Subliminal Talk

Wow, so much has changed while being on this program!

I've probably had the most successful 9 months of my life during it. Yet I believe there is still much more to come. I feel as if I'm only ramping up, and not hitting anywhere near max output.

I had a very successful out of country SE asian trip with my GF of 5 months (my first GF, whom I acquired while on this sub). I am just putting the finishing touches on a slow but successful move into a new house. I am now financially in dependant and paying all my own bills. An amusing thought. Thankfully I have a good career due to a guiding, loving father with connections and my ability to take advantage of opportunities!

On a brief side note, I truly and deeply love and appreciate my parents and all they've done for me. We have always had such a fantastic relationship and it was very emotional to say that goodbye when moving out. However I know it had to be done as it is a necessary step in my evolution. That thought did not stop me from crying like a baby when my mother gave a beautiful and moving speech however! I have not felt such intense emotion since I was a child. Perhaps 10 years!

Currently I have two or three weeks until I begin working again and I plan to enjoy that time off training martial arts, lifting, reading, playing guitar, meditating, and spending time with my gf. I haven't had much downtime in 11 weeks so I will greatly enjoy this coming break!

I wish I could write longer and more concise posts but it always takes me so long to dig through my memory that I run out of time! So instead I will summarize some highlights below:

Unmentioned Highlights:

-Successfully bungee jumped, ziplined across mountains, parasailed, and rode a scooter down a mountain scooters are not meant to be rode on
-did touch ups and renos in the house I moved into to make it up to my standards
-in the midst of fixing a shoulder/pec injury that has plagued me for years
-Beginning an 18lb planned bulk
-For the first time, actually feel like I'm my age. Before I would feel like I haven't lived enough.
-Confidence in interactions with people improves every month. Others might view me as confident, but I am not close to my own standards.
-Still NoFap. Fapped once in 180 days. Currently on a 117 day streak.
-Still coldshowers, just not exclusively. Only do them as a test of willpower in the morning. I feel as though they are inefficient at cleaning off manmade chemicals, so I reintroduced hot showers for when I am especially dirty.
-Driving and navigation skills have improved significantly this past year. Finally shaking off the mantle of being a shitty driver!
-Spent almost all my money, but don't really care. Have budgeted out how much I would be saving after all my bills and I'm content with it for now. I feel as though there will come a time when I am hungry to improve my situation financially, but for the next two years I just want to continually improve myself as a man and complete the current phase of my career. I've learned that quality of life is more important to me than the number in the account.

hmm I believe there are other things but I must get on with my day. I shall update next time I remember! Good day fellow sub users!

I find this inspiring

It's been a while since I've updated. I'm now 5 months into living on my own with my gf and I've been working for almost 10 weeks. So I'm fully living the 'adult' life of responsibility now. It feels good. It's not hard, I made the transition at the right time. The only consistent disappointment is money. The economy is in a down swing where I live and I'm not making the wage I use too. It's good though because I get to live that experience of 'pay cheque to pay cheque'. It also made me create a budget where I track every single expense.

I'm definitely feeling a plateau right now and that's actually what motivated me to come write this post. When I look back at my year, it's objectively the most successful of my life. I've done so many things that I desperately felt I needed to do to take that next step. Now I'm left scratching my head at what's next.

I think to myself that I could just refine everything I have right now, but that doesn't feel right. I need something to strive for. 2016 was where I brought my areas lacking in experience up to par. So I'm a more balanced individual but one without direction. I'll figure it out.

Other things:

I quit veganism. It was a good 8 month experiment, but it just didn't fit me like I hoped. The reddish tint that's been occupying my face throughout has since receded and my erection quality has improved drastically. I fucked the woman 10 times in a 36 hour period. Something that wouldn't have been possible before. Now some of that may be due to us being apart a bit this past week, but still my refractory period has shortened and my erections last longer and feel harder.

I lost way too much weight on that diet, there's just such a small margin for error. I got a pinched nerve that made me unable to train martial arts or lift for 8 weeks. On top of that I was getting sick every week. 8 times in a 10 week period. Absolutely unacceptable when I'm outside working all day. But yeah my strength and weight plummeted so I said fuck it and haven't felt any twangs of regret or disgust since returning to meat. I feel better actually.

