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AbyssRockstarXXX - RainbowAbyss - 10-16-2011
I'll start off in the spirit of a teenage locker room talk: first night after listening to Sex Magnet-had sex
This thread will be dedicated as a journal to my
my experiences, progress, and (cross my fingers) future womanizing, may it be shameless and filled with integrity, while under the subliminal influence of the Sex Magnet set.
I started the set last Friday night, for 9 hours and woke up feeling, good but very different, hard to explain, but unusual. I felt more sprightly, slightly more care free . Throughout the day, I felt very willing to be social and was enjoying conversations with neighbors, family, and friends more than usual, but despite this things people said, in the past (after alpha or during refresher course) would have slipped right off me, now were really ticking me off and getting me irritated. Anyway no more boring details, that morning I sent a text to a girl I had been on one 'date' with maybe 3 weeks before but hadn't really been in touch or seen each other since. We got into a great flirty very sexual text rapport, I said "we should get together and do it" referring to hunting down a fake thief I pretended stole something of hers, and she wrote back " your full of great ideas, yes, we should get together and do it!" Anyway we met up for drinks later and one thing led to another, she came back to my house and next thing I knew we had sex. It was a great time and very enjoyable, I really felt much freer and more relaxed than usual. Although she did say I seemed not that into her during the second round. So far I feel I can get very internally agitated and unpresent, hopefully stage 1 releasing crap. Anyway I went out later that night and definitely was just more playful, and somehow more indifferent to and way more invested in woman at the same time, its kind of hard to explain. My really good mood would frequently get this sudden interrupts of intense upset, jealousy, negative emotions, but they would last for like 2-10 seconds and be gone. But I was approaching woman pretty fearlessly, and thats normally something I do pretty much on the reg. but that night I felt like there was no barrier to overcome, no get ready GO, it was just smooth fun and on.
Woke up this morning after around 10 hours of listening and felt tired as a mofo, felt very surreal and detached, very rugged and rough around the edges, felt much more arrogant than usual and a little self conscious but also very comfortable with it, got a few 'eyes' from girls and have definitely started feeling some combustion inside, as they day went on my mood got progressively worse and worse and a bit of background apathy was creeping in, not to mention at times I just wont to rip the clothes of some girls but also feel so detached, its kind of a frustrating thing lol. this set is definitively making me pooped and bringing up some rough stuff, as of day 2 haha.
I went out to dinner with my twin and my mom and was having flashes of jealous and or being despondent whenever my twin was interacting with girls, I NEVER have this, maybe in the past extremely rarely but not for years. I felt while some women were blatantly showing signs of interest, it seems like girls are very aloof and the moment I interact with them the light up. In fact already I'm noticing people, and especially woman are opening up more and very quickly. Enjoying the sub so far and glad to finally be on it.
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - Ryan - 10-17-2011
(10-16-2011, 10:25 PM)RainbowAbyss Wrote: I'll start off in the spirit of a teenage locker room talk: first night after listening to Sex Magnet-had sex
This thread will be dedicated as a journal to my
my experiences, progress, and (cross my fingers) future womanizing, may it be shameless and filled with integrity, while under the subliminal influence of the Sex Magnet set.
I started the set last Friday night, for 9 hours and woke up feeling, good but very different, hard to explain, but unusual. I felt more sprightly, slightly more care free . Throughout the day, I felt very willing to be social and was enjoying conversations with neighbors, family, and friends more than usual, but despite this things people said, in the past (after alpha or during refresher course) would have slipped right off me, now were really ticking me off and getting me irritated. Anyway no more boring details, that morning I sent a text to a girl I had been on one 'date' with maybe 3 weeks before but hadn't really been in touch or seen each other since. We got into a great flirty very sexual text rapport, I said "we should get together and do it" referring to hunting down a fake thief I pretended stole something of hers, and she wrote back " your full of great ideas, yes, we should get together and do it!" Anyway we met up for drinks later and one thing led to another, she came back to my house and next thing I knew we had sex. It was a great time and very enjoyable, I really felt much freer and more relaxed than usual. Although she did say I seemed not that into her during the second round. So far I feel I can get very internally agitated and unpresent, hopefully stage 1 releasing crap. Anyway I went out later that night and definitely was just more playful, and somehow more indifferent to and way more invested in woman at the same time, its kind of hard to explain. My really good mood would frequently get this sudden interrupts of intense upset, jealousy, negative emotions, but they would last for like 2-10 seconds and be gone. But I was approaching woman pretty fearlessly, and thats normally something I do pretty much on the reg. but that night I felt like there was no barrier to overcome, no get ready GO, it was just smooth fun and on.
