Felt overloaded today, not the energy overload I experience when doing too many loops just mental overload. Not sure about the reason because I did 2 loops yesterday which is pretty normal. Maybe I am processing something important in background.
DMSI wise not much to report today but my online manifestation is messaging me again and is open to meet up. Well, we will see how it continues.
But interesting thing about my exam preparation. Learning seem to go better than before. I feel like I am understanding better and in the mid of the day I get some moments where I just start to revise some mathematical equations in my head which is absolutely uncommon and I feel also more eager to learn. Still procrastinating a bit but I know why. It is because on one side I am eager to finish the studies, start working and earn money. But on the other note I really enjoyed the times where I had a lot of free time (even if it wasn't that often the case due to learning + working) but even more important, I really enjoyed to do my studies work WHEN I want to. And this is something I will be missing when I start a regular job. The only way around would be to start a business.
(06-07-2017, 01:19 PM)Mr. Anderson Wrote: [ -> ]Felt overloaded today, not the energy overload I experience when doing too many loops just mental overload. Not sure about the reason because I did 2 loops yesterday which is pretty normal. Maybe I am processing something important in background.
DMSI wise not much to report today but my online manifestation is messaging me again and is open to meet up. Well, we will see how it continues.
But interesting thing about my exam preparation. Learning seem to go better than before. I feel like I am understanding better and in the mid of the day I get some moments where I just start to revise some mathematical equations in my head which is absolutely uncommon and I feel also more eager to learn. Still procrastinating a bit but I know why. It is because on one side I am eager to finish the studies, start working and earn money. But on the other note I really enjoyed the times where I had a lot of free time (even if it wasn't that often the case due to learning + working) but even more important, I really enjoyed to do my studies work WHEN I want to. And this is something I will be missing when I start a regular job. The only way around would be to start a business.
If it helps, first 2-3 years of regular work for me after being done with school were amazing. You'd have more freedom than you can think of at the moment! On top, you'd be learning a lot, and you'd be back home with no worries and lots of room for fun without the guilt
Met today my online manifestation, but the result is like always. I simply didn't find something interesting to talk about, my head was like empty. She started talking about different things but I didn't find a way to use it in whatever way. What I need at this point is not a stronger aura or more manifestations, I need SKILLS to do something with the opportunities as well as more balls to approach. And I need the conversation/social skills even more than being able to approach. In other way there won't happen anything unless the aura turn the women into sex hungry zombies who don't talk but simply have sex.
Anyway, 2 loops yesterday (masked), 2 loops today (hybrid, B-track).
Have you read "How to Win Friends and Influence People"?
It's what I used to start dating my hairdresser. I also matched and mirrored her facial expressions. Laughed when she laughed, was shocked when she told something shocking, etc. Very responsive, almost manic but following her not leading, except through questions. Ask lots of questions. It may not have lead to sex (yet) but that's because I started trying to be "alpha" and ruined that dynamic.
Either way, social skills start with that book.
(06-09-2017, 08:10 AM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]Have you read "How to Win Friends and Influence People"?
It's what I used to start dating my hairdresser. I also matched and mirrored her facial expressions. Laughed when she laughed, was shocked when she told something shocking, etc. Very responsive, almost manic but following her not leading, except through questions. Ask lots of questions. It may not have lead to sex (yet) but that's because I started trying to be "alpha" and ruined that dynamic.
Either way, social skills start with that book.
Well, I started reading this book but it is like every time I want to continue there is something that prevents me doing so. So I almost guess this book is important and my subconscious don't want me to read it, lol.
And regarding asking questions, it's not that I didn't want, there was really NOTHING in my mind I could ask.
http://subliminal-talk.com/thread-8538-p...#pid170377
(06-08-2017, 04:55 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]Holy shit... I may have found a "key" to socializing. Move over "How to Win Friends and Influence People", there's a new book in town!
(06-08-2017, 08:33 PM)Travis Wrote: [ -> ]So whats the name of the book?
(06-08-2017, 08:54 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]Not ready to give that up yet. Gotta test to make sure it's not just the uniform. A week at least. If it holds up to scrutiny I'll feel better about recommending it.
(06-09-2017, 08:10 AM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]Have you read "How to Win Friends and Influence People"?
(06-09-2017, 08:30 AM)Mr. Anderson Wrote: [ -> ]Well, I started reading this book but it is like every time I want to continue there is something that prevents me doing so. So I almost guess this book is important and my subconscious don't want me to read it, lol.
@ Mr. Anderson
Most books can be listened on audio. The best part is you can get them free from the library. It allows you to get the information from the book and get something else done at the same time.
Hopefully Sarge will share the name of the book once it holds up to his scrutiny.
(06-09-2017, 09:01 AM)4Kingdoms Wrote: [ -> ]@ Mr. Anderson
Most books can be listened on audio. The best part is you can get them free from the library. It allows you to get the information from the book and get something else done at the same time.
Hopefully Sarge will share the name of the book once it holds up to his scrutiny.
Thanks for the suggestion. I tried an online search of the next library but doesn't look like they have this book. Don't know, maybe it is better organized in the US than here. However, I remember information I read better than what I heard so I guess it is not that bad that they don't have this book.
(06-09-2017, 08:30 AM)Mr. Anderson Wrote: [ -> ]And regarding asking questions, it's not that I didn't want, there was really NOTHING in my mind I could ask.
I understand. I'm the same way. What works for me is asking basic questions and then improving from there. So I could ask "what do you do?" and she could say "I'm a secretary" and then I'd let my imagination go wild
Me: "ooh... so you like to wear short skirts and glasses?"
