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RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 06-15-2018
Day 6
Im feeling peacefull, an Idgaf in an "all is well" way. Like, almost nihilistic but poetic. Like the chillness of life.
As with DMSI, im becoming more and more primal. Like only sex. The other things are fancy and all, but monogamy? Nah, not in the slightest. Like with AM6 its like an disconnect from paradigms and beliefs, detaching from them and having the choosing of what I want and not without feeling any attachment to it. Like with DMSI, its pure sex.
Im catching women more and more starstrucked drom afar. Im.getting more charismatic and attractive. Lots of face to face with just a couple of cm between us ( E). N has gone cold on me for a bit. Idgaf tbh. Im to blissfull for all of this.
Wherever I go I have women wanting me. Kicking one out doesnt matter tbh. Im seeing how easy it us for girls to get guys chase them, like a subtle persuasive dynamic. Damn you creatures of beauty. Idgaf about y'all.
It just dawned on me how radically I changed. The kicking out is even met with fun, nonchalance and idgaf, like being so selfvalidated and into myself im genersting the life of the party vibe and energy to myself. Its like witnessing beauty all around in this world. Sexual, primal and seductive still.
Im also getting more and more fed up with bs, with people creating problems and stirring shit, only to waste time. Like for example, when organizing meet up, and one guy is getting all micro critisizing like it gas to be spelled out letter for letter, only to stirr the pot. Agression is a thing which I aint goin to deny as it is a pointer.
Not sure what to make from any of this. Its reocurring im walking into women who lust for me, I cause them to stop them in their tracks and to be little slutty vixen around me...I mean..to be comfortable in their femininity.
Im digging the 80s rock n roll light vibe right now, such as "you cant always get what you want" by the rolling stones.
What is a point thats returning, is boredom. Not being inspired when its happening and indicating of inner changes and the wheels turning. Im not feeling any urge to write about women as im so abundant and aware. Just to bliss out and fade out now.
Another thing is that im still walking around with a belief that "life is strife" and constant being stiffled by it. Like, each day is a survival, a struggle, an hardship even. It doesnt benefit nor helps me. Like being tense and on guard, having this persistent mask triggered to be on.
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 06-20-2018
Apathy, depression and boredom are more and more apparent last few days till the point I want to quit and run AM6. It keeps flashing in my mind.
Pretty much, my attitude seems to grow more alpha and IDGAF. at the dentist today, the woman who helped me, became more and more suggestive. Words flowed. She was pretty much more and more seductive while I laid there, eyes closed ( dentist doesnt matter at all, no hint of anxiety like dropping into an relaxed meditative state, thanks to occult practices ). She talked a bit about my dental health as she was the mouth hygienist.
Her: "Well, I can feel proud then that I helped you in my job then" while having a cute flirty vibe
Me: "I will let you do your thing" while having a sexual frame and undertone in deliverance. I noticed words flew pretty fluid the moments I talked. She pretty much planted my head against her tits. It went all pretty smooth.
Then the dentist came in. Male. Gay guy. Before I knew he started non verbally hitting on me. Its all fun and shit, but it was noticable. Acting sterotypical feminine, like giggles and movements. Oh well.
Anyways, after that, I didnt say much, just casual relaxing and letting the mouth hygienist lady do her thing.
Delivering is huge gents. Its fun. Playfull. Seductive. Congrugent and vibing. Im more and more aware of my subtext and subcommunication.
I notice when this anxiety comes up, boredom, depression, uselessness and hopelessness, Im pretty much avoidant tho the IOIs are abundantly on a daily basis now. Like, when checking in the dentist place, the check in lady directly started grooming and I am amused by it and play with it in speaking and communicating.
When walking out the place, I caught the crowd checking me out. People turn heads and I atleast consciously caught someone saying out loud "who is that guy?!"
Im not sure why Im pretty much down in certain situations. Like, on AM6 I was carefree. Perhaps its because DMSI is shaping me on such a deep level it scares my subconcious on some level. With AM6 in the end it was fine, selfvalidating, self esteem, king of the world, 0 fucks given and all.
Im musing there might be a fear of succeeding in all if this. Sacrifices to be made. Whatever there is undernesth the surface, setting intent to face it overwhelms me.