Woke up this morning after around 10 hours of listening and felt tired as a mofo, felt very surreal and detached, very rugged and rough around the edges, felt much more arrogant than usual and a little self conscious but also very comfortable with it, got a few 'eyes' from girls and have definitely started feeling some combustion inside, as they day went on my mood got progressively worse and worse and a bit of background apathy was creeping in, not to mention at times I just wont to rip the clothes of some girls but also feel so detached, its kind of a frustrating thing lol. this set is definitively making me pooped and bringing up some rough stuff, as of day 2 haha.
I went out to dinner with my twin and my mom and was having flashes of jealous and or being despondent whenever my twin was interacting with girls, I NEVER have this, maybe in the past extremely rarely but not for years. I felt while some women were blatantly showing signs of interest, it seems like girls are very aloof and the moment I interact with them the light up. In fact already I'm noticing people, and especially woman are opening up more and very quickly. Enjoying the sub so far and glad to finally be on it.
Uh oh
Ryan
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - K-Train - 10-17-2011
Good luck Rainbow, may the "sexual" force be with you.
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - Spiral - 10-17-2011
It's all about that warm vibe man! And as far as approaching women I'm going to work on that some more I think after Sex Magnet if the whole "get the woman to approach you" thing doesn't produce my desired results. I got a few on the list before running alpha again. BTW stage 1 and 2 will bring up some unusual things and you'll feel weird no doubt. Stage 3 was def. better overall.
Therefore Stages 1 and 2 will bring up stuff that needs to be dealt with a lot, and you'll still see effects, while Stage 3 seems to be a really nice sweet spot for the effects before the set focuses completely on getting sex to happen. I am really enjoying Stage 3.
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - Shannon - 10-17-2011
In Sex Magnet, in order to "get to the good stuff" faster, I did things a little differently than usual. Instead of focusing Stage 1 entirely on ripping out the negative, and then waiting for stage 2 to get started, I spread out the process of ripping out the negative AND getting started through the first three stages. Stage 1 is about 40% "getting going", stage 2 is about 60% "getting going" and Stage 3 is about 80% "getting going". The idea being to maximize the speed at which things start happening, while making the purging/foundation building process last longer and be more thorough overall.
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - Cortez - 10-17-2011
Welcome to the train ride! I can't wait to see where it takes you.
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - About - 10-17-2011
(10-17-2011, 10:42 AM)Shannon Wrote: In Sex Magnet, in order to "get to the good stuff" faster, I did things a little differently than usual. Instead of focusing Stage 1 entirely on ripping out the negative, and then waiting for stage 2 to get started, I spread out the process of ripping out the negative AND getting started through the first three stages. Stage 1 is about 40% "getting going", stage 2 is about 60% "getting going" and Stage 3 is about 80% "getting going". The idea being to maximize the speed at which things start happening, while making the purging/foundation building process last longer and be more thorough overall.
would something like this be effective for the alpha subs as well?
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - RainbowAbyss - 10-17-2011
I def. feel something "getting going", that's for sure, did 5 hours of the set last night and only slept 20 minutes, but had an awesome day. Its weird but I feel so withdrawn and so novel seeking at the same time. Also I feel this feeling inside me growing, that just makes me feel so secure when it comes to woman in general. This set feels like its making my self image and self esteem boost through the roof to the point where my other attention is liberated towards goals and enjoyment of the moment. I'm having glimpses of just feeling like I have 'it' the whole world is moving in slow motion (could be like of sleep)and am like the source/conduit of this thick blissfull presence that permeates everything, or feels like it is everything, and I just feel badaXX really enjoying women, there is some really sexy eye contact thing that happened to me a couple times a day, where it feels really vulnerable but with alot of 'edge'. I feel the subs really start showing their colors without resistance when I am sleep deprived and or have a little alcohol in me. The school I was teaching at today cancelled class so I went to play b-ball with the local 'hood' kids. I felt so comfortable the whole time, was making friends with them, and even my game flowed in a way it doesn't usually. There were all 'smoking' bubble gum cigarettes and trying to look cool which I thought was really funny because they definitively looked like those fake cigarettes people smoke pot out of...but yeah candies better than the 4000+ chemicals in cigarettes I guess, even if they lose some street cred.
