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RE: OFv3 being fearless - Kol - 07-26-2021
Running 3 loops US tonight. Something tells me this will mean the dam breaks and will be a full breakthrough. Im rooting for my subconscious lmao
What blows me away, is that I can see energy. I see it in person, its like a glow, or an afterwave in slomo, its pretty thick with some people, dense. I see it in posts here. I can read the energy, such as Jake executing and OF energy be all over it.
Purging and releasing fear, energy just spurrting forward. Idgaf anymore. It is what it is in perfect moment. No resistance, release. Im also not as helpless when it comes down to mind. I now know it takes momentum, and my desires happen to be the most alligned. Allow. It already is.
I notice to many things!
<3 its like my own garden. Lit! To many to write down. Christmas!<3
RE: OFv3 being fearless - Jake2015 - 07-26-2021
(07-26-2021, 08:02 AM)Kol Wrote: Running 3 loops US tonight. Something tells me this will mean the dam breaks and will be a full breakthrough. Im rooting for my subconscious lmao
What blows me away, is that I can see energy. I see it in person, its like a glow, or an afterwave in slomo, its pretty thick with some people, dense. I see it in posts here. I can read the energy, such as Jake executing and OF energy be all over it.
Purging and releasing fear, energy just spurrting forward. Idgaf anymore. It is what it is in perfect moment. No resistance, release. Im also not as helpless when it comes down to mind. I now know it takes momentum, and my desires happen to be the most alligned. Allow. It already is.
I notice to many things!
wow!
RE: OFv3 being fearless - Kol - 07-27-2021
Update: attraction is fun. Attraction = attraction. No forcing there. Im running multiple forms of game. With women attraction its just fun to not give a fuck and im fine with the long game. not to be a follower of hers or anythin, but rather "i know you are attracted, coochie in the bag, its fine" kinda. If it hapoens it hapoens but I aint rushing it. The sexual tension never leaving, she HAS to give in. All kind of game forms are executed. Just anything I do is charged now by suave like energy.
Nice. Long time since I went that way, but im way waaayyyy better now.
Its an "already have it" thing. Veryyyy cool. OF keeps surprising me. Sometimes it looks like simping but i simply give no fucks. Just smooth, fun, light, enjoying while being a massive sexual attractive flirth.
Many dudes are one track minded. Only pull. Master yourself, master box and you be able to execute the other side of the coin, resulting in push pull. Non needing allows it.
Dont take em seriously cuz they wont.
RE: OFv3 being fearless - Kol - 07-27-2021
Ran 4 loops last night after having 3,5 and 8 loops being rollcalled. Ran 4, which seems to be fear. Didnt sleep well, still restless.
RE: OFv3 being fearless - Kol - 07-28-2021
Addiction started to creep back in, running US now
Just 30 seconds in the loop and I shift into a stoic state. Thats quick.
RE: OFv3 being fearless - NOMAD - 07-28-2021
(07-27-2021, 11:51 PM)Kol Wrote: Ran 4 loops last night after having 3,5 and 8 loops being rollcalled. Ran 4, which seems to be fear. Didnt sleep well, still restless.
That's interesting. I've run 4 loops the past two nights. I built multiple playlists, but the choices that called to me were 4, 5 , and 8.
RE: OFv3 being fearless - Kol - 07-28-2021
(07-28-2021, 08:09 AM)NOMAD Wrote:(07-27-2021, 11:51 PM)Kol Wrote: Ran 4 loops last night after having 3,5 and 8 loops being rollcalled. Ran 4, which seems to be fear. Didnt sleep well, still restless.
That's interesting. I've run 4 loops the past two nights. I built multiple playlists, but the choices that called to me were 4, 5 , and 8.
Very interesting indeed.
Update: fear removal allows my creativity to flow way better. Creativity rules. Also fear around social media, or rather, the things surrounding it, such as people on the app that I rather not encounter, is reduced. I know its just a matter to delete/block them and firing people is a leader thing, something to take full reign in and I do so, but can do better. Its a weird fear that I know is bs, but still. Just block em, right? Fear of repercussions and being called out. Fear of having to reject them coldly. Im the one running the app, dafuq?! Why do I care so much about the possible response, which I can handle, but causes fear to stirr up? See,these events are those that bring up a feeling in me due to possible trauma, that life aint real sometimes and im in purgatory or something.
