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DMSI v5 - Infinity Stones - Ampersnd - 08-16-2025
Day 1. Ran four loops of 35 minutes; the stream was scattered and on/off.
I feel like James Bond. However, I am in the comfort of my home.
RE: DMSI v5 - Infinity Stones - Ampersnd - 08-17-2025
Day 2,
Ran the loops again this morning; a couple of hours later, I go to the gym.
Throughout my visit, I definitely saw more than three women that I'd consider at least a 7/10. The vibe was interesting; I was able to genuinely disengage and not feel my eyes pulled towards them.
At the same time, I wanted to sit back and see what would unfold on its own.
In some cases, it felt as though these women were putting more effort into pretending that I wasn't there (same strategy as me, I suppose).
I did have organic cases of eye contact when I wasn't trying, but nothing crazy.
Saw an interesting looking young woman - middle Eastern or Latina with curly hair and blonde highlights - doing stretches on the yoga mat. I almost walked up to introduce myself, but I psyched myself out because I wasn't 100% sure about her age.
I go to the bulk food candy shop (I'm cutting down the amounts) and see a gal - with a thick juicy ass - that I once talked to at my gym.
I saw her hanging around the cashiers; I go and grab my things and she's still chatting with the second cashier while the first one talks to me and tended to me (the one I mentioned in my final posts of UMS). She's no more than four feet away from me; again, felt as though she knew who I was, but didn't want to let on that she knew.
All of this could be my own imagination, but it was the vibe I felt.
RE: DMSI v5 - Infinity Stones - Frosted - 08-17-2025
I’ve been quietly watching you grow through your journals and I’m curious how you will develop with DMSI5. Good luck!
RE: DMSI v5 - Infinity Stones - Ampersnd - 08-19-2025
Day 4,
I chatted with the cashier at the convenience store today. Went into a few different topics until a new customer walked right up and she needed to deal with that.
Looks wise, I wouldn't seek her out, but she was receptive to what I was talking about.
She volunteered the information that she works on X days until 1 PM.
I immediately thought of this point in the marketing copy of DMSI: That affected women might "Freely share information with you that they normally would not, which may be unusually advantageous to you, unusually personal, and or make it easy for you to know where they will be and when so you can see them more often if you like."
RE: DMSI v5 - Infinity Stones - Ampersnd - 08-19-2025
Was at the gym; got a few women - even some who I would want to be interested in me - turning their heads with eye contact, but being stone-faced.
The current gripe I have is that I don't feel any different; I want to get excited to talk to them, and to figure it out.
Gym was busy, fairly crowded, and my mind wasn't working out any opportunities to try to start conversations.
I'm also getting used to the 'no caffeine' rule, though I've been able to rest enough and recover through sleep.
RE: DMSI v5 - Infinity Stones - Ampersnd - 08-24-2025
Day 9,
I may have just applied 4 days on (I should have checked my calendar). Whoops.
I've been following a 21 day day masculine energy activation group; the feelings that I'm cultivating are interesting and new.
As part of the practice, I also called off things with my long-distance situationship last night; there were some genuine feelings involved, but it was too up in the air. It was upsetting seeing her upset (over FaceTime) and she kept throwing out hints that she would want to keep things going.
I need to reflect and give it time without giving in to those hints.
Today, I'm a bit teary and sad; it might be the exposure to DMSI; I'm feeling like there's an immature part of myself that is dying off, and I'm grieving its departure. Or, it's hurt over my feelings for her.
RE: DMSI v5 - Infinity Stones - Ampersnd - 08-26-2025
Day 11,
I really want the 'Natural Seduction' to kick on, where I would have an interest and drive in regard to walking up to the attractive women in the room.
Currently, I feel like I don't have anything inside me that wants to go up.
Any initial conversation, I could do out of habit; but I don't really feel a desire to continue a conversation, learn about her, and progress / escalate.
There are feelings and beliefs of not being enough, or that a rejection is imminent - as it's tended to be - so "what's the use?" (inner dialog)
RE: DMSI v5 - Infinity Stones - Shannon - 08-26-2025
You of course will need to work through that before you get to the good stuff.
RE: DMSI v5 - Infinity Stones - treble - 08-27-2025
(08-19-2025, 02:40 PM)Ampersnd Wrote: I'm also getting used to the 'no caffeine' rule, though I've been able to rest enough and recover through sleep.
I was craving a coke earlier today and looked for the caffeine-free version. No luck. :/
Seems like you're off to a good start on DMSI tbh.
RE: DMSI v5 - Infinity Stones - Ampersnd - 08-28-2025
Day 13,
Going through something right now; it started yesterday.
It's an underlying feeling of "I'm doing something wrong" or "I've done things wrong"
My brain is telling me that I'm doing my work wrong; that I'm thinking about relationships wrong. I'm being a bad friend. A bad son. Derelict in my responsibilities. Not pursuing my career properly. Laughing at the wrong things. Not being extroverted or charitable enough, etc.
That I've done cringe and irresponsible things.
Probably dealing with underlying guilt/shame right now. Not sure how much of that is packaged into this program.
RE: DMSI v5 - Infinity Stones - Shannon - 08-28-2025
That kind of response is just your subconscious trying to push back against the efforts the subliminal script is making to achieve changes it disagrees with. When this effect becomes "loud" enough for you to hear in your conscious mind, it means that the subconscious is running out of options and getting desperate.
I have experienced this sort of thing before. The first time was when I ran the experiment with "Manifest Your Perfect Lover" that I ran back in 2005. All my subconscious programming started coming out of the woodwork telling me I was wrong, this was wrong, a man is supposed to be good in XYZ way, blah blah blah. To see what would happen, I ignored it, and over time, it went away because it was replaced.
RE: DMSI v5 - Infinity Stones - Ampersnd - 08-30-2025
Day 15,
I'm struck at how little attention (i.e., none) that I'm paying to pron and jorking it. I think that I'm at about day 12, but I'm not counting.
There's some external accountability related to that, too. My other current danger is fantasizing before sleep; if my thoughts snowball, then I get excited.
Yesterday was the 3rd day out of 3 days of the run. Was so tired last night that I napped from 6-8:30 PM, then tried to sleep starting at 9:30 PM. Finally fell asleep at 11:00 PM and got up at 7 AM. I was ready to attack the day.
Drove down to visit my family; stopped at a large pit stop briefly. I was turning heads; some younger women (possibly even younger) up to middle aged.
I've been growing out my beard.
Was still going through some beliefs of "not having anything (related to life, dating) figured out" in the car ride. I made the sudden decision to tell myself that "I have everything figured out" and that "every decision I make is the right decision". This at least redirected the course of my thoughts in a more positive direction.
RE: DMSI v5 - Infinity Stones - Ampersnd - 09-02-2025
Day 18,
Today, I felt a growing feeling of unease; it's a feeling close to anxiety, but I'm not anxious, per se.
It's the feeling of "something's wrong", but not with me (anymore).
Just that things are internally unstable.
RE: DMSI v5 - Infinity Stones - treble - 09-02-2025
Same exact situation for me re:porn and jacking it.
I hope the sense of instability that you’re experiencing goes away.