Shannon I think this is a good way of doing it, I might not be able to handle pure negativity removal on this subject all in one month lol
thanks Cortez, I'll def. keep everyone informed, thanks K-train and Spiral.
and thanks Ryan for your 'outside' help
Ill PM u as soon as I get a new facebook up
and be your 'gunie pig' of online debauchery lol
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - Shannon - 10-17-2011
(10-17-2011, 12:44 PM)About Wrote:(10-17-2011, 10:42 AM)Shannon Wrote: In Sex Magnet, in order to "get to the good stuff" faster, I did things a little differently than usual. Instead of focusing Stage 1 entirely on ripping out the negative, and then waiting for stage 2 to get started, I spread out the process of ripping out the negative AND getting started through the first three stages. Stage 1 is about 40% "getting going", stage 2 is about 60% "getting going" and Stage 3 is about 80% "getting going". The idea being to maximize the speed at which things start happening, while making the purging/foundation building process last longer and be more thorough overall.
would something like this be effective for the alpha subs as well?
Probably not. Remember that Sex Magnet is building on the foundation laid by Alpha Male. If not for that fact, I could not have done it that way. That's part of why it's so important to use AM first.
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - RainbowAbyss - 10-19-2011
@Shannon-I hope my two week refresher course will be enough to blast me through..(?)
5 nights of listening
I am really enjoying this sub
I am having a bit of strangeness or funk
when I wake up on the sub and have to rush out of the house.
It seems I need a solid half hour after stopping the sub for everything to settle down.
I am surprised by some of the effects of this sub I feel like the dark and the light in me is really being owned and showcased front and center. I am feeling very strong in myself, self capable, and interdependent emotionally, very present at times. I am also less questioning and self doubting, and am having bursts of motivation and creativity to really make my dreams reality-even if they have nothing to do with woman. I am getting really horny at periods and completely sexually indifferent at others-and sometimes at the same time! Unfortunately I have 'sinned'
several times earlier week, as the allure of the porn was to strong AAGHH-even after having sex several times early this week as well-I think once after she left to haha. I lost one of my jobs a few weeks ago-due to a bxxxch of a manager (it was a dude so I mean PXXXCK)- and I still have my teaching job but whatever I said about not caring about losing one job I have three others-I take back-because all of them have fallen through but one-and its barely keeping me afloat-I'm not worried at all for some reason though- I'm feeling kind of excited and confident about getting new work though now-whereas before I started sex magnet-I was kind of just avoiding the issue. I'm also feeling very inspired to get into dance, yoga, and mma classes. The first two both because I want to learn to dance respectively, yoga just makes me feel good, and there's tons of cuties in both classes and I want to put myself in environments with tons of woman. I don't know why I want to do MMA, the idea just hit me and I really feel like following through.
now that I wrote out my daily diary -here are the effects so far. I know longer believe in pro's or cons so I'll list all that is happening together
1. More self esteem
2. More confidence
3. Less self question or self doubt
4. More socially comfortable but independent
5. More Indifference to others-whether it be social grace or being outrageous
6. Generally getting very horny but also blissful-but this is triggered usually around woman
7. Feeling less and less primal anxiety (worrying about one's attractiveness and how to 'get' woman) every day
8. Feeling more and more abundance of woman everyday-even when no woman are around
9. No really sexual dreams yet (I'm kind of shocked) but at times a I drift into a daydreaming concerto of sexual fantasy and abundance
10. Becoming more withdrawn internally-even when public-while much more expressive externally when I care to speak.
11. Flirting with woman way up-our vibes just link easier and it feels like if I had certain woman alone-it would be game over-in a good way of course
12.Some strong periods of being really in my head
13. Periods of being intensely present and feeling super spiritual, and badaXX at the same time-having 'IT' .I can't really explain this feeling but its what I've been wanting to experience and become part of my character for a long time-and has made the set worth it by itself so far.
14. My body and the world seem to be slower while my mind is faster, sharper, and wittier
15. More Woman open up to me way more and really quickly and I find myself saying things that I cant believe I said
16. Periods of being extremely exhausted
17. Losing all motivation to do anything in order to get woman and gaining a lot of motivation to do things that make me feel more attractive for myself-i.e. feeling the need to natural grounding or doing mirror affirmations down to nearly zero-wanting to replace my entire wardrobe with clothes I actually like-growing day by day. Motivation towards listening/watching or reading up on seduction material-completely gone (although that declines been in the works for a while)-Desire to actually be that man who lives his life for himself and does what he wants to do no matter what-going way up
18. Increased risk taking (and willingness to confront risk), stronger desire to novelty seek
Keep in mind alot of these things feel like there growing but are not full blown 'entities' in my being,
I just really like where this is heading.
