Subliminal Talk

This is fucking stupid

My family planned a cruise so I went, first time for me. I didn't enjoy it that much. Besides the fact that it was brief there were so many fucking girls with either perfect skin or tits and ass that I sexually frustrated for most of the time there. No internet access on my phone, so nothing to fap to to calm myself down. I hated getting aroused and not being able to do anything about it. Pissed me the fuck off. Brought up girls in the passed that pissed me off. And just made me feel strong feelings of hate and desire of revenge towards women in general. Give me a fucking break. I've been dealing with sexual frustration for a fucking decade. My birthday just passed and I knew it wasn't going to be good or anything but I got through the day. All I wanted was birthday sex for my birthday and that obviously didn't happen. I just want a break from my life. I want to switch places with someone else because this is the most fucked up shit and I'm tired of it. I've done all I know to, I'm pissed off. DMSI isn't doing shit to help. Me being in shape isn't doing shit to help. And I don't know anyone that has had the same problem, but my mom wants to claim that there are girls that are experiencing the same shit. I call bullshit on that. But after this, she might actually help me fight this.

I mean is it really that much trouble to want to find a girl that's horny that does things I do like go to the gym? Wtf

At this point, I'm just not sure if I should fap right now or not. Sometimes my sex drive gets more intense after and I don't want to worsen my current situation so I have no idea what the fuck to do.

Well I just saw that now is the time to stop using 3.2. So I'm just going to write my summary and thoughts on what should be added to 3.3. Today is my last day running 3.2.

Summary
Not much at all happened. 3.2A was much more acceptable than the previous A versions in terms of having constant inner turmoil. 3.2B felt fine. But no actual results from either of them. If anything, I think maybe they've affected my sleep schedule. I go to sleep real late and wake up at noon usually now. Even when I go to sleep earlier, still waking up around noon. I'll fix that while I'm off 3.2.

A lot of the times I felt angry towards girls just because of the shit they've put me through. I don't feel like they're reliable or trustworthy except for the few female friends I still talk to. I really wanted DMSI to give me the upper hand, to turn the tables, and to have the emotional hold on them that they've had on me in the past. I wanted the sexual and relationship power in my hands and I wanted to freely use it.

The thing that REALLY tended to get on my nerves was when I haven't fapped in a bit and see attractive girls out and around. Especially if I talked to one to do something with later and am told about a bf or some shit or I see a hot girl out with a guy. I hate feeling turned on and not being able to have release. Hate it. Makes me highly irritable.

Thoughts & Suggestions
Well first of all, whatever is currently in the program should be buffed. I'd like for 3.3 to be 4x more effective than 3.2. Not sure how long that would take, but I just want each version to be multiple times stronger than the last. Think of going from an iPhone 5 to an iPhone 6 instead of a 6 to 6s.

I know a fat burning module was planned but didn't make it into 3.2. If it makes it into 3.3 that'd be great.

Something that removes sexual frustration would be a godsend. This was my personal biggest thing. I can't go more than a few days without fapping. I would've much rather been having sex, but that wasn't happening. If I go a few days with no release and then go somewhere and see attractive girls I just get irritated. So anything that removes that make an immense different while running DMSI. Maybe even add something that puts that on the girls around you, where they feel that way if they don't get your attention.

I like the idea about making girls feel the frustration. I’d even say let’s make it so they feel that way if they’re not having regular sex with you.

(09-18-2018, 11:01 AM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]I like the idea about making girls feel the frustration. I’d even say let’s make it so they feel that way if they’re not having regular sex with you.

I completely agree.