I bought some stocks for the first time in my life! It's something I always wanted to do and so I decided I better just take action and do it. Feels good! It was kind of surreal afterwards to check another long term goal off the list.

My nofap is something like 4 relapses in the last 312 days. Currently on a 39 day streak. Lel synchronistically my GF just texted me threatening that I better not break my streak.

AM6 has improved my life immensely and I will run the author's subs for the foreseeable future. It's the easiest way to improve yourself without doing any work. Just a little bit of money up front and the memory to turn it on every night.

(08-16-2016, 12:58 PM)yeah! Wrote: [ -> ]Are you going to run it again?

How did you enjoy your Ayahuasca?

Yeah man, I'm going to start my 3rd run either this week or take a month off like they prescribe.

It wasn't as potent as I believe it should be. Due to living with my parents at the time, I was unable to refrigerate it. With that being said, it was still a great time. I had no intense thoughts, it was just a rollercoaster of sensations and visuals. Typically psychedelics for me involve lots of new lines of thought, so this was a first for me to just be taken for a ride. It felt warm and welcoming unlike the cold harshness of salvia. From my limited experience, I would say it's safe and fun to do.

Ok guys I wanted to wait to update this until I was in a happy place.

I'm 9 weeks post break up from the first girl I ever loved. We shared our first 'true' everything together. First girl I had feelings for, consistently had sex with, lived together, broke down every barrier imaginable with one another. Bonded to a point I'd never felt with someone. Supported each other, became invested in one another's life. Had each other's back. Cooked for each other, well...she cooked for me. Shared goals, basically a deep deep bond.

It was filled with high moments and the lowest of lows. Absolutely life changing and one of the most important things I've gone through in my entire life to progress me as a human male on this planet. I built so much confidence and gained an incredible amount of experience from it. I am a totally changed man now. I was able to fully put behind my the anxiety that was leftover from anti-psycotic pills that I was on due to my bouts of drug induced psychosis as a teenager. Finally I was able to close that chapter and segue into something new. The first big leaps into becoming the man I was always destined to be.

I don't ever want to get back together with her or share any intimate moment again, but deep in my mind I have this idea that one day we'll pass each other in an airport and I'll be with my aryan family, and she with children of her own, and we'll share a knowing look. Very idealistic and romantic in a way that would make others cringe or shake their heads but whatever, that's who I am.

We split due to me finding out she was unfaithful throughout our 11.5 month relationship. Basically talking to guys on tinder the day I left to visit my friends, sending pictures of her ass to some guy when she was studying at her parents. Other things I don't care to summon to memory atm. Disgusting cunt I was repulsed and mortified. The knife of betrayal sunk deep into my heart and soul and the pain was more than I could have imagined. Our breakup lasted 4 days. The first 2 was her pleading because I only knew of the tinder part. 40+ hours of sustained begging and convincing made me consider that despite how much it felt antithetical to my being, I would give her another chance. After all, when had I read that a woman was capable of showing so much love for a man? This was not my experience in reading other red pilled men's experience. I knew I might be making a massive mistake and every close friend and family member said to dump her. But I blocked them out and made my own decision. I would give her another chance. After all I knew she was fucked up and unstable and it's not like she truly cheated. This was very hard to absorb though. Going against everything I told myself I'd stand for if a girl was disloyal.

So for one day things stabilized slightly, but I had to know for sure that there was nothing else. I went through her email and long story short she admitted to sending a picture of her ass and "dirty talk" to some faggot. This was the end for me. I felt a silver cord between us be severed through the middle. Immediately our connection was revoked. Then the breakup resumed. An accepting sadness. We spent the night together in sorrow. I found out how kind and giving I could be. In my truest core I was not angry and hateful, only in short bursts. For the most part it was a raw feeling of being hyper aware of the moment and very empathetic. She was too devastated to pack so I had to gather all her things myself. She recorded almost 20 hours of our final conversations and wrote in her book of quotes (my quotes I'd say to her) things I was saying.

Ironically we had a lot of sex in our final days. Like maybe 7 or more times in the final 30 hours. In the heat of the moment we made some pact that we'd always fuck each other, but I knew even then in the back of my head that I would never again lay with her.

