Interesting to see a woman transition into an alpha. I’ll be keeping eye on this journal. I’m undertaking Alpha Male V6 myself in the next couple months.
Well, my contacts list gets smaller by the week. There’s been a definite shift in the type of people I want to spend time with. I’m also finding women particularly needy and annoying but calling them on it. My interactions with men are changing too - instead of trying to be nice in saying “thanks, but you’re not my type” I have been able to be much more direct. In some men that’s interpreted as ‘try harder’ so on him, I am practicing my ‘leave you on read for twelve hours/7 days’ skills
Ah, the end of stage 2! What a month! I lost people and my job (which I detested, so yay), got a personal trainer, and got really focused on moulding my best ‘me’. Today marks my 4th birthday spent solo and I don’t mind at all. I’d much rather evolve into the woman I want to be and attract a high quality partner, than settle for Mr Not Quite Right. My biggest struggle at the moment is reconciling my last true friendship...it is inconsistent and unsatisfying in several ways, yet when it’s good, it’s great. This past week has seen me really pull away mentally, and in some ways I’m grieving the loss of this before it truly happens. I know what I want/deserve, but walking away from something you thought would last an eon is tough. Here’s hoping stage 3 is a good one.
This is where the growth happens.
Stage 3 is drawing to a close, and I am struggling with the idea of continuing. There has been so much upheaval and turbulence in my life since starting that I am unsure if this is the path for me. I read and reread the Alpha information, mentally ticking off those traits I observe coming to fruition. Nothing, not even the sage advice from Ryan, prepared me for this. As I look at my life in this moment, I have little to offer optimism or reinforce the alpha mindset. Money and love are scarce. (Random comments or flirtations are completely meaningless and empty) Hours are spent each day working out to improve my body, and meditating to still my troubled mind. If only love and prosperity were as easy to manifest as muscles!
I’m equally stoic yet devastated by the loss of Ryan in my life... I like my own company so I have no trouble amusing myself but I definitely mourn the loss of my dearest friend. There are twenty times each day I think of something I’d love to ask or tell him, but no longer can. Letting go is hard. Maybe one day we will reconnect and get it right next time. No matter what comes, I still offer my love and appreciation for him daily. He inspired me and helped me to become a better person.
So, birthday month has been a major fizzle... I can only trust that better things are flowing to me.
Hello. What do you think of feminism?:)
Sometimes the only way out is through the finish line, if you can’t get through this then you’re only reinforcing to your subconscious that it should help you form the habit of quitting when things get tough. That’s the same thing everyone else does. Take it from a guy whose marriage hit rock bottom, who was homeless, starving, and broke all in the last 3 years. Life will try and kick your ass whether you choose to fight back or you simply lay down and take the beating. If you strike back at least there’s a chance that you’ll finally gain the upper hand, and the inner strength you need to live life by design , and not by default.
(11-27-2017, 04:30 AM)DavisMind91 Wrote: [ -> ]Sometimes the only way out is through the finish line, if you can’t get through this then you’re only reinforcing to your subconscious that it should help you form the habit of quitting when things get tough. That’s the same thing everyone else does. Take it from a guy whose marriage hit rock bottom, who was homeless, starving, and broke all in the last 3 years. Life will try and kick your ass whether you choose to fight back or you simply lay down and take the beating. If you strike back at least there’s a chance that you’ll finally gain the upper hand, and the inner strength you need to live life by design , and not by default.
Thank you! I needed the kick up the butt. I’m going to have to trust that the universe will provide the financial means to pay for Stage 4...a girl’s gotta eat lol. I’m determined to treat my mental growth the same way I do those extra reps at the gym...just when I think I can’t do one more, I dig deep and bust out five. Growth is why I started this program and growth is what I’m getting.
^^That’s the spirit. Find a way to set the discipline of setting what you can aside to invest in your journey.