(10-26-2015, 05:15 PM)apollolux Wrote: [ -> ] (10-26-2015, 04:30 PM)maxx55 Wrote: [ -> ]I approached a girl that I had talked to before on campus but didn't exchange numbers with. I talked with her today and I asked if she wanted to hang out. She hesitated. Then I said "you don't have to if you don't want to". Then she made it clear that she has a bf but she is down to hang out in a group.
First mistake was "wanted to hang out," this masks your intent. Be more direct, like "have a drink" or something more definitive than "hang out." Second mistake was "you don't have to if you don't want to." You sensed her hesitation and you backed down from continuing as if she was actually open. The bf may indeed exist, but you gave her reason to make an excuse, as the hesitation could easily have been her testing you. This wasn't that bad, but you definitely made mistakes here.
(10-26-2015, 04:30 PM)maxx55 Wrote: [ -> ]Later, I saw this ridiculously hot girl across the street heading in the opposite direction. I crossed the street and started trying to catch up (I naturally walk slower than most people so that was a challenge). I finally do when we're at the garage and walking up the stairs. I just say that I like her hair and she says thank you. Then I ask her what her name is and I told her mine. She just said nice to meet you. And the whole time she kept on walking without stopping. And it almost seemed like she sped up going to her car, I just acted like I was going to my car in another part of the garage. I felt nervous. And afterwards I straight up felt embarassed, ashamed, frustrated, and angry. I just want to **** hot girls!!! God!
You essentially had stalker-lite behavior here. She kept walking without stopping, which should mean she wasn't receptive to what you were offering, which was "I like your hair" (which could be interpreted differently depending on how you said it). If you feel she sped up towards her car you should have also picked up on that as a "no," since she probably also picked up on the fact that you felt nervous and then embarrassed, ashamed, etc. This was straight up horrible, and you probably need to work on being congruent (aka DON'T fake confidence that isn't there).
I do agree with you about the first one. The thing is that's just what came out in the moment. Usually, I definitely try to mention something specific and say let's do x. For example, if she likes sushi, I'll say let's go to x sushi place that's awesome. I just couldn't think anything. Also, by just saying that she doesn't have to, I feel like I am making it easy for her to just say no. I'm seeing if she'll on her own decide to say yes
About the second one, let me be more clear. Everything that was said, was said before she started heading to her to her car. And I felt nervous while I talked with her. It wasn't until after she seemed like she was speeding up to her car that I felt so terrible and ashamed and frustrated etc. Interaction was over by that point. It's the fact that happened that I felt like that and I normally don't really feel like that.
But there's some nervousness sometimes when I approach, but it goes away after a minute or so of starting the interaction
I had a great sleep last night. I just really enjoyed it. I also have had a few out of the ordinary dreams.
Not last night, but 2 nights ago I had a dream that the bf of a girl I like was getting angry at me. Never met or anything in real life
Last night, I had a dream that I was at some kind of ceremony or celebration and I was dancing with my family. I also had another dream, but I won't talk about that here
Yesterday, amidst the madness, I thought to myself that maybe I should go see someone like a therapist or something. I have no intention of stopping listening to the subs. I just think maybe I should get more help. But I don't really know who to go to and I don't know what to say. Because I don't think I should tell any professional psychologist etc. everything that has ran through my mind over the course of my life, just certain things. And even then, I don't know if they could actually do anything to help. If anything, maybe a real deal hypnotherapist could help. But I won't conflict with the subs.
I am a bit better today. But in the back of my mind I still have the bullshit thoughts like:
"I deserve to fuck hot sexy girls, but I have yet to do so"
"Why would they be together" (if I see a couple)
and just a general feeling to dismiss girls because I'm not fucking them
I want to avoid my posts being mostly negative since others read it so I'll only bring this up again if there's a change (hopefully improvement!)
BIATBWS
8.5 hrs via speakers
2.5 hrs via earbuds
AoS
4 hours via earbuds
I'm gonna really aim to get 12 hrs BIATBWS.
I had the realization that just because I feel different internally isn't a bad thing. It's good! It means the sub is working and I just realized that.
Now I'm feeling much better, good even!
WOAH!! Guys!
I woke up today and kinda felt like sleeping even longer. But I got dressed, got up, went to my class. On the way, started talking to a girl. It went well and it seemed like she wasn't ready to end the interaction when I had to go, but I left.
A minute later, I notice the difference. I felt virtually no social anxiety at all! It's been like this all day and I love it! I'm out, and the thoughts of what others think doesn't even cross my mind! Seriously.
I feel so alive and so free today and I'm not even two weeks into my run! This is the shit! It's like I'm just comfortable being me whenever!
When I see a hot girl, I'm not obsessed with thinking about fucking her. Of course, I know it'd be fun, but it's not an instant obsession anymore!