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - LionMonkey - 10-20-2011
Sounds like SM has crazy effects on you. I can't wait to start it!!!
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - RainbowAbyss - 10-25-2011
Yeah its alot of fun at times,
things are getting crazier both in good and rough ways.
In general I am just way more in the moment, the profound sense of abundance and
feelings of security concerning women have diminished a bit, and there is lot of a bit of concern if I will ever be able to be with the kind of girls I really find attractive. I'm having ups and down between feeling total secure with body image and sexuality, as well as total relaxation around woman, and a kind of subtle doubt about myself, my body image, kind of like a questioning, hopefully of letting go, of actually ever being that kind of guy that the woman I am attracted to really want.
I am simultaneously much more relaxed in general and getting funnier and more charismatic while also feeling alot like stage 1 2010 of Alpha, annoyance at plenty of things, but MUCH better able to handle it gracefully than I did during 2010 alpha stage 1. I'm alternating between not caring what women think of me so much that I don't notice their attraction or not at all, or am very much really enjoying the crazy IOI's I am getting, but after I get these, especially a few in a row, I just start looking for feedback of how well the sub is doing and well u know...the water never jumps out of a watched pot
. I'm noticing that people seem very submissive around me, especially woman, and at times almost antsy and uncomfortable, there are periods where woman seem really attracted but almost want to get away from me as quickly as possible which is odd. I am feeling so intensely attracted to woman I can barley contain it, and feel like I have to control it in inappropriate situations. Its like I am always experiencing this strong physical sexual tension in myself, not even in my penis, its just all over the body. I was smoking cigarettes this weekend and that seemed to dissipate the tension a bit, but if I have not had sex, interacted with women or been to the gym, at times its hard to handle. I am also way more willing and comfortable trying new things and wanting to. Its like as I am withdrawing more inside I am also finally shedding the fairly insular alpha male cocoon of enjoyment and the masculine void-always looking to return to stillness, now its like I am always looking to 'dance'. I I went to homecoming back at college this weekend and had a fantastic time, I definitively felt more in the zone with taking action, and at house parties really seemed to shine. I did have an amazing sexual-emotional connection with half costa rican half swiss girl and we made out a bit but she had told me earlier that she was going through rough times and couldn't get involved with anyone-later one in the night though I met up with her again and she was smoking weed with her ex-so I don't know? Makes me sad-in retrospect, at times on this sub I have these feelings of thoughts of never being enough-I try not to buy into it but it comes on strong some times.
On the bright side-I am relating to woman in a totally new way-it feels way more indifferent and flirty with this strong sexual tension beneath, at times its very physical, like could just f---ct right there but at times it feels just way more energetic and almost like a constant shock of electricity between us. One girl I talked to for like 5 minutes facebooked me and sent me a private message saying-her number+'text me'. I texted her and she never responded-I thought the whole thing was kind of funny.
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - RainbowAbyss - 10-26-2011
things are getting strange-I'm feeling
just very depressive in general,
angry at lots of little things
and find myself bursting into tears
or flipping out about stuff or at people close to me
when the engage me the wrong way. Very strange behavior for me.
Also I'm going through a period in my life where finding new work is more of a priority
than women, maybe this is causing resistance. In fact right now I feel I almost want nothing to do with woman and don't feel particularly sexual at all.
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - Ryan - 10-26-2011
(10-26-2011, 10:34 AM)RainbowAbyss Wrote: things are getting strange-I'm feeling
just very depressive in general,
angry at lots of little things
and find myself bursting into tears
or flipping out about stuff or at people close to me
when the engage me the wrong way. Very strange behavior for me.
Also I'm going through a period in my life where finding new work is more of a priority
than women, maybe this is causing resistance. In fact right now I feel I almost want nothing to do with woman and don't feel particularly sexual at all.
Everything I went through, Rainbow, including finding better things to do than women. Don't worry, it's all part of it. I remember in the beginning, women were kinda my anti-depressant. And well, when I gave up that desire/want (which at times is very overwhelming) I wasn't able to cope with it right away. Esp. those days when women weren't entertaining or making me happy. But, that's something that needs to be worked out extensively. Try to relax, it's most intense for the few couple of weeks then it settles down quite a bit.