Subliminal Talk

Currently breathing to - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WBWdET5LSnU

Day 0

I figured I'd start the journal the day before the potential release.

This also gives me a chance to fill in some of the blanks between my last night of 2.5 and where I am now.

It's been about 9 days, going on 10, since I last used 2.5. The first few days off of 2.5 I didn't sleep, at all. At 3AM my brain would be buzzing at hyper speeds, probably still processing all of the information that I had consumed during my run.

This lack of sleep ultimately resulted in me being worn down, and by last Friday I was down for the count with a full blown cold. During that time I had an interesting experience with regards to being drowned in memories from when I was a kid. It all just bubbled up to the surface, every f*cked up thing that ever happened to me.

It was kind of amazing. I was actually impressed with how much shit I kept buried inside me all these years.

That feeling went all the way until this morning. This morning I woke up and I felt like something was done, finished. Something processed.

That leads me to where I am right now. So, with this next release of DMSI I decided to set some rules for myself on how I use it and what I'm hoping to get out of it.

First rule, despite what the optimum loops are, I need to rate limit myself on how much I listen to DMSI. This stuffs been ripping through my skull at a mile a minute, so I'm going to slow down and try to keep it two loops, around 2 hours and 20 minutes a session.

I may do two loops in the morning and two at night, I may not. But nothing more than two loops at a session. I need to give myself time to process the information.

The second rule I'm setting for myself is after I've completed 14 days straight, I'm switching to a 5 to 2 ratio, 5 days on DMSI, 2 days off. Between these two rules, I may be able to get the most out of the program, or at least run the program and still be able to function without wipeout.

I'm going to trade off between the healing and non-healing versions of the program. I've been wanting a version I can switch between for some time, and I couldn't do that with the 2.x series.

At best I will heal some old wounds, and at worst, it'll keep it interesting for me at least.

Aside from that, I'm going to let DMSI do its thing and I'm just going to go with the flow. I'm not going to fight against the program or actively look for results. If I'm that focused on an outcome, I'll probably end up resisting the program without realizing that I am resisting it.

I will say, I'm glad I had these last few days off from the program. This is the longest I have been off of a sub since I started 2.3 back in August. Giving myself this time off helped me get some perspective on myself.

Let's see how things roll for me into the New Year...

So just gonna invent the rules of usage yourself, huh? Good luck with that. lol

(11-30-2016, 08:07 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]So just gonna invent the rules of usage yourself, huh? Good luck with that. lol

Rules of usage for myself, yes. Whether I get the optimum results or not, I'll take responsibility for that.

I've said it before Shannon, your subs have kicked my ass physically. I have to be conscious of how much exposure I allow myself, because too much, and I burn out at the job.

So, yes, I'm limiting myself to 2 hours of exposure on DMSI. And I'm giving myself days off. If I don't get physically burned out, I'll try more.

You know how well your subs work, but I know how well my body works.

Anyway, I'll journal. It could be useful data for you, perhaps it won't be.

Both of us will know in time Maestro.

Just be sure to operate in loops, not hours. Best of luck, hope this works for you.

(11-30-2016, 08:37 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]Just be sure to operate in loops, not hours. Best of luck, hope this works for you.

Will do, will keep it to two loops back to back. I'll let you know how well it works out.

Thanks Maestro, I hope I will be able to provide you some decent data.

Let us hope.

Day 2

Breathing to: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=5soixb2U6xM

I did my first loops on Thursday night. Hybrid TS MP3 for two loops on headphones.

I was out cold within the first 15 minutes. I had that heavy feeling in my head, and I could feel my state shift, before I had one of the deepest sleeps I've had in a long time.

Friday I went about my day, I woke up with enough energy and I figured that the two loops wasn't so bad. Until about 3PM, when I got hit with a freight train of exhaustion and I was ready to fall asleep under my desk.

In terms of reactions, I definitely noticed women checking me out in a very blatant way. That was different than most other versions of DMSI, in that I am usually ghosted for the first few days.

