(01-03-2017, 03:31 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ] (01-03-2017, 03:24 AM)AlphaScorpio Wrote: [ -> ] (01-03-2017, 03:08 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ] (01-03-2017, 03:00 AM)AlphaScorpio Wrote: [ -> ] (01-03-2017, 02:36 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]The bigger the reaction, the deeper and bigger the healing and clearing going on.
Do you feel like you're making progress?
Honestly, I don't feel like I'm making progress, whether I come out of the depression and healing stages stronger is yet to be seen.
Is it a steady state or is it getting worse over time?
I was speaking to my parents who mentioned I had been getting noticeably more agitated/negative for the past month. I'd say yeah it has been getting steadily worse.
And you're using A, and using it 3 loops a day?
Yep, 3.01A Hybrid @ 3 loops per day
Do you have any idea why you're feeling that way?
I don't know, most things in my life were/are ok, I've just been feeling heavy resistance and fear/anxiety in general. It's like it's come out of nowhere really intensely since I had that cold a couple weeks ago.
Sounds like something deep that is long since consciously forgotten is being grappled with. If it gets too bad, take a break. But keep going if you can.
(01-03-2017, 04:35 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]Sounds like something deep that is long since consciously forgotten is being grappled with. If it gets too bad, take a break. But keep going if you can.
Will do, cheers
Been a better past couple of days, no longer feeling that severe sense of helplessness and depression.
The other night I had a little idea to turn the volume of my phone down to the lowest setting 1/15 while playing DMSI, Noticed the next days much less resistance. I think I'll stick with this volume setting for now as I think my mind responds to loud volume listening with a "I'll dig my heals in I'm NOT changing" response. I may work back up to a louder volume but for now I'll keep it at this.
Boss was friendlier at work, colleagues too, house mate was chatty much smoother past few days, Doesn't feel like theres something at the back of my head screaming for me to do something I don't feel I can... Now it's more like a subtle prompting for me to change...
Did an experiment with listening to 6 loops back to back on current volume setting and eating 1.5k calories half before and half after loops, woke up the next day after 10.5 hours of sleep, could barely move my eyes open lol was so tired, Feels fine now though actually, normal energy.
Feeling introspective and cocooning myself in again but I don't feel shameful for doing so.
Went to town yesterday to watch the man utd game at the bar with my dad, Notice a couple sitting opposite us a 5.5/10 probably late 20s with her BF. I notice the woman noticing me and my dad, about 5 minutes later she has her feet crossed and pointed towards us and I catch her stealing quick looks at me AND at my dad she looks away very fast as though trying not to be caught, Also she was fiddling with her shirt flapping the bottom of her top her hands near her crotch area, she also looked bored with her BF. When she got up to go about 1.5 hours later she gave me another cheeky quick look and I made eye contact like "Yeah I kno" lol.
Met my sisters at the bar and then went shopping for some stuff we needed in the clothes shop I noticed as I walked past the cashier, that she was staring at me, my sister (who is very aware) was like "Did you see that?, that girl was staring at you" I was like "Yeah I don't miss a trick" lol
Not that many IOIs in total though it's not like all of them are staring at me considering how many women I had seen in town, not many hot ones either but my standards are really high these days.
Last night I woke with a fright and fear was flowing through my veins, I had just had a dream about lions in africa and sharks (which I am terrified of) and I heard this really loud roar from a cougar and it startled me awake... Happened to me on AM6 before. Scary.
Working through your fears. Good work.
Switched to 3.01B to experiment since testing for 3.01A is coming to an end well interesting things for sure...
Listened to 1 loop last night, today went to college, initially nothing new, I noticed I started acting like a badboy, confident, blunt, amogging etc. Not out of insecurity but out of a confident and badboy vibe (ego might've needed a bit of rebalancing) but others were drawn to it, about 10 hours after finishing my 1 loop I listened to another 50 minutes on my lunch break then the cute black girl suddnely randomly approached me during workshop lesson and basically flirted the shit out of me, shit tested and gave such obvious IOIs it was just silly. She actually had to be escorted away from my workbench by the teacher lol.... then she came back 5-10 minutes later to linger again. She was poking me with rulers, staring at me, teasing me, testing me, laughing at my jokes, asking me how old I was, Inuendos etc. etc. Mentioned how she sleeps so much, how she is like a cat sleeping all day mentioned she'd be a crazy cat lady if she never got married - then gave me a funny look as if to say... WTF. LOL. Other guys looking at me with such wonder, making comments like "Slay that pussy Dan!" "Chatting up the girls" etc. etc.
Weirdest and most obvious test was that shortly after asking me about my age she said she had a boyfriend who was 23, I nonchalantly said "oh right cool" without paying much attention I noticed her looking keenly at my reactions, definitely testing the waters there.
Honestly weirdest day, My mood changed into a more intense, frustrated mood later (possibly resistance) and I noticed less of those effects and the girl became more distant but when B was going boy was I projecting some strong aura.
-More respect
-More banter
-More tests from guys and girls
-More Anger inside
-Masculine power
-NSFM activated
-Playful alphaness with guys and girls
(01-20-2017, 02:41 PM)Travis Wrote: [ -> ]Sounds like version B is for you!
I find that both versions work much smoother for me when I listen to low volume I think I was really hindering my results with high volume or even medium as I think it triggers much more resistance in me, I will stick to 3 loops of Version B for the next few days and hope that I don't get too depressed or resistant.
(01-20-2017, 02:44 PM)AlphaScorpio Wrote: [ -> ]I will stick to 3 loops of Version B for the next few days and hope that I don't get too depressed or resistant.
Shannon says 2 loops of B, no more, no less, no exceptions.
In before Ben gets here:
Sounds like black girl wants to work your wood.
(01-20-2017, 03:11 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ] (01-20-2017, 02:44 PM)AlphaScorpio Wrote: [ -> ]I will stick to 3 loops of Version B for the next few days and hope that I don't get too depressed or resistant.
Shannon says 2 loops of B, no more, no less, no exceptions.
That's right, Shannon said 2 loops for 3.01B and it,s ironic because i have'nt had a chance to test DMSI yet,I have it and i'm glad about the good reports,I start Sex Mag 4 5G in less than two weeks but will be glad for the time to use it.
I purchased a lot of subs just to know I have them for later use,the thing is you may have noticed that Shannon's products keep getting better and better,
Hats off to Shannon and his crew!