Texting improvement due fear reduction aswell as adding new people and what not. Insecurity is another being hit by OF and somewhat like a theme. Now, when it comes to game, im way more creative,ballsy, pimpish and direct. Having fun with it and having my flirtish edge to it. Not going for the insta, snapchat, contacts is a fear thing somewhat along the lines of the belief that it 'wouldnt be nice' or whatever. To play it off casually and label it non needy, yet it didnt sat right with me in some way. Same bs as the "letting it slide" while you are disrespected.
RE: OFv3 being fearless - Kol - 07-28-2021
Day 1 OFF
OFv3 has its own momentum. Im looking forward to the upcoming days, and im coming to appreciate OFF-days. Less of an "oh I need to fill the gap on my off-days, otherwise im missing out on, would I run loops"
Pretty cool. Also, autoconfig leads me to the set-up of having stable numbers, increase by one loop. 2 used to be me sweetspot, then I graduated to 3 loops, and last night I felt that 4 loopssuddenly was right. 2x4 ?xoff.
RE: OFv3 being fearless - Kol - 07-30-2021
Feeling like a pillar of light, masculinity, peace and presence.
Start re-reading Sexgod method.
Creativity is like wildfire. I got stories.
Boatloads of realisations, release and letting go like a reckless abandonment. This in returns manifests in a sense of peace and clarity of mind aswell as progression.
I release all fears, people, situations, worries, doubts.
Blinders are off.
5 loops of hybrid are paying off grandly.
RE: OFv3 being fearless - Kol - 07-31-2021
Totally unexpected; my memory is improving along with selflove. Those 2 alone put me on a great trajectory. Pretty clean results. Recalling and making decisions go up.
Now im suspecting that mental fogness is an fear thing, similar to amnesia in trauma. I wonder what @Shannon view is on OF in MLS
Another is sex. Its pretty much present in my mind. Gah, I love OFv3! Although I broke my streak today, I feel so good. OFv3 is evident. I take full responsibility for this break of my streak, and am not beating (hehehe) myself up over it. Selflove.
RE: OFv3 being fearless - Kol - 08-01-2021
Day 1 off
Stress. Anger. Things are being unearthed.
RE: OFv3 being fearless - Kol - 08-02-2021
Day 1 continue
I feel heat coming from my palms, having internal turmoil + a light headache.
Dont know why this is so important, but it is important to write down for whatever reason probably will make sense very soon.
Edit: im aware that all the experiences, for example rock bottom stuff, add to my success. Its powerfull how these will be some very effective tools.
I do miss playing the sub already. Its coming from a place of missing, no autoconfig, but me not allowing myself to feel good, like its something inferior or something, like offdays are less.note to myself: enjoy the off-days. Lotsa greatness taking place in THIS process. Just like the gym, off-days are important for growth and processing. This is something im still working on so thats cool.
The feelings this morning were desperation, sadness and slight suicidal thoughts stemming from desperation of things not working out. Funny how it can change so fast seeing where I am now and all blossoms, creativity and building mindset is back with a vengeance. I am success. Im coming up with some great visions which I will be able to pull off. OFv3 execution is evident. Im driven by vision. My interests are just flowing aswell.
Some things tho....are rather to stay silent on. An working behind the scenes. Say less then is necessary, also something to pay attention to. Some things are better to stay silent on, which doesnt mean neglect, but rather, dont spill the beans, it aint time yet. Some 48 laws of power right here. Highly innovative and creative.
RE: OFv3 being fearless - Kol - 08-04-2021
Ran 1 loop masked trickling stream last night. Nothing but breakthroughs today! I do notice I still have restlessness before falling asleep, which in turn keeps me awake. Besides that, my hours of sleephave reduced, which shows itself in waking up 2 hours earlier then what it used to be. This morning when I went peeing, I felt completely fearless and vocalized this aswell. Its so natural, it shows in everything, its so normal, journalling about it doesnt sit right, because, well, its normal.
RE: OFv3 being fearless - Kol - 08-04-2021
I have no words anymore for the amazingness thats going on. Im beyond gratefull.