In terms of work, they have asked me to stay until the end of January and I agreed. I had resigned while I was on 2.5. One day of 3.0.1 and I am staying for an extra month.

On the train ride home I caught eyes several times with an attractive woman. She was with someone and so I made no move. What was interesting about her is that while she was very attractive, she wasn't the kind of woman I would typically go for. But, I had a desire for her. Not an overpowering desire, but definitely something.

Last night I ran the recommended 3 loops. I was out 15 minutes into the first loop again.

I slept really well, and I had an interesting dream. In the dream, I had a few friends that were leaving. They were moving away and I knew I wouldn't see them again. I was probably in my early 20's in the dream. I remember the age because of the way I felt and the way I behaved. Anyway, when they left, I watched them drive away and I felt this intense loneliness.

I was much more sensitive in my 20's. I felt more back then. I was also much more idealistic at that time. And I valued friendship in a different way back then also.

When I woke up this morning, I suddenly realized the stark contrast of my outlook on life now compared to when I was in my early 20's. I don't know when those feelings changed within me. But it was so obvious to me today how different I am now.

For the last two days also I can tell that the healing is working at a rapid pace. Simply based on how I am looking at things.

Also, both yesterday and again today, I would have bouts of extreme exhaustion. Not good for when I need to function and get things done. I need some time to adjust to the sub.

I haven't been as hungry as of late though. That's a good thing.

On a final note. I noticed this towards the last days that I was off of 2.5 and even more pronounced as I started 3.0.1, but I look different. My face has changed some how. I look more concrete in a way. Not literally of course, but I look more solid, together, complete maybe.

Something is definitely happening...

Day 5

Currently listening to: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=71VRlAFLLFc

Alright, today was interesting. Today I had a real run of what DMSI can do.

For the last few days I have been alternating between running 2 to 3 loops of the hybrid TS at night. I am finally physically adjusted to running three loops without collapsing.

But today something happened, something I never felt in any version of DMSI before.

On the train ride home I had my headphones on and was listening to music when suddenly I felt it. Something washed over my entire body. I'm not sure if this is the euphoria that everyone keeps writing about, but I felt it all over me. It was so strong of a feeling I had to close my eyes.

And then the next thing kicked in. I started to imagine this woman I see on the train rather frequently who I found very attractive. Except in my almost high state, I started running through these progressively more sexual scenarios.

It's like I had a porn movie running through my head, but it was all in my first person perspective, like I was doing it. And it kept running over and over again.

Then it switched to the friend of mine that I had drinks with a few weeks back. That was even more intense. And absolutely vivid.

This went on for an hour.

Just to clarify also, I am running the A version and not the B.

Anyway, it was intense. I have never felt anything like this before. I'm still trying to process what happened to me.

Has anyone else experienced anything like this?

Intense is right. Now if only she would initiate something.

(12-06-2016, 05:40 PM)Duke.Togo Wrote: [ -> ]Day 5

Currently listening to: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=71VRlAFLLFc

Alright, today was interesting. Today I had a real run of what DMSI can do.

For the last few days I have been alternating between running 2 to 3 loops of the hybrid TS at night. I am finally physically adjusted to running three loops without collapsing.

But today something happened, something I never felt in any version of DMSI before.

On the train ride home I had my headphones on and was listening to music when suddenly I felt it. Something washed over my entire body. I'm not sure if this is the euphoria that everyone keeps writing about, but I felt it all over me. It was so strong of a feeling I had to close my eyes.

And then the next thing kicked in. I started to imagine this woman I see on the train rather frequently who I found very attractive. Except in my almost high state, I started running through these progressively more sexual scenarios.

It's like I had a porn movie running through my head, but it was all in my first person perspective, like I was doing it. And it kept running over and over again.

Then it switched to the friend of mine that I had drinks with a few weeks back. That was even more intense. And absolutely vivid.

This went on for an hour.

Just to clarify also, I am running the A version and not the B.

Anyway, it was intense. I have never felt anything like this before. I'm still trying to process what happened to me.

Has anyone else experienced anything like this?

Welcome to auto-training... at least that's what it sounds like.

