10-04-2011, 11:28 PM
Met up with the girl again today, had an awesome time but def. Not the same connection, I was drifting alot, I was not as attractedm she seemed more testing, alpha male set maybe?, but it made for some fun.
Its really strange being back on alpha, pros-super chill, got that swag back, deeply unreactive, feel like I own the world in a non egoic way of course, more confident, more superficially social, shaved after 3 months, getting a lot of eye contact and damn he's hot looks, increased respect, cons I am so fng tired all the time, this sub is hardcore, I was used to it after the time off but now its just recking me lol, increased apathy, lack of motivation, so chill I procrastinate on procrastinating but will then get the urge to handle biz sometimes but its feels so out of my control.
Well that's it for now 9 days until sex magnet, I am so excited! I've been waiting over six months do to it
Its really strange being back on alpha, pros-super chill, got that swag back, deeply unreactive, feel like I own the world in a non egoic way of course, more confident, more superficially social, shaved after 3 months, getting a lot of eye contact and damn he's hot looks, increased respect, cons I am so fng tired all the time, this sub is hardcore, I was used to it after the time off but now its just recking me lol, increased apathy, lack of motivation, so chill I procrastinate on procrastinating but will then get the urge to handle biz sometimes but its feels so out of my control.
Well that's it for now 9 days until sex magnet, I am so excited! I've been waiting over six months do to it