Our final moment was like in a movie scene. I kissed her goodbye in the passenger seat of her father's vehicle beneath a shroud of darkness and large, lightly falling snowflakes. Then they drove away with her face pressed up against the window waving and crying. I truly loved that girl. She called me daddy 99% of the time and I wonder if that coupled with how damaged she was triggered our dynamic to be more of a father and daughter. I took her virginity, I was her first everything as far as significant male partner influence.

I told her there would be no contact unless she was going to kill herself and that if she broke that agreement, I would block her regardless. She reached out after a week begging and trying to convince me. I was very kind in my response and proceeded to block her (with a heavy heart). Then she emailed me and I did the same. Then on what should have been our 1 year anniversary she left a 10 page note on my parent's doorstep. It had a few moments but it was mostly her venting and telling me how great she was doing while mentioning how so many guys are checking her out. She even mentioned to return her fondue maker. Fucking useless lol. I threw it in the garbage. What an embarrassment and stain to the beautiful memories we had. Fool woman. Being female she will never appreciate what we had beyond the moments we lived it. It is in her design to move on and one day resent me and view me as inferior to whatever her current mate is. So it falls on my shoulders to retain an accurate memory of what we were. The memory will hang on the wall of my subconscious as it truly was, not distorted in any way.

To sum it up, I would say: A truly loving, compatible, damaged, toxic relationship. One that taught us both lessons. We were destined to be together, but only for a brief time.

I'm leaving many details out, but this is already quite bloated and the gist is getting across.

During the post breakup I stayed pure (except for a few nights of degeneracy with the boys) and disciplined. I upped my martial arts training, meditation, journalling, lifting, reading, and social game. I can now go out completely alone and have an excellent time. Something I would be afraid to do before. And due to my persistence in finding a new woman, the universe eventually rewarded me with an opportunity to secure one that is almost tailor made to my desires. And secure her I did. So I have a new GF now that is a stable and balanced. As much as a woman can be of course.

So yes I am very happy and feeling incredible confident. I have many goals and a clear vision of what I want to do and accomplish in many areas of my life. Physical, spiritual, financial.

Alpha Male 6.0 it'll change your life

At the end of the day I feel like it upgrades your vessel, but you still have to do the leg work and MAKE shit happen. You can't just let the new car sit in the driveway. Get out and fucking use it. The nice thing about this sub is that every night you're improving even if your day wasn't hyper productive. I truly feel like my life re started since using this. That's how my memories are seen in my mind. When I look back 16 months I can 'feel' the split from before I started using these and taking steps forward in life.

Oh fuck I figure I should add a quick list of things that I've improved on to help shill for how quality this sub is.

-Down to fight any time thus giving me vastly increased confidence in all situations

-Never viewed as some weak pushover

-Magnetic personality, very successful in social situations, people enjoy being around me

-In the habit of recognizing when I'm afraid to do something and trying to avoid it. Trained myself that as soon as I feel that, I head straight towards the fear.

-Before I met my current GF I cold approached numerous top level women in the day and snagged their numbers. Probably 70% or better success rate with number pulling but had no luck going further.

-Was absolutely charismatic and on fire a few times when macking girls. One that comes to mind is approaching these two tall girls and verbally dancing with them for 10 minutes. Chick swore she didn't have a phone and showed me her pockets. Regardless it was a cool sign of my progression into a more suave man.

-My sex game is high level. I'm a no fap demi god sitting at 172 days right now. I've fapped like 4 times in the last 500. It doesn't affect my stamina beyond the very first fuck after time off. Then I bounce back and I'm all good.

-Embracing this natural animalism that comes out of me around women. I love devouring them and my jiu jitsu ensures I control their bodies however I want. I feel like a lion and they are my prey that I will do whatever I want with.

-I love making women climax. From my tongue, finger, cock, I get great satisfaction out of seeing them pushed to their limits and drained. I almost forget about my own. An area in my life where I am very christian and giving, lol.

-My body language was good before but now I'm on the path of making my body extremely fluid, calm, and loose so it's even better which compliments my newer attitude.

-By the way this new attitude feels like a coming full circle thing. I feel more like when I was a carefree child then say I did 4 years ago. Like I am resonating closer to my truest being.

