Subliminal Talk

LTU Day 36
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Very tired lately, fall asleep yesterday straight at home, slept like 14 hours
But feeling good and happy.
I always tried to life as simple, easy and comfortable as possible but realizing now that there is no sense in having no problems and challenges in life, then you would be simple there, nothing happening, kind of boring.
What makes life exciting and worthwile are all the little obstacles and challenges you have to face and overcome to grow.
Guess its part of the male energy! Always have denied part of me and my male energy by denying this fact...

LTU Day 46
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Feeling like shit and insecure the last week.
Had a fallback with alcohol.
Also i went to visit some FB in another city, but she didnt wanne fuck me, and was rude sometimes,
she has other guys but always talking about marry me... Confuses me alot!
Probably I was to nice and boyfriend material, she keeps me on the long run and fucks other guys...
Fuck this not gonna write her again.

Also all my friends and wings here react strange to me and cut off contact.
Have been home for am family party, also tere everybody was very distant.
Feel like the last shit, everybody avoids me, i dont get any closer to my goals and get more and more insecure every day. Feels like i am developing social anxiety....

I am stoping LTU now for a while. Probably running some other sub in few weeks. Maybe AM6 again.

I just want a normal life like everyone else, having a social circle, some activities and a girlfriend...

Instead i am lying at home depressed, tired and lonely, dont have any otivation or power anymore.


Having vaation for 6 weeks in 10 day and still dont know where to go.
I want to go backpacking, some adventure, nature and hiking.
Thought about central america, but its dangerous and i dont speak spanisch
or Ethiopia, but alot of protest and rebels there aswell, so too dangerous...
Dont even feel like going away, i am to afraid

LTU Day 48
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Decided to continue with LTU anyway, even if feeling bad.
Also listen to one loop of AM Stage 7 per day, seems like giving me good results so far,
feeling more confident again and call out people with their bullshit.

Also got an job offer in my favourite city, so I need to decide now if i wanne move again.
Have to make a plan what i want out of my life the next few years and act accordingly.
The pain of choice Afraid of making the wrong one again...

How r you feeling buddy?

AM Stage 1 - Day 1
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Time for a fresh start into the new year
Excited what my future will bring and what adventures and experinces i will go through to collect new memories!!!

Just came back from a 5 week vacation trip in centralamerica, without speaking spanish and in a few of the most dangerous countries around the world. And here I am surived and fully motivated to enhance my life further.

Not much more to say at the moment.
Just started with a new run (my second one) of AM6. Hpefully it will change more then the first run and bring some results i want into my life.

Big goals for this year:
become a more charismatic and social person
become better with women and have some satiisfying relationships and alot of sex
build my own business so I can work around the world independ
live healthy and get ripped

AM Stage 1 - Day 2
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Feeling a strong motivation and urge to change my life and do what i really love and folow my dreams. First time sicne a long time a believe in myself again!

Listening to Masked while sleeping (around 7h) and being at home (around 6h) and while silent while working (around 7h).

Dude how was ur experience with LTU and also have u used AM 6 before?

Hey Zane,

my experince with LTU was alright, some up and downs, but I didnt feel anything big changing for longterm. Also had a month break of subs!

Yeah i did a full run of AM6 before, did change a few things, but didnt had the long term effects I expected, probably also didnt do enough for it.

So now i do a second run and also parallel try to change my life on a fundamental basis

AM Stage 1 - Day 3
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Feeling really tired and felt asleep yesterday randomly in the evening and had a really bad sleep through out the night.

Reading Ask and it is Given and The Path of least Resitance together with the subs. Feeling more in control of my life again and know where i want to go.

AM Stage 1 - Day 4
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Really exhausted and tired again, fall asleep again and woke up late.
Have a inner confidence and beleive that everything is fine but still feel bad because i dont follow my dreams and find excuses to not go to social meetings or train.

Its like a big downward spiral which drags me deeper an deeper while a try to catch a breath and see light again. i know i have to change my thoughts and emotions to attract betetr things into my life, ist just so damn hard if your life falls to pieces and you literally hate everything about it.

AM Stage 1 - Day 5
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Still tired but gets less and less. Feeling great and empowerd today, like I can archive anything i set my mind to and focus on.

Stopped a few unhealthy habits and replaced them by better and more healthy/productive ones.
no more Alcohol/Drugs, watching useless streams and video, instead alot of healthy food, vitamins, mediating, cold showers, Wim Hof breathing, NoFap thinking positively, control my feelings and thoughts, implementing what i read and learn, ...

SOme books about LOA and RSD helps me alot to coem out of the downward spiral and up into a fast upward spiral. Already entered they great circle of growing and expanding my life and experince.

(01-19-2017, 08:15 AM)HorizonPUA Wrote: [ -> ]AM Stage 1 - Day 5
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Still tired but gets less and less. Feeling great and empowerd today, like I can archive anything i set my mind to and focus on.

Stopped a few unhealthy habits and replaced them by better and more healthy/productive ones.
no more Alcohol/Drugs, watching useless streams and video, instead alot of healthy food, vitamins, mediating, cold showers, Wim Hof breathing, NoFap thinking positively, control my feelings and thoughts, implementing what i read and learn, ...

SOme books about LOA and RSD helps me alot to coem out of the downward spiral and up into a fast upward spiral. Already entered they great circle of growing and expanding my life and experince.

All of this in just 5 days?..

(01-19-2017, 08:41 AM)Zane Wrote: [ -> ]

(01-19-2017, 08:15 AM)HorizonPUA Wrote: [ -> ]AM Stage 1 - Day 5
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Still tired but gets less and less. Feeling great and empowerd today, like I can archive anything i set my mind to and focus on.

Stopped a few unhealthy habits and replaced them by better and more healthy/productive ones.
no more Alcohol/Drugs, watching useless streams and video, instead alot of healthy food, vitamins, mediating, cold showers, Wim Hof breathing, NoFap thinking positively, control my feelings and thoughts, implementing what i read and learn, ...

SOme books about LOA and RSD helps me alot to coem out of the downward spiral and up into a fast upward spiral. Already entered they great circle of growing and expanding my life and experince.

All of this in just 5 days?..

started with a few of the habits over the last few weeks, but now i probably keep track of them and make sure i keep them.

As far as the emotions goes, i learned alot of new things about myself from vacation and books. I can move my emotions and feelings
like a switch and whenever some bad though or feeling comes up just notice it and flip it 180 degrees

AM Stage 1 - Day 6
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nothing new, just signed up fr a gym membership, so guess i will get back in form soon
Otherwise work is pretty boring and i cant see myself keep doing it.

LOA seems to work partly already, though alot of positiv money thoughts and got a raise just out of nowhere from my boss yesterday
I will keep doing the same for attractive women (or any) in my life.
Its just so damn hard it keep it positive if you know you have a big lack at the moment and still suck after 10 years of trying to improve.
I am still not the chooser but the choice, so i have to wait for my luck to be picked by a woman...
sucks hard!!!