If I make a slight social "mistake" or something that I thought I should've or could've done differently or better, I don't feel terrible after. The worst today was that I ran into a girl that I made plans with. She happily waves and comes over to me and we start talking, but it's really quick cause I'm in a hurry. I go to hug her and don't fully wrap my left arm around her, just my right. She was holding something and I didn't want her drop it. Left arm was halfway there to being fully around her, but I just brushed it off in the moment. No one was weirded out lol and it was probably me who was the only one concerned in the first place. Anyway, that was the "worst" thing that happened today. I feel so in control of myself and calm!
I thought it'd take longer for me to see results and I wasn't sure if I'd feel anything. But let me just say, I DO feel it and it's fucking great!
If this just builds over the rest of my run, OH GOD! Shannon, you will have a lifelong customer!
BIATBWS
10 hrs via speakers
2 hours via earbuds
AoS
4 hours via earbuds
I also forgot to note that earlier today, for a brief moment I totally forgot where to go to get to my next class. I remember what it looked like, but forgot where to go. This has never ever happened to me before, especially after going to the same class many many times. Lasted about 1 minute and then I remembered
Also, I felt so good today, when I noticed it, I wondered "Am I in a dream?" It was that much of a difference
This BIABW seems to work really fast and when it works it works faster than WM2.
It's no surprise considering how deep WM2 is. But it can be very subtle and the manifestation part is even more subtle. If I were you I would only use one at time (BIABWS) but you are not me.
I remember I was using ADtics phero when I was on BIABW and I had better results from the sub alone than the phero. Some guys reported that phero contradict the Sub vibe, I would say it depends on the phero you are using. But it might be true, we don't have enough feedback on that.
Good luck with it.
(10-29-2015, 06:59 AM)Alpha360 Wrote: [ -> ]This BIABW seems to work really fast and when it works it works faster than WM2.
It's no surprise considering how deep WM2 is. But it can be very subtle and the manifestation part is even more subtle.
I know you have ran BIATBW. What do you mean by subtle? Isn't it supposed to get women to show blatant interest, referring to the script of the program?
(10-29-2015, 06:59 AM)Alpha360 Wrote: [ -> ]This BIABW seems to work really fast and when it works it works faster than WM2.
It's no surprise considering how deep WM2 is. But it can be very subtle and the manifestation part is even more subtle. If I were you I would only use one at time (BIABWS) but you are not me.
I remember I was using ADtics phero when I was on BIABW and I had better results from the sub alone than the phero. Some guys reported that phero contradict the Sub vibe, I would say it depends on the phero you are using. But it might be true, we don't have enough feedback on that.
Good luck with it.
Thank you. I remember reading that was the case for someone somewhere on this forum. I don't use pheros on the weekends. So I can get a good comparison of how my weeks are vs. weekends. I'll keep an eye on it in the future.
And Shannon himself said that BIATBW/S +AoS would be a great combination. So far, I'm fine with it, but if I feel one dramatically yields more benefits than the other, I'll think about dropping one.
I was calm and free just like yesterday, maybe a little less so. I did see a girl I found attractive. For some reason, I got very nervous. It came out of nowhere. I calmed myself. When I could, I initiated with her and it went well and we exchanged numbers and planned to see each other sometime soon. At this point I wouldn't say I'm "irresistably attractive" yet, but I do feel a little more like I'm awesome.
Also, if the script is going to manifest me being what I personally perceive as being "irresistably attractive to women sexually", I won't have to question "hmm...is the sub helping with this result?" I'll KNOW.
On the other hand, I wonder if the sub redifines in our mind what it means to me "irresistably attractive". In my mind, there's only one meaning. I'll literally be attractive and no beautiful women will be able to resist lol
BIATBWS
-8.5 hrs via speakers
2 hours 10 min. via earbuds
AoS
-3 hours 33 minutes via earbuds
I wonder what next week will be like when I switch AoS to getting more hours...after that week I'll probably balance them by doing 8 and 8
Never tried myself, but I really like these two subs. So keep journaling, especially all the orgys you will experience in the next weeks/months
10/30
BIATBWS
7 hours 38 min via speakers
2hrs 35 min via earbuds
AoS
4hrs 32 min via earbuds
10/31
BIATBWS
6 hr 45 min via speaker
5 hours 19 min via earbud
AoS
4 hr via earbuds
11/1
BIATBWS
8 hr 11 min via speaker
1hr 15 min via earbud
AoS
2 hr 50 min.
I may continue this week with BIATBWS getting the majority of my hours. After a full month of that, I'll probably switch it up
BIATBWS
hours to be posted
7 hrs 37 min via speakers
2 hr 18 min via earbuds
AoS
2 hrs 37 min
One thing that happened that was out of the ordinary today. I was walking down a hall, I saw a girl, we made eye contact, she gives a big smile and then says hi. I say hi back but keep on walking. It was only later that I thought this may come from use of the sub. This is the first time a random girl has initiated by saying hi like that in a very long time. It was said in passing, but I feel the smile was genuine.
Also, starting today I'm choosing to not look at porn. Aiming for 180 days (April 30, 2016)