So yeah buy this chit

Hey Mal'Guth how are you? I can relate to your situation with your Ex. We both share almost the same situation. But unlike you, it happened before starting my AM 6.0 run. I regressed from my previous runs of Alpha. I'm not quite sure why it happened though. So situation really hit me hard and it has definitely damaged my pride as a man. That's why instead of running SM 3.0 just for some ego boosting, I opted to do a full run of AM 6.0. Hope to hear an update from you soon bro.

All the best,

Mofo

(08-10-2017, 06:25 AM)SexyMofo Wrote: [ -> ]Hey Mal'Guth how are you? I can relate to your situation with your Ex. We both share almost the same situation. But unlike you, it happened before starting my AM 6.0 run. I regressed from my previous runs of Alpha. I'm not quite sure why it happened though. So situation really hit me hard and it has definitely damaged my pride as a man. That's why instead of running SM 3.0 just for some ego boosting, I opted to do a full run of AM 6.0. Hope to hear an update from you soon bro.

All the best,

Mofo

Brother I'm sorry for the pain you would have went through dealing with that. However after much time has passed, I'm sure you can see how beneficial pain is to the development of a man.

Pain and struggle shape us. From suffering we gain strength. IF we can overcome it. Not all men can. 3 of my uncles cannot and they are subhumans.

Man I would just run AM forever. Sex game, real game. That shit can be learned. AM boosts your ability in both. The thing I like about it, is that even if I have an unproductive day, when I go to sleep that night my brain is being reconfigured and I wake up a better man.

I've been running the stage 7 maintenance for almost a year. I miss days here and there but I don't notice any negatives. I used to get mad anxiety about that. I've done 2 full runs and maintenance.

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Update.

Wow so much has changed. Can't attribute it all to AM, but with that being said it wouldn't have been possible without AM if that makes sense.

So when I first started this program I did my first year of trade school. I'll give a quick update on how drastically the dynamics changed.

First year I was the young guy with no experience and a medium amount of beta tendencies. There was this one particular girl with the tightest little ass that I would jerk off too. She was in my class and I managed to muster up a few nervous conversations with her. Nothing to write home about. In fact if I'm being honest the very firs time I talked to her my eyes watered. This was a combination of realizing I was in over my head with school (I was the least experienced and worst student in shop) and fear over talking to a 'hot' girl. Full beta disclosure guys. lol.

Anyway fast forward literally two years. I've traveled, had multiple GF's, been deeply in debt, moved out, failed at a lot of things, accomplished goals, been attacked, got in fights, trained more martial arts, continued to read, basically just lived a lot more life.

I see this girl again and wow have the tables turned. She is not even in my league. Like significantly below it. Still has that tight 10/10 ass but it doesn't matter. My mindstate has changed so much that I am now higher status than her. She is absolutely inferior to my current woman. I don't pay her much attention because there's no goal but she ends up gravitating to our 'alpha' crew. She brings a pack of beta orbiters with her as well. Guys with wives and gfs who are drooling over this sloot and throwing their jackets into puddles for her to walk on. Me and this young stud just neg her all year and call her grandma. She loves it. Shit tests me plenty of times and I pass them with ease. I can see the opportunity is there if I wanted it but I never pursue. I don't want it.

Now I'm not ragging on this girl by any means. Simply illustrating what two years of self improvement can do to a beta trying to ascend. It is absolutely possible to change who you are and bring out the better you.

My life is going great all things considered. I think I have "maxxed" out my improvement levels for now because I am turning 100% of my energy into making it financially. I spent years building a base and fixing my mind/body and as soon as everything became balanced, it's like I was blessed with higher motivation. Now I want money more than anything. I actually feel true passion. I spend hours on my project. It's all I think about. When I dream I think about, I am completely obsessed. And it feels fucking amazing.

I also think about killing myself a lot more now. One of my most power driven unique friends once told me that he thinks about it daily. I thought it was an incredibly extreme thing to say and kind of cringed. That was until I found my passion in life. Now I understand. Failing to do this makes me want to kill myself. After tasting this success I could never go back to a mediocre job again. I would rather die.

Cheers brothers I wish you all success in your paths.

Also I'm day 500 something on no fap. Do it.