Also, im encountering more and more limitations like a box. Like how limited this box/cage is. So many subtle things like going out. It feels like an endless journey at this point. Endless amount of issues, things to face. Ugh.
Not gonna lie and its kind of catching me offguard. Its like Im having suicidal thoughts translating into wanting to run an ridiculous amount of loops.
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 06-22-2018
Woke up with sleep phones putted aside. Went to bed with listening to my loops. So I wake up in the night without me noticing. Loops were still running.
Anyways. My presence make women smile. Just standing gives them way to approach me. This mixed girl was all beaming whioe doing her job. Made me think of aloof damon salvatore.
Also, due to issues in friend group, im now taking up the leading role. Being clear cut in it that communication is key. Also called one out for his bs like a irresistable compulsion.
Im more unfiltered at work.
Last few days feel more in allignment and cooperation with DMSI and free of expectations. More of an curious "whats next" without me lusting. An sort of meh. Felt the energy coursing through my base area/crotch and coursing while getting more positive/euphoric. Been a while. The aura swirled also around my hands. At times its like a wall on my right side. Very dense.
N is basically ghosting me. In public im really relaxed/light even. Yesterday, while coming across the concept of "1000 cock stare" it sets something off. Right now it does again. Like getting very light and even shallow inside. Nothing but emptyness and intense energy. I can also read it in the girls eyes. Like femininity and at times they look back with lust and animal magnetism.
You know the tractorbeam? Being glued? Happened without any gsf. Just locking and being in it. Owning it. About gsf, guilt is also released through B. Its transforming in deep confidence in communication. Like, reframing. Mix this with total ease and trust and its lethal. I think Sarge can notice this in sales as it is something linking to it
Also, coming to MM, all these "tricks" its sheer self amusement. Having some things to just play with is nice. Otherwise, DMSI is about MSI, through being and breathing.
Im feeling my sexual energy building without actually getting horny. Mentally aroused...yes. bodily? Not so much. I notice it, feel sexual but that about it. Having girls pop up in my mind, or rather, seducing scenarios.
Also, through DMSI I basically having girls everywhere. While I was driving yesterday and entering a city it was like welcoming home. In a sense im also aware of my core. AM6 is still there but its not really tapping in directly.
Anyways, even N ghosting me I already have 3 new girls.
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 06-22-2018
Also, am planning to go out lotsa more. Now, time to plan, organize and get more aware as Im out of the loop for a bit.
Also, with the heat/aura now increasing, journalling is met with discouragement. Just an "forget it" experience. Like the aura takes me out of my head and simultaneously in the backseat of the autopilot.
Welp, having company now. Whatever happened in our/my group. It doesnt matter. Its all social dynamic.
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My mind and body harmonize in the wanting to spread my seed in many women/many women as possible. Im so open and invitive. Its like being in the stratosphere. Pure animalistic s&r. New level game. Its surely feels like that. Autopiloted game and sexuality.
No urge to pmo at all. Rather hyperfocus in sexual nature.
Pure sexual desire and feeling drowing right now in ecstacy and women energy. Mental. Dont ask me how or what. It feels damn good and positive but how is this women energy.
Sexual desire and sexual scenes all around.
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 06-24-2018
Going through a healing phase right now, like a root is being disrooted. Totally life changing at this point, like being flipped inside out.
Simultaneously, im more and more becoming animalistic, like a prowling wolf. ( not a goddamn furry ) Leaning into tribalism, having a seething hunger. in my mind im associating with the wolf, and opening up the gates, like with AM6 stage 1. Was revisting some am6 journals and almost wept because of the memories. some real shits going on under the hood. one fo those journals was of an member by the name Alphamind. his attitude, writing about blood and such is something that is dominant now here.
Im almost inhuman in vision and will not comprimise, im like a raging bull, a wolf, an predator, someone who snaps on a whim. its like inward tribalism fuelled with an disdain towards worldly happenings politically wise here in europe. it sets me off.
Im no longer allowing myself to be defanged. as im growing more, h/c more, and grow more fearless and animalistic, in drive, im more disruptive and polarizing. im having an seething frustration and anger towards being ghosted by women, tho, at the same time, the attraction and abundant flow of people is going and going.
manifestation works. its damn clear.
Also, the habit of filtering is off. take it or fucking leave it, idgaf anuymore, and am making some drastic changes in my life,. time to alpha the fuck up.
