Stage 2 Day 19
Nothing much to report. Felt pretty good overall. Continuing with TRE and BioE.
Phone broke so I'm having to improvise. Had some dreams but can't remember.
Stage 2 Day 20
Started feeling nervous again, despite Bio E and TRE. Hmph. Maybe one off, hope so.
Today was day 82 of no fap/semen retention. It's been pretty easy but I'm noticing side effects. For a start during my time doing this I've noticed my workout regimen has decreased, losing some motivation/consistency. Also my diet has kind of stalled. I'm eating a lot more takeaways. This could also be due to having to move work location so it's less convenient for me to shop. I kind of think this is my way to make up for quitting caffeine/masturbation so I'm finding another way to treat myself.
Went to the gym and did my squat workout there. Bloody barbell was way too big for me, so that there wasn't any grips for the front squat on my shoulders. Thing kept trying to slide off me due to sweat. No looks except from fellow gym bros. Felt kind of self conscious.
Had a wet dream last night. Can't even remember what it was about.
Looking forward to Stage 3 honestly. I think I'm going to have to run this multiple times. At the moment I'm thinking AM6 > DMSI A (healing)> AM6 > ? > AM6.
Three times might be my sweet spot.
Stage 2 Day 30
Seems like I got my days wrong? I started on the 13/03/18 and today is 12/04/18? This is my post for yesterday.
So, some more dreams.
From my last post to now I've had some more dreams of insects. This one involved having them as pets inside a cage that my mom tried cleaning but ended up letting them out. I got angry and just decided to open the door and let them fly away.
Another last night was dreaming of Bear Gryll's with really bad teeth. He seemed unphased by this as he was doing a video about some sort of product of his. I tell myself I'm never going to let that happen to me and go to look in the mirror. I'm missing one tooth from my lower jaw and the others are wobbly and weak. Eeek.
As far as events and people go I had people giving me looks yesterday and some people getting out of my path. Interesting and noted.
At work felt calmer with some average rude customers. Started wearing Captain pheromone oil.
Stage 2 Recap
I don't know what effects to ascribe to this stage in terms of benefits I've received but I think it's made me a bit more confident. I remember having a more intense dream on the last day so I guess it was being processed well.
Stage 3 Day 7 (warning not pleasant)
Last night I had a really intense dream. I was in the bathroom of a house and taking a dump. My stool was visible and I guess it stunk. I try to approach it to have a better look and fly's are swarming around it putting me off viewing it.
I went to a dream interceptor and it says:
"To see or come in contact with feces signifies aspects of yourself that are dirty and negative and which you believe to be undesirable and repulsive. You need to acknowledge and express these feelings, even though it may be shameful. Release the negativity in your life. Alternatively, it may also refer to someone who is anal retentive."
I'm starting to think I should of ran E2 first and then AM6 but it is what it is. I'm now considering running E2 instead of DMSI A for my second sub.
Also, since beginning Stage 3 I've felt somewhat different. Towards the end of Stage 2 I feel like I was encountering resistance. But since beginning S3 I've felt a lot better.