(12-06-2016, 06:25 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]

(12-06-2016, 05:40 PM)Duke.Togo Wrote: [ -> ]Day 5

Currently listening to: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=71VRlAFLLFc

Alright, today was interesting. Today I had a real run of what DMSI can do.

For the last few days I have been alternating between running 2 to 3 loops of the hybrid TS at night. I am finally physically adjusted to running three loops without collapsing.

But today something happened, something I never felt in any version of DMSI before.

On the train ride home I had my headphones on and was listening to music when suddenly I felt it. Something washed over my entire body. I'm not sure if this is the euphoria that everyone keeps writing about, but I felt it all over me. It was so strong of a feeling I had to close my eyes.

And then the next thing kicked in. I started to imagine this woman I see on the train rather frequently who I found very attractive. Except in my almost high state, I started running through these progressively more sexual scenarios.

It's like I had a porn movie running through my head, but it was all in my first person perspective, like I was doing it. And it kept running over and over again.

Then it switched to the friend of mine that I had drinks with a few weeks back. That was even more intense. And absolutely vivid.

This went on for an hour.

Just to clarify also, I am running the A version and not the B.

Anyway, it was intense. I have never felt anything like this before. I'm still trying to process what happened to me.

Has anyone else experienced anything like this?

Welcome to auto-training... at least that's what it sounds like.

That's what I thought it might be, but it triggered so quickly. I've only been on the sub for 5 days!

It was intense Shannon. And it felt insane. I can't even describe what happened. I have never experienced anything that felt like that before. Especially with that much intensity.

(12-06-2016, 06:38 PM)Duke.Togo Wrote: [ -> ]

(12-06-2016, 06:25 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]

(12-06-2016, 05:40 PM)Duke.Togo Wrote: [ -> ]Day 5

Currently listening to: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=71VRlAFLLFc

Alright, today was interesting. Today I had a real run of what DMSI can do.

For the last few days I have been alternating between running 2 to 3 loops of the hybrid TS at night. I am finally physically adjusted to running three loops without collapsing.

But today something happened, something I never felt in any version of DMSI before.

On the train ride home I had my headphones on and was listening to music when suddenly I felt it. Something washed over my entire body. I'm not sure if this is the euphoria that everyone keeps writing about, but I felt it all over me. It was so strong of a feeling I had to close my eyes.

And then the next thing kicked in. I started to imagine this woman I see on the train rather frequently who I found very attractive. Except in my almost high state, I started running through these progressively more sexual scenarios.

It's like I had a porn movie running through my head, but it was all in my first person perspective, like I was doing it. And it kept running over and over again.

Then it switched to the friend of mine that I had drinks with a few weeks back. That was even more intense. And absolutely vivid.

This went on for an hour.

Just to clarify also, I am running the A version and not the B.

Anyway, it was intense. I have never felt anything like this before. I'm still trying to process what happened to me.

Has anyone else experienced anything like this?

Welcome to auto-training... at least that's what it sounds like.

That's what I thought it might be, but it triggered so quickly. I've only been on the sub for 5 days!

It was intense Shannon. And it felt insane. I can't even describe what happened. I have never experienced anything that felt like that before. Especially with that much intensity.

Well you may have noticed that mist of new technologies I added? It wasn't just for show.

Day 7

Currently listening to: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=dQLngV189IU

I have this sudden rage. I don't even know what the fuck I'm angry about, which is only making me angrier. And yet, i can't feel my anger. I literally cannot feel it because of the masking effect. But it's there, boiling under the surface. And every time I want to glimpse it, it just gets masked deeper.

On the one hand I appreciate what the masking is doing for me, on the other hand I feel like all that rage is fighting a futile battle, because I can't even fully feel it.

I don't know whether I should appreciate it or be angrier. I feel fucked up. God dammit.

Day 10

Currently listening to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iW-s9fop4d4

Some interesting developments and other things.

To pick up from where I left off at day 7, I had been feeling rage for almost 3 hours. It was boiling under the surface, and I didn't know what was triggering it. I can't recall any other time I felt as angry as I did on Thursday. It was unreal.

