Day 3.5 / Day 4 morning
I just feel really GOOD. I feel like myself and it feels awesome. Sometimes that's all we want out of a sub and this really hits it home for me. Day 4: all last night I felt great, full of energy, hell I finally bought a vacuum and cleaned my apartment (I moved across the country a few months ago) so thats big for me. I found myself cracking gay jokes again (like I did last run) which means i'm becoming more confident about my sexuality. I'm straight, I should mention. I woke up in a great mood. I was in a shit mood on MLS.
Closing notes: I feel good and I feel like myself and I love it
Definitely running this one for awhile. I was thinking about running Stop ED after this just to put some icing on the cake (even though ED has never been a problem for me)
Day 5
Increased awareness of the concept that I should not take things personally.
I have had many moments lately where I would have acted out of spite and with aggression or crude sarcasm and have instead changed gears into a care-free mindset and in effect I kept my composure. Part of this might be from the transition from am6 where I was somewhat standoffish.
Other stuff
I'm interested in DMSI 3.2. The timeline works well. I should be able to run this for another 2 months as it is built and reviewed to decide if I do in fact want to commit to DMSI. Depending on the timing and how the reviews are going I may still run Stop ED for a short while.
I requested my username be changed. I've started telling some irl friends about IML. Certain things, perhaps even this thread, I do not wish to directly be tied to me.
Day 6
Awareness of the concept that it is ok to experience pleasure. I see now that in the past I have acted guilty and ashamed of feeling pleasure, ie sex and fap.
Yesterday I played Stop PE for close to 24 hours. Most of the day over headphones at high volume (US) and then masked version at night on low volume. I'm tired as hell.
Other stuff.
I picked up a book for the first time in awhile. I feel my intelligence is waning so I want to do something about it.
I thought u were on BASE.
(10-13-2017, 09:59 AM)Zane Wrote: [ -> ]I thought u were on BASE.
I was. I discontinued for personal reasons.
Day 7
I feel good. carefree. calm. I feel natural around girls. I walked into Nordstrom. 7s - 10s everywhere. Working behind the counter and customers alike. I asked one girl where the mens fragrances were. Not only did she walk me across the store, she had me spray the cologne I liked, gave her opinion, said she would spray herself with it later because she likes the smell of mens cologne, she introduced me to a friend of hers behind another counter, and we all chatter for quite awhile. I have a semi-serious thing going on right now so I did not escalate, but wow, these girls were HOT, both bright green eyes, and it was profound, the whole thing. I felt so comfortable and at ease. Nothing they said could make me feel umcomfortable or make me break my comfortable frame.
Next store. I asked the same thing. Macy's I think. An older lady showed me to the counter. THIS was a little weird... she had me spray on a few different colognes onto my forearm and she would grab my arm and stick her nose to it. Not once. Not twice. Not 3 rimes. Completely invading my personal space as we walked around, as she showed me this and that. She was well in her 50s, although attractive for her age.
This sort of thing happened the last time I was on Stop PE. Girls would just get giddy towards me and start embarrassing themselves in my presence. I usually wear pheromones but today I was not, and I usually wasn't either when I had interesting encounters last run. This is something I forgot to mention, sorry guys. Giddy girls.
I feel completely disconnected from any anxiety towards females. maybe not 100% but darn near it compared to baseline. I just feel like myself and it feels great. I'm not weird and seductive, I'm just normal and am having a good time around females.
Great entry, Ars0n1sT.
You are making me more and more interested in this sub. Do you have any thoughts on why this Overcome Premature Ejaculation sub is having an affect like this, on your non-sexual confidence and on how women respond to you?
Your experiences are sounding like something from a DSMI or WM journal. Really interesting!