Subliminal Talk

Really confusing week. Lots of fear coming up, not knowing who I am. But today I felt the resistance fade a little bit and it felt pretty damn good. Deep inner work is definitely happening. This sub is different..

Some things I noticed;

Less fear interacting with people, kind of like.. letting my guard down in conversation. Taking myself less seriously too
Laughing at silly things I notice
Like today, I was just walking down the street and making eye contact with guys as you do and most guys got so nervous, and a few guys would do the whole head nod 'alpha' respect thing lol.. I wasn't even trying to intimidate, I actually felt quite insecure in the morning..

Switched out the music sub for ASC4g about a week ago, that could also be affecting my results. I miss the creative flow I had, but I hav to focus on getting a job and sorting out the basic things in life first

I've been feeling great. It feels like a combination of OF resistance fading and ASC kicking in. I also have the feeling as though I have released some fears, not sure what they are exactly but I feel less shy/worried and more at peace and confident.

I'm also getting more attraction from women than ever, especially more than I did even running BIATBWS for 2 months. I see now that confidence and a sense of comfort within yourself turns women on big time. They can just feel it.

One weird thing about this sub is you start to become so aware of fear in every aspect of life. Could be why it feels like heavy resistance at times, when actually you're seeing the 'matrix' more clearly.

I feel turned off by people that seem to be displaying fake confidence or ego. Its kind of embarrassing.

It's been a weird last few days. I'm gonna jot down things I've noticed

- Having the feeling like I don't know who I am anymore. I'm seeing how much of my identity was based in fear driven behaviour and attitudes. In the absence of fear, there is a sense of of emptiness and confusion, its hard to explain the feeling..

- Feeling annoyed by people in general. Just wanting to be by myself. Noticing lots of fake, shallow things.

- Definitely less fear every day, and less worried about other's opinions. This is liberating because resistance would usually cause me to become self conscious and fearful, but I'm noticing it bothers me less and less.

Felt very confident today. There's still insecurities, fears, etc. I'm noticing them more and more. Little weird ones that were hidden are becoming conscious. Felt angry and weird yesterday. I'm either in two distinct moods; confident and social or self conscious, a little angry and just wanting to be away from people.

Good attention from females
Respect from certain men
Challenging stares from guys but its just effortless to return strong eye contact, don't need to try and perk myself up, just be honest,
Also a lot of guys today would break eye contact quickly and smile quite submissively, that kind of reaction from guys is new to me, blatant respect/recognition of status.
Moments of annoyance and frustration with certain things people do