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RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - Have at ye - 04-02-2025
OSC + DRS v2, Day 55 continued
One more week to go! Whoop-dee-doop.
Currently, I am in a pretty good mood, anger has lessened (now I'm more like slightly bemused) but I am commiting a lot of time to thinking about things/re-thinking stuff, which is a bit of a nuisance because what I should be doing is singing practice, lawl. I'll go practice first thing tomorrow morning, I promise!
I am getting lotsa very vivid dreams, definitely OSC related. I am also getting sleepy at regular intervals and after I nap it's like "something clicks" and I feel better and am more focused "in the now" instead of endlessly computing stuff. I wanna OGSF precisely to lessen this effect going forward.
I've been doing lots of EMSing, though, and I've arrived at 2 hours of cardio in the mornings, and then 2 hours of weight-training in the evening. I am actually pretty amazed that I can pull it off, easy-peasy, and I don't even suffer from muscular exhaustion after. Just gotta watch to not overeat after because I get hungry due to the exertion. Currently I am actually feeling more sturdy/muscular than slimmer, but I'll take it.
I also contacted a pretty hot lady-painist I found in the Interwebz, asking for regular classes (my pianist dood is more than competent, but he's not avaialable regularly so we work only every now and again, and I want regular work with a pianist), waiting for her response. I hope she bites because finding someone with the know-how and the will to work with singers is not that easy (it's an advanced speciality and they're usually booked to the gills, like my pianist-dood - also, most singers are arseholes and tend to treat pianists like shit, I kid you not), but her ad said she enjoys working with soloists of all sorts, so... Here's hoping!
RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - Have at ye - 04-04-2025
OSC + DRS v2, Day 57
Funny. I had a thing to do today, and I felt pretty spiffy and very confident, as well as talkative and smooth, whilst still being on an internal misanthropic spree, lol. It's a wonky contrast.
But this only goes to prove that aside from the unpleasantness that I've been experiencing while running OSC these past several weeks (after feeling very high on it throughout the first month) it's still working on improving my self-confidence and is actually pretty damn effective at it.
Meeting with the hot pianist-chick tomorrow for our first get-together. Hopefully we click.
(Amusingly enough, after I asked her for contact details and the address, she provided that as well as... her instagram. 
Interesting. So I checked out her pics, she's a cutie. I'd love to DMSI/X4A her into sexual bliss, haha).5 more days to go!
RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - Have at ye - 04-05-2025
OSC + DRS v2, Day 58
The lady pianist is very pleasant and has a nice ass (and also a kitty - she said she just got the kitty yesterday and said something like, "it's my first time being a mom", lol). She's not at the same skill level as my pianist-dood (because that man is prodigy-level) but I think we'll get along just fine, she just said she's gonna need some time to prep repertoire beforehand and require a little bit of guidance on how I'd like her to play it. Fine by me! The best thing it turned out she's within walking distance from my place.
Still feeling kinda misanthropic, I am especially pretty mad at my hot lady analyst because some of her "interventions" were utter bullshit and in retrospect, I actually find them demeaning (and a waste of my time and life). I'm also kinda pissed at the psychological establishment which I've had a lot of contact with recently, having started working as an educator/expert-through-experience type of thing, because *their operant axioms are all based on hypotheses that had since been falisified*, lol and yet they cling to them as if their lives depended on it. That smartass moron Vaknin is absolutely right when he says that psychology has all the markings of a friggin' pseudo-science, lol (doesn't stop him from posing as a learned psychologist, though, because he's also a hypocrite. At least he's open about that, "lawl, I'm a nawsissit, I get to be a hypocrite", hahaha).
Singing's going pretty well even though my sinuses are a touch blocked. Keeping at it with my EMS training, 4 hrs per day, I'm gonna morph myself into a fine piece of man-ass, haha.
RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - Have at ye - 04-06-2025
OSC + DRS v2, Day 60
Ooof, three more days to go (today included)! I'm really ready for some OGSFing for a change there.
OSC is still doing its thing, deeply, but it's costing me. I'm still feeling quite misanthropic, though - honetly, I feel like curling up and not leaving my place except for groceries and such, which is kinda unfortunatey because I've got stuff I was planning to do, like recordings and the like, and it's a lot of busywork.
I've become way more assertive, though, when someone does or says something I don't like I just now go, "cut the shit" or whatever and get on with whatever I was doing. Works like a charm.
RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - Have at ye - 04-07-2025
OSC + DRS v2, Day 61
Ooof again, two more days to go! I'm about ready for OGSF, lol.
Seeing my lady analyst tomorrow, I really don't feel like talking to her, though.
I've been sleeping in a lot and there's lots of stuff going under the hood, based on my dreams and such. It kinda feels like 6G is trying to power through deep trauma even though OSC is not really designed for this, lol.
I think I'll be postponing the recording until next week. Gonna miss out on one opportunity but I really don't feel like doing all the busywork. Besides, it's just a competition, not an audition, so screw those guys and F the system.
Still feeling misanthropic.
Basically, OSC is powering through and I'm holding fast but outside symptoms are akin to a depressive episode. My mood isn't low, though, I'm just feeling kinda "meh, whatever" about everything and/or pissed off at people. Hopefully this will pay dividends down the line.
This chick from my expert-through-experience course keeps bugging me to make arrangements to go to our reunion because she wants to catch up on the train or something and then go for a walk or whatever. I was planning to test X4A on her but now I kinda don't feel like it, TBH.
RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - Have at ye - 04-08-2025
OSC + DRS v2, Day 62 - Final!
My therapy session actually went pretty well, we discussed why am I feeling misanthropic, and I decided it's because I'm really tired of having to fight off bullshit ideas which are patently untrue and that it's making me really, really angry and costing me a lot of effort.
Dat-ass chick keeps bugging me to buy tickets and coordinate meeting up with her, oyy. I mean, it's cute and all, but I'm actually finding it a nuisance right now, haha.
Having dreams indicative of OSC still going strong. In my latest dream I was listening to this little bitty: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LVKCPfB-AsU
"Talk, talk, you fools"
RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - Have at ye - 04-09-2025
Wrapping up this journal. The first month of OSC + DRS v2 was pure bliss, the second month... well... was *not* easy.
But I hope that my self-confidence has increased overall and shall be there to stay.
Feeling pretty good right now, see you in 6G Bonanza Vol. 2!
In other news, now that I've found a pianist to practice singing with, I'm actually considering finding a pianist for actual piano lessons. I can play... somewhat.
My selection criteria are very simple: she'd have to be kind, patient and stunningly hot, haha. You know, as a motivational device, obviously. For scientific reasons.
Heck, I can afford it.
Also got a new client for translation jobs.
Cheerio!