Anyway, as the evening subsided, I had feelings of euphoria for a while after and by late evening I was in a pretty good mood.

I didn't do any loops Thursday night, because I was going to switch over to B on Friday night for a week.

Friday morning I woke up pretty clear headed, lots of energy, and I was feeling really social. I couldn't focus much on work, but I was really upbeat. And having that one day off really blossomed the sub for me. I felt like a beast by midday. I mean I eyeballed everything that caught my attention and my intentions were dead locked in my eyes.

I was literally eye-fucking every sweet piece of ass that caught my attention. I had dinner with my father on Friday night, our weekly get together, and even he commented that I walked differently and that I looked different. It was interesting. I also had a woman staring at me while I was on the train ride home. A very attractive blonde.

Friday night I did my first session of the B-Sides. I was out in 15 minutes. I remember the dream I had. It was that vivid. In the dream, I was living the celebrity effect. Everywhere I went people knew me, I had the proverbial red carpet rolled out for me. I stepped into a bar and the owner greeted me. It was pretty cool.

When I woke up Saturday morning though, I felt like I had been run over by a mack-truck. I felt demolished. That being said, it was like I wasn't listening to how to be sexier, but instead, how to be more productive. I got more work done in my first three hours of being awake then I had all week. It was unreal...

Then I had a meeting with someone who wanted to work with me. This is where things got really interesting for me. I have over the years worked on several startups and even advised folks on what they need to do in their businesses. Most of the time, the advice came for free. Ask me why, I'll say I had some deep rooted guilt associated with money and making it. Or maybe it was about being a good guy. Without getting deep into my past, there are reasons for how I felt.

Some how in my 20's I felt it was more important to be helpful and a good person than to be the person I am.

That model carried through in my business affairs most especially.

Going back to the meeting, the guy suddenly started asking me tons of questions and about 5 minutes into the conversation I realized that this was a waste of my time. Unless the guy was going to roll out a checkbook and discuss engaging me for my services, I wasn't interested. This was burning through me and I was ready to stop the meeting and just leave. I didn't, only because we had mutual friends, one who is close to me. I heard him out, gave him some shallow points that he could get anywhere, and we shook hands and I left.

This is the first time in almost a decade and a half that I felt like that. I went home and sat down for a long time thinking about the meeting, and realized that, yeah, my time is worth that much.

This also brought up other feelings and emotions centered around women, and some of whom I had gone so far out of my way to be helpful to in the guise of friendship. By the time I had all of these memories running through my head, I was disgusted with myself.

Around that time I also had a dull pain and I knew it was me resisting something. However after a few minutes that feeling passed.

Last night I sat down to do my two loops of B. With 3.0.1, it's the first version I listen to only on headphones, and as I played it, I couldn't sleep. I didn't feel my state shift either, or anything of that nature, but, I couldn't sleep. I was wide awake the entire time. After the loops finished, I took off the headset, closed my eyes, and I was out cold.

The dreams I had were amazing.

I dreamt that I was with this girl. And at first we were just talking, and at some point I held her hands. Next thing I know I was sitting on a grassy mountain side somewhere watching the horizon. And at some point, she put her head on my shoulder. I felt that childhood crush feeling you feel when you're with someone you really like, and you have that intimacy. It felt amazing. It's something I haven't felt in more than 20 years. It was amazing.

The next part of the dream involved me in a studio and I was practicing dance moves. Mind you, I haven't clubbed like that in over a decade where I rip up the floor. But there I was, doing these crazy dance moves like I used to back in the day.

This morning I woke up a little less jarred. Still very focused, lots of energy, zero interest in women or being noticed though. My mind, and not to be a cliche, is focused on money and getting my own projects off the ground.

On a final noteI ordered a pair of headphones for myself, as I want the right ear pieces for listening to DMSI 3.0.1. I picked up the Sennheiser HD 280 Pros. Probably my very favorite pair of headphones ever, it's been years since I had another pair. I figured it was time. Only the best for Shannon's subs.