Im getting at the core of myself, and its way easy to shed matrixes and see through them.
Im aware of how I was not fully commited because I was still attached to crap and bs. Duke.togo has written about reckless abandonment before, and im agreeing with him. its like cutting the final chains.
Like I said, agression is coming back, an take it or leave it, along with an huge IDGAF and healing expressing itserlf in hatred, makes me get in touch with blood. my essence, my core.
There is lots of anger underneath and vindication thats surfacing. like, almost bordering agressive sadism at this point. this is pure expression,
Also my enterpreneurial drive is coming back with a vengeance and all thats in the way is left in ashes. Im no lomger compromising. Im rather on my own level and people should be on this and if not, sucks to be them but I aint playing your games.
Heck, even going out alone and being the life of the party is where its at. Being the cause. Im considering going alone to an festival this year. Idgaf at all any longer. People gravitate anyways to my status, to my vibe, my blood, my kin, my passion. Its like an unfolding.
Tonight will run A again on high loops.
My intention setting is solid. As there are some festivals this year, this stuff will happen, no matter the circumstances. Im set for succes. Im really eager for going alone. also, sticking to social circles can be an fear response. Im more clear and relentless in that, that Im wanting to have stuff line up for me. there is an massive abundance of people out there, those that do will line up with you. I attract what I am, and as I am growing, so will my quality of attraction. I will not put up any longer with perople not bringing value to the table. I refuse to hold myself back through fear.
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 06-25-2018
Day 1 DMSI 3.2 A
Lots of subtle looks. Mindset and presence of "yes admire" kids staring like Im a celeb.
Some deep h/c has hit something. Tears are been shed over music and the slightest things. Been a while and it feels good to just shed tears. Non judgmental over it. This also ties in my realisation that im still am very "mental" orientated, explanatory. Its time to live. Like all boxes shattered ans click into my (sexual ) core almost akin to just merge and blend. Like, becoming life itself. Reckless abandonment. Its so freaking good. This might be it. Total feeling of emotion and transcending. Its a subtility in communication orientation. I just want to live instead of explaining and being a "pro" and so philosophical. Almost like an ecstatic omnipresence.
Still more tears beneath the surface.
Ran 8 loops last night. I lost my sentences after only a few words. My vocality felt really "loose" and unhinged this morning including zoning and blanking out. Women seems very forgivable generally. Like, my aura diffuses it.
Shittests dont get to me. Non reactive.
Another is, which ties into my wide interest field, is choosing my core first. Like, my inner core is first and foremost and itll shed clarity. To much bouncing around. Fuck it if it aint that status, decided by others. Herein lies huge potential.
Its akin to the what society/people deem valuable and high status. Fact is, Im choosing for me. Myself first. Thats why im shattering those matrixes. Embracing myself instead of all those cover up layers and expectations.
Thats why festivals are so good.
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 06-26-2018
On my way home, I started to re-evaluate myself while drivin. Its very likely that im purging "knowledge" or something along the lines like this, only to execute the DMSI goals and being Maximum sexually irresistable.
Subtle glances all around of curiosity. No isolation by a girl (yet) tho it happened before.
Im thinking of taking a break if IML. DMSI seems to direct me to this as im caught up in all kind of bs. To much free time and issues, refocussing.
Anyways, feeling like a boss now. Still, probably due the high loops and processing it, there is a calibration phase goin on, like, mixed signals and confusion towards myself. Eye contact is one. I seem to be transitioning in a sense, that I know what to do, but dont care, yet do the opposite aswell. To get used to the new me.
Time to eat.
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Leo1990 - 06-26-2018
Curious @Kol if you've run any other previous versions and how this current version compares to those?
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 06-26-2018
I ran 3.1 before 3.2 came out. 3.2's healing is so much more powerfull for example. It blows 3.1 out of the water.
Also, upping to 8 loops has me feel powerfull as f#ck! Till the point my IDGAF is so strong that it feels like "this is it, f#ck listening" yet Im going to continue listening.
Neediness is dead. Im in the position of being a creator. Updated my instagram and incorporating Garyvee attitude. Its comes natural to me.
Im highly enjoying life. Music is wondetfull abd im super stoked for this festival season in my country. Its like breaking through one after another agressively.
