Week 10
Still nothing. Just blah. Honestly feel like I have more anxiety than before. Feel nervous more often and I have no clue why. Simple tasks before are now causing my heart to race. It makes no sense to me.
Week 11
This week the anxious feeling is gone. Was getting a bit worried there. Now just feel super tired most of the time. Really sleepy and have a hard time waking up. I feel like I have no energy.
Week 12
Not a good week. Alot of insecurity, anxiety, negativity, hopelessness and suicidal thoughts. I couldn't do anything and distracted myself. Then talked it out with my sister and did that for a day and a half. I had alot to let out. I never told my sister anything before. I just had this feeling to do so. After wards I still dealt with the mental thoughts but kept fighting them and eventually won. I don't need to listen to such worthless thoughts and don't need them. Now I am fine but it was definitely a scare for some days. Thoughts of stopping subs all together but I don't know. I don't like repeating what just happened and it seems it happens with every sub I do. I was honestly thinking about doing the Depression 5.5g sub or Anxiety Relief 5.5g.
First of all congratulations for sticking 3 months to this sub! You had some rough time with it so give yourself a pat on your back.
My experience is that change needs energy. It sounds as if you were running out of energy. Maybe its a good idea to take a break for a week or two, regain some energy by that and then get back to the sub.
Week 13
Feeling blah as usual. I will listen to Changer's advice and take a break from subs. After the two weeks I will be trying Anxiety Relief 5.5 as I feel that is a major issue I have now a days.