 12:23 PM)Kol Wrote: Whatever it is, h/c demands all. Sex is almost non existant in my priority.
I can definitely relate. I have an sexual awareness a lot on "A", but it's not my priority in any way. And I, too, can not accurately put it clearly in words. It's so real inside, but talking or writing about it is nothing near the experience. And yes, it can be isolating. The "big" things to me, when shared, sound so trivial or not important. However, it touches me, and I'm liking the changes.
I'll be starting back on B tomorrow. Two different worlds entirely. One focuses on affecting me and my connection to others, and the other focuses on just "gettin' it done", whatever that is. I was married 10 years, but I feel like a relational newb today. I'm glad "getting it done" is in the script, as I'd avoid without it
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 07-02-2018
I stick with A for the next round. Before the last run, I ran B and the last few days on B resulted in relapse pmo.
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Today is break. Productivity is high. Again uograding insta and getting more and more "lets connect" messages. Im having strong rage bubbling up against E. The woman thats total unstable, praising herself on her craziness and expecting people to sooth her emotions. Fuck her. Can see it clash as Im getting more and more clear in my skills, obsession, IDGAF attitude, grind and vision. It doesnt click. One is 9/5 ( which Im not fully discarding ) my vision is lifestyle orientated. Very wide and many interest fields.
Garyvee clicks strongly with my lifestyle and outlook and im getting raw to the bone, stripping away all fluff.
This break also makes me aware of things that are "held back" h/c goes so fast its hard to even grasp, like tryimg to catch fish with your bare hands.
Anyways, each little thing alomg the way, if devoted and put on paper can be marketed. There is definitely a crowd for it all. Im.not doing it for the likes, but the grind is great. Each obstacle met with a flip to conquer.
Decision making is strong. Devoting. Im getting more and more harsh on my time. Tho patience is a thing, time is well spend. My life is my own, not to waste away for some crap like that of E. Can see myself getting to an ultimatum and telling her that im no longer going to waste my time and that it aint a democracy. Balls to the wall.
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 07-02-2018
So, this breakday is very interesting. Im still reminding myself that internal comes before the manifestation and is manifestation and there is really no limit to abundance, wealth women. Its effin great! Last night I was hit by the realisation of "im a millionaire" only to ramp it up.whstever is lifted, massive relief in financials is taking place. Im actually looking forward to all of it. Life being one big manifestion over and over and over again.
Let the streams flow. Im thrilled for life. All is ramping up.
If this is whst it is, what I think/feel it is ( and holy shit insta is exploding!) Then cars, wealth, women manifest easily. Like all coming. Im horny as fuck.
It goes even further in seeing it coming. Like mental intuition, being teamtagged with rule 4 stuff. Its like being guided around.
What. The. Fuck.
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 07-02-2018
Part 3.
Eventfull day. Way more productive. Some invites to groups on facebook. Insta exploded. Girl added me on facebook and noticed the inner trigger.
"Hot girl, s&r activates due genetics a.k.a looks, carrier of my kids and stuff"
In a way Im mister aloof but this time, DMSI directed me inward as she 1) added me 2) opens me. And now DMSI is directing me inward to resolve said trigger. So totally being mr aloof/IDGAF felt like an avoidant response, only to face it now and upgrade my social skills and resolve issues.
Now, when further in the process, I wont be afraid to direct her to nr exchange, set up some things and stuff, but the "hi how are you" feels devoid and easy, which, through resolving this wouldnt be a issue anymore at all.
You go girl. Making me face other things. Gonna run A tonight again and will resolve tomorrow morning with her. Tbh, out of your league doesnt even count genetic wise/on a genetic level.
I feel alligned with my genetic hardwired code.
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 07-03-2018
Execution is an given. It is now so fucking easy. Get your mind outta the way. My subconscious literally feels like escaping tho, into porn. Boredom is a fucking issue. Need to get back on the nofap or forget about it all and set bigger goals, higher goals and writing down some goals on paper. Life is to awesome. Get the blood pumpin, get the agression on and the flow through the veins. Pretty much feelin alpha and yesterdays issue is already being overcome.
Im wanting to collab with people. Im wanting to put my mark on this world and it is going to happen. Im sure bout that. Time to get it. Taking the world by its tail, shifting life/realities. Manifest that shit. Im the centre. The core. I AM.
I now can put into words what it is that I seem to experience, and it is the sniper. it seems to fire off at every side, like a hailshot, but influencing and firing full circle.
