(06-02-2018, 06:25 PM)yogik Wrote: [ -> ]Hi everyone, I'm new to Shannon's subliminals and it appears I'm in the minority. I'm female, 21 y/o so maybe there won't be many interested readers. There isn't quite a subliminal that can address the slew of problems I'm dealing with right now, and have been - for over a decade. I thought "well, at least more positive thinking can't hurt" so here I am.
I'm really trying to turn my life around but have been extremely resistant to change thus far. My goal with listening to this subliminal is to change that around and be a better, more positive, and grateful person all around. I'm an avid researcher of the Law of Attraction and have been moderately successful in using it, but for relatively trivial things. However, I haven't been able to wield LOA to change the things in my life that I see as preventing me from true happiness (something I don't believe I have experienced for over 10 years)
I have a variety of conditions affecting my physical appearance that I would consider disfiguring for a female. Despite being very feminine internally, I have a lot of masculine external traits due to hormonal issues and other factors including genetic. This had led me to isolation, with a limited social life and absolutely no romantic life. Of course I'm also insecure about the normal stuff most girls are insecure about. I view myself as undateable, perhaps unloveable. On a surface level, I feel apathy towards love and affection even though I think I'm a warm and kind person. It could also have to do with the fact that I had/have a strained relationship with my mother, who expressed several times disgust at aspects of my physical appearance and implying that she wished I was different, not just physically but also personality wise. My younger self would react hostilely to those comments, but in the past 3 - 4 years I've become more and more emotionally closed off and distant. I also don't have the kind of close relationship I want with any family member, or any friend. And most of all, I don't have a good relationship with myself.
Thus far, I have been unwilling to allow myself to feel happiness because it didn't make sense to me that I should, with what all the psychosexual difficulties that afflict me.
I have listened to PTPA for 4 days so far. I can't say I consciously felt different upon listening. Although on the 2nd day, I experienced several synchronicities that in retrospect may have strongly had to do with the subliminal. Maybe it was a placebo, but today I was motivated enough that I finally surrendered to the fact that my life will go nowhere unless I start practicing gratitude. I felt several emotional breakthroughs and experienced a glimpse of what it's like to be content unconditionally. I have resisted this inevitable practice (feeling grateful and positive even when I don't "want to") even though I know it's the key to activating the Law of Attraction and seeing change in my life.
Every day I've listened to at least 3 loops using the hybrid audio wearing earphones, but I also have the ultrasonic playing at night while I sleep on my laptop. I figure "more positivity can't hurt". Even though I'm not relying solely on the subliminal to make me feel better, I believe it's aiding me in practicing healthy mental habits and motivating me to act more despite being in a slump.
To those who read this far, thank you very much! I hope it wasn't a boring read.
Congratulations for the courage to choose to step out from the shadows!
It isn't easy, but subliminals will help you take big steps and overcome self-sabotage. Because it isn't easy to come out of it yourself without inflicting a lot of harm on yourself (trading one hurt for another) and when it gets too hard you may just throw in the towel and give up (self-sabotage, you give up before you see the light). Subliminals provide a safe and guided path to step out of the hell hole. You will reclaim your life. It has helped me and I'm sure it will benefit you too.
Keep at it!
(06-11-2018, 07:33 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]Keep up the good progress!
Thank you very much!
(06-11-2018, 11:35 PM)Quote Wrote: [ -> ]Hi yogik, welcome! I didn't realise you were female and new to the forums 
It's good to stick to the sub until the minimum period indicated by Shannon in the instructions. EPHRA v2 is very powerful, and after having gone through it I recommend to do it first before any other. I can already feel how helpful it would be to set up my inner self for future subs.
I did AF 4G, it was my first sub. Not sure if you read about it but I'm putting it out here. The Alpha Male may be likened to a lion in the animal kingdom - power, strength, presence etc. But it's not the case for Alpha Female. It isn't a female version of the male alpha. After AF, I was more confident, let go some emotional baggage from poor parenting/upbringing, learned to control my emotions a lot better. I also learned to be more assertive and speak up for my own needs. Ultimately it's still a choice you make. I can only provide my thoughts and feedback.
All the best!
I appreciate your support! I will be definitely doing the minimum, and likely way more than just that. I see no point in stopping before then. And I wish I started with EPHRA v2 but oh well. It'll probably be the next one I do!
I'm kind of hoping I get the AF results from PTPA anyways but we'll see.
(06-11-2018, 11:44 PM)Quote Wrote: [ -> ]Congratulations for the courage to choose to step out from the shadows!
It isn't easy, but subliminals will help you take big steps and overcome self-sabotage. Because it isn't easy to come out of it yourself without inflicting a lot of harm on yourself (trading one hurt for another) and when it gets too hard you may just throw in the towel and give up (self-sabotage, you give up before you see the light). Subliminals provide a safe and guided path to step out of the hell hole. You will reclaim your life. It has helped me and I'm sure it will benefit you too.
Keep at it!
I'm really hopeful, because I don't feel powerful enough to make these changes without the help of subliminals. I resisted subliminals because I thought they were the "easy way" to fix my problems but I'm glad I chose to go through with it in the end
Day 14
For the past couple of days, I feel that my mood has been quite neutral. Nothing in the way of "extremely positive", which I believe is in the script. However, my default mood before is quite low so it looks like I'm gradually climbing up. No new synchronicities, but then again I haven't been practicing mindfulness and gratitude as much as I wanted. Some days I just listen to the subliminal for 3 loops and that's it. The cold that I came down with is still with me, I still cough up a lot of phlegm throughout the day despite no other symptoms such as body aches or pain. This is an unusual course of sickness for me. Maybe it's a physical symptom of clearing negativity? Another thing is that while I sleep the same amount of time every night, I wake up feeling it was a very deep sleep.
Day 17
It's still early in the day. Not much to report on because not much is happening in my life right now anyways lol I feel an increased ease in using various LOA methods and being able to "let go and trust the universe" sort of thing, but it hasn't resulted in anything - yet.
But I thought I'd mention that I just tried to take a nap with the hybrid sub (wearing earphones). I woke up earlier than usual today and felt tired a couple hours later so that's why. But I was unable to sleep despite being very sleepy, which induced sleep paralysis for me. I didn't have a full blown episode as I caught it early on by focusing on my hand intensely and moving it to break the paralysis, and I had to do that process couple of times because I kept falling back into SP until I finally jolted myself awake. I don't know if that's a normal side effect of the subliminals or if it's because I tried to take a nap roughly 4 hours after waking up.
Day 21
I've come back from the visit to my mom. The past couple of days I've experienced some very high, highs. And only moderately low, lows. I'd say things are moving in the right direction! I've signed up for a nursing assistance course which will give me a license that enables me to work in caregiving! I'm quite excited for the future! I know this is "woo" talk but I also just feel like the Universe has my side in general.
I also see a psychiatrist who had prescribed me an anti-depressant before I traveled (I've never taken medication before). I decided not to pick up the prescription and opted to wait until I came back. Well today I had a visit with her and I announced that I won't be taking it at all and continuing with talk-therapy only
I feel much better in general and can do without it. Yes I do feel worry, sadness, anxiety, etc. from time to time, but it's less severe and less frequent. Yay!
I should mention that I am also working on myself consciously, and trying to reverse my negative thought patterns. But I believe the subliminal is giving me a much needed boost. I've never had the motivation until I started listening to it.