Just gotta go with it and say random/dumb shit sometimes. Just like with my hairdresser, sometimes just going for it is what woirks (like the first kiss I got. Totally didn't believe I'd get it, but went for it anyhow).
Basically belief is not a prerequisite.
(06-09-2017, 09:01 AM)4Kingdoms Wrote: [ -> ]http://subliminal-talk.com/thread-8538-p...#pid170377
(06-08-2017, 04:55 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]Holy shit... I may have found a "key" to socializing. Move over "How to Win Friends and Influence People", there's a new book in town!
(06-08-2017, 08:33 PM)Travis Wrote: [ -> ]So whats the name of the book?
(06-08-2017, 08:54 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]Not ready to give that up yet. Gotta test to make sure it's not just the uniform. A week at least. If it holds up to scrutiny I'll feel better about recommending it.
Hopefully Sarge will share the name of the book once it holds up to his scrutiny.
If it holds up I will for sure. Just gotta put it through a week of solid use.
The main areas are:
1. Sales (does it work when I'm not wearing my uniform as well as when I am?)
2. Women (Does it help hook them better off approaches?)
3. My hairdresser (is it going to help or hinder my advances on her?)
4. Family (Is it going to create better bonds?)
5. Work (will my co-workers like me better, will I be promoted, will I get a raise, train new people, etc)
I should be able to have a good feel for that by not this sunday but the next.
(06-09-2017, 10:20 AM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ] (06-09-2017, 08:30 AM)Mr. Anderson Wrote: [ -> ]And regarding asking questions, it's not that I didn't want, there was really NOTHING in my mind I could ask.
I understand. I'm the same way. What works for me is asking basic questions and then improving from there. So I could ask "what do you do?" and she could say "I'm a secretary" and then I'd let my imagination go wild
Me: "ooh... so you like to wear short skirts and glasses?"
Just gotta go with it and say random/dumb shit sometimes. Just like with my hairdresser, sometimes just going for it is what woirks (like the first kiss I got. Totally didn't believe I'd get it, but went for it anyhow).
Basically belief is not a prerequisite.
That's a good idea, I should make a list with things I can say and memorize it just to have something to begin with. And with some practice we should come to some results.
(06-09-2017, 11:35 AM)Mr. Anderson Wrote: [ -> ]I should make a list with things I can say and memorize it just to have something to begin with. And with some practice we should come to some results.
I like that idea.
Little update. Yesterday exam preparations started to get really serious and from now on this is top priority in my life and all other aspects are on the side track until exams are over. I was almost all the day learning stuff. Motivation was high but still lack of understanding for some things so I hope MLS can be here soon. I am contemplating when to stop DMSI as we don't really know when MLS will be released and surprisingly my motivation to focus on the learning stuff is extreme high. Maybe the US/LM modules, maybe TID from MLS, don't know. Maybe I should switch to SAM/MLS combo for the time being, but again, motivation is high and things are going better than expected, even if still not as good I would like them to. I will probably don't update the journal for a while unless something really interesting happens or I want to keep notes of something for myself.
Yesterday was almost day off from learning as there was a party where I have been. Several people said that I look very serious instead of relaxed or like having fun and after thinking about it the best way I can describe my expression is "worried". I realized that there is something deep under the surface going on for me in such situations as I can say I have fun on a logical level but on the emotional level it is just stress. On the surface I feel more like I don't care and I am relaxed but there seem to be a part of me which is afraid to make the slightest mistake - or even something that could be interpreted by someone as mistake. This part needs validation and approval by other people for every single thing I am doing or saying and it needs it all the time over and over to be satisfied. This big insecurity is asking for every thing I do "Do I this right?", "It is ok to do it this way?", "Can someone be offended by what I am doing?", etc., which causes a lot of pressure to do all things "right", but the right thing for one person could be the wrong thing for someone else so it can never be right for all people. This must be addressed, healed and outgrown before I really succeed in my life.
Here are some highlights from the party without mentioning every IOI:
- People were open and even if I went alone I was invited to join a group very soon (but I knew the people, just not hanging out with them).
- Later when I was alone for some time a group of girls invited me to dance with them. They were open and one of them seemed interested but even if I tried to be open and relaxed I couldn't and was somehow closed off.
- I approached a girl who was dancing close to me by saying something situation related but just gave me a strange look so I stopped there.
- Even later a girl I knew but never talked to her more than hello started talking with me and invited me for a dance. While the guy she was flirting with before grabbed some drinks she started dancing with me in a sexual way. However, this guy was more confident and assertive than me - but not the dominant Alpha1 type just more the Ascendant alpha type - and he got the girl at the end.
- I wonder if the IDGAF attitude makes us too indifferent to take action in some situations. So while I still see it as a good thing I am asking myself if it favors resistance in some cases.
- I noticed almost no aura projection yesterday while still having good reactions. I wonder if the heat may be also related to unhealed emotions related to sexuality when aura is projecting.
I was at a party recently as well where I was asked the same thing.
I was very "off" and stuck in my head. Still had girls trying to initiate conversations with me but I just couldn't talk engagingly with them, I was too bored.
Meanwhile today I was jumping around like a maniac and laughing my ass off for no reason
(06-15-2017, 12:26 PM)ReeZoX Wrote: [ -> ]I was at a party recently as well where I was asked the same thing.
I was very "off" and stuck in my head. Still had girls trying to initiate conversations with me but I just couldn't talk engagingly with them, I was too bored.
Meanwhile today I was jumping around like a maniac and laughing my ass off for no reason
I realized I have this pretty much always on parties or other social events.