Another thing that crossed my mind is; fuck reality. I make my own. its like im bigger then life in a sense. I choose what fitting, or rather, my subconscious does at this point. pretty much h/c surfacing (?)
Also, the group on facebbook that I joined yesterday, is like a huge network, in which im clicked. in a sense I feel raw in creating stuff, content, new oppurtunities, platforms, branding, online stuff. Its like my whole being is on fire. didnt expect this, and it even intensifies my sense of manifestation. massive high energy in drive. raw, sexual, everything.
My mind screams manifestation and all is at hand reach. so much insights about self responsibility, connections, people, key relationships, selection, pre-selection are coming to my awareness, and I am already into the next step.
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Zane - 07-03-2018
Are u listening to "A" or "B"?
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 07-03-2018
Listening to A still.
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 07-04-2018
Expressed anger towards undecisiveness from E today. I wont work.with that and told her she was undecisive. Continuous flipping around on a project. I told her I was out, it was unworkable..vile bitch only being guilt trippy about it and go lala. Told her in a fit of anger thst she was on her own. Dont deal with that shit. Definitely gowing more assertive blended with a strong IDGAF. Unconcerned with being nice or anything. Just growing, flowing step after step. Im very clear in my vision. Next up is; I aint do my skills for free anymore. Time to put this shit into financial gain. I gladly help, but dont ask for it and then all going the other way. You hit me up for a purpose, wasting my time aint one of them.
Another thing is, Im sensitive towards negative attitude and it is toxic. Toxic attitudes and im out. Vile bs mindsets and no good to have around. I dont want to hear the constant complain of some helpless mindset and how it is all oh so bad and horrid. Approach the shit like a champ or shut the fuck up and get out of my awareness. Im at the point of weeding such bs out of my life aswell. And im not afraid nor do I give a fuck.
Also, hot sexual young chicks. Manifest them. The flow is so strong that I have no lust for outcome. Rather tuned into the flow and be. All brakes are releasing and it is powerfull.
Im unafraid to call people out now. It feels healthy and I aint afraid of the consequences due growing self reliance and self trust. Yes, I can see this escalate in a huge weeding out fest but Im also having a limitless abundance. A huge working field.
Also, the girls manifesting meet my sexual level. The craziness, the kinkiness. The fun and play. Im thrilled for life, just dont waste my time or fuck me up. My expertise is there for a reason. Deal with it.
The world is open for me.its laying wide open. Always.
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 07-04-2018
Also, just back from the city. Several girls the attraction was there, like my energetic body was matching theirs and the attraction was mutual. This sub is fucking bending reality and I notice it now and it feels good. Im pretty stoked with it. I love when the magnetic pull from both side result in sex. Its beyond no big deal. Shannooooonnnnn!!!!
Lotsa eye contsct with many girls on the streets. Just hold it. Its happening. Now sexually charged. It feels good holding it. This one girl kept throwing glances, several other girls and I linked on a sexual level beyond the physical. Almost as if disembodied ( like those psychedelic drawings on mdma for example ) another experience was, she felt it before seeing me. Manifestation.
Im craving sex on A and nothing stops me. Its like full on autopilot going on, while being a damn playboy.
In a way I feel the execution ramp up in speed. Women manifest around me. Hot girls. One girl I met today had the sexual vixen energy with her. Like we matched.
Im pretty sure how people perceive me is changed drastically aswell as my influence subconscious.
Eye contact feels drilling like my baseline is shifted. Solid yet able to channel it sexual like Thor has written down in a post.
H/c is killing the fear for more clients znd really is deepening my certainty is business skills.
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 07-05-2018
Just had a dream that I was in a team ( like special forces ) and we we're chased. A theme was the constant age shifting and environment morphing. Some guy( psychiatric hospital doctor ? ) was searching and chasing us. We went through a city I know, walked into some store with second hand stuff like games and stuff. The guy we tried to get out was dazed out. Like dosed. Then eventually when we thought we succeeded, and tried to drive off out of the city, we we're caught and the guy got a huge dose that knocked him out in a way like some huge mdma injection. Acted really delerious and I tried to keep him sort of awake. Some powder was involved into this aswell
He was wobbly and he was dragged into the building, which we noticed to be familiar by its doors like we ran in circles.
What a dream. Not a clue what it was, only a slight hunch its dragged out deep from my subconscious.
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - dissonance - 07-06-2018
How many loops you do per day recently? And is it at night during sleep or during day?
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 07-06-2018
Yes at night, 7 loops of version A still sticking to that.