Im shedding countless layers with ease. Each morning I wake up with a dominating autopilot, like feeling strong energy running through my veins and slightly dazed. My guess its an way of executing which im doing now.
Now, if people ask me directly of what I do...I shrink. I get selfconscious for a bit. Like, im livimg in vision yet having this vision chalkenged causes some doubt in me, and shaky frame. It shows in my communication. Its like my idgaf crumbles then and am faced with another issue.
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 06-27-2018
Feminine energy draws me the f#ck in. Its like an energetic glow. Want to bang right here right now. Irresistable. I like this change. Its like the bubble and execution. Buildin by the minute.
Same as the women walking by. We locked eyes, before that I scanned her physique. Instant turn on and feminine draw in.
Had it multiple times today. Locking on the woman's assets and just sexually admiring while feeling the aura fire up.
When my eye contact is back I can see how this all is DMSI geared. Since upping my loops I seem to have slacked in this tho.
Bang the effin world.
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Tigerismyspirit - 06-27-2018
(06-27-2018, 10:40 AM)Kol Wrote: Feminine energy draws me the f#ck in. Its like an energetic glow. Want to bang right here right now. Irresistable. I like this change. Its like the bubble and execution. Buildin by the minute.
Same as the women walking by. We locked eyes, before that I scanned her physique. Instant turn on and feminine draw in.
Had it multiple times today. Locking on the woman's assets and just sexually admiring while feeling the aura fire up.
When my eye contact is back I can see how this all is DMSI geared. Since upping my loops I seem to have slacked in this tho.
Bang the effin world.
somebody just told the same thing as me but in a different way. We are all on the same boat experiencing the same thing that's called 'horniness'
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 06-27-2018
Nice, Ill take that. Its almost more primal in an way like caveman.horniness.
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 06-28-2018
Day 4 loops done. Tonight is day 5.
Im getting way more productive.
Sexual sense is through the roof. Im feeling incredible sexy.
Im sure that Ill run AM7 in the future.
Pairbonding is coming up. Sexually im deepening further.
With people im instantly connecting one way or another. Smiling instantly when greeting. It happens.
Im growing leaps and bounds. After each session in my mind I shift tons and things resolve on a lightspeed rate.
Having slight headache. But IDGAF. Im feeling the drive again. Creativity begging to be expressed. So that whats gonna happen.
Harder styles in music is something I highly enjoy and I might pick it up again. Its an real easy path to take. As Ive been involved in the harddance scene for some time. Made tracks which was about 10 years ago with a friend of mine.
Feeling extremely positive. Had a huge breakthrough in sexual blockage last night after some minutes in my first loop. Applied some rule 4 stuff, conversed back and forth, felt my root chakra activate and almost fell into an selfscan state in which blockages were pointed out. It was like a private consult along with a strong influence. Such spuritual stuff seems to be magnified on DMSI like the h/c benefits.
I have such gratitude for it. It opens doors.
Am now cleaning like crazy. So this is pretty neat. Meanwhile im looking into how to master this further.
Execution is granted. Big chance I go to that party tomorrow ( mini festival close by with some nice artists ) so that will be a great testing ground.
Also, in last nights first loop my mind broke through in "worldwide pre-selection" i fucking love this.
Ps; Women from my past start to reach out of the blue. K is one of them.
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 06-28-2018
Met at the gym a guy I havent spoken for a while. We instantly reconnected.
Im releasing tons of fears. Doubts are released in such a beautiful way. Gratitude is up. I feel like I just banged a chick and people are looking in amazement.
Sun is shining which might contribute all. Life is good and beautiful. When tension comes up I relax.
Was more agressive with G and ither older women. Instantly wanting to bang is still here. I feel like a walking cock girls want. Also im fearless in pushing boundaries teasingly and playfull.
So many women who want me. Damn.
I want a higher status crew now. Like all who are purpose driven. Git an invite just now from a guy on facebook. Time to kick some ass and get it.
I also notice at the gym, my flow is unbreakable. Little breaks in between sets. Pure animalistic drive. My mind is already searching for new ways yet im burning with desire
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Alright so my attitude has shifted to more serious and alpha now right now on a flip. Also, forgot to add, the subconscious programming is becoming more conscious programking now and im willingly following the instructions. Something that I came to realize while driving from the gym. Autopilot dominating my mind.