07-11-2018, 04:23 AM
Slept 12 hours last night. Still tired without end. And still struggling to simply stay on course with the sub. But I don't want to turn away from this path.
07-11-2018, 04:23 AM
07-12-2018, 02:32 PM
Resistance is intense.
Bouts of anxiety coupled with 'time leaps' when suddenly I look at a watch and hours have passed without me really noticing. I don't know how to explain this phenomenon properly. It's as if my short-term memory isn't collecting data or as if in-the-moment memory data is being written into RAM and constantly overwritten instead of filed on my harddrive. I noticed this effect here and there since I have been a few days into MLS and it is getting more pronounced with every passing day.
Additionally my mind is active and keeping my body awake. I am now nearly 24 hours awake and could go on and on. And this is with actually less caffeine than usual. Weird stuff. All my devices run with some kind of red light shift, so it isn't an overload of blue light that is keeping me from getting tired. Just my mind.
Bouts of anxiety coupled with 'time leaps' when suddenly I look at a watch and hours have passed without me really noticing. I don't know how to explain this phenomenon properly. It's as if my short-term memory isn't collecting data or as if in-the-moment memory data is being written into RAM and constantly overwritten instead of filed on my harddrive. I noticed this effect here and there since I have been a few days into MLS and it is getting more pronounced with every passing day.
Additionally my mind is active and keeping my body awake. I am now nearly 24 hours awake and could go on and on. And this is with actually less caffeine than usual. Weird stuff. All my devices run with some kind of red light shift, so it isn't an overload of blue light that is keeping me from getting tired. Just my mind.