09-19-2015, 08:17 AM
09-19-2015, 09:35 AM
(09-19-2015, 08:17 AM)waahbeta Wrote: [ -> ]Ohk.
It's in my TLAM script that 'I use my dreams to.......'
Hence curious.
This line is in every subliminals script
09-20-2015, 02:07 AM
Ohh. It wasn't there in LM I guess.
09-20-2015, 02:15 AM
Day 10
No dreams since last 2 nights. Strange.
Last night my uncle called me up. He is the only person on earth whom m scared of. Not my dad, not my mom. But only he.
He started giving lectures on I should save. Not waste money. Stop drinking n smoking. Well, maybe my parents complained it to him. That's it.
Today I was walking down the street submerged in some thoughts. Saw a kid, felt creepy. And then the kid walked past me. And I thought he is charging towards me n got so scared. I literally skipped my heartbeat. Couple of minutes later I regained composure. Was completely blank with goosebumps.
Don't know what Was that. But makes me laugh now.
No dreams since last 2 nights. Strange.
Last night my uncle called me up. He is the only person on earth whom m scared of. Not my dad, not my mom. But only he.
He started giving lectures on I should save. Not waste money. Stop drinking n smoking. Well, maybe my parents complained it to him. That's it.
Today I was walking down the street submerged in some thoughts. Saw a kid, felt creepy. And then the kid walked past me. And I thought he is charging towards me n got so scared. I literally skipped my heartbeat. Couple of minutes later I regained composure. Was completely blank with goosebumps.
Don't know what Was that. But makes me laugh now.
09-21-2015, 03:41 AM
Day 11
No dream yesterday night again.
One thing I am noticing since last 2-3 days.
While I was on ASC, while commuting, walking, etc if a girl is passing by, I had this thing of trying to make an eye contact with them.
Now when i am on TLAM, I don't even realize when a gal is walking pass by me. Only few times I notice, yes it's a girl but still don't look out for their eyes. I am like 'Yes its a girl. I should have tried to make an eye contact'.
I can come up with only 2 reasons for it.
1. My mind is too busy to notice anything.
2. The TLAM is making men as well as women equal/general in my eyes.
No dream yesterday night again.
One thing I am noticing since last 2-3 days.
While I was on ASC, while commuting, walking, etc if a girl is passing by, I had this thing of trying to make an eye contact with them.
Now when i am on TLAM, I don't even realize when a gal is walking pass by me. Only few times I notice, yes it's a girl but still don't look out for their eyes. I am like 'Yes its a girl. I should have tried to make an eye contact'.
I can come up with only 2 reasons for it.
1. My mind is too busy to notice anything.
2. The TLAM is making men as well as women equal/general in my eyes.
09-21-2015, 05:09 AM
(09-21-2015, 03:41 AM)waahbeta Wrote: [ -> ]Day 11
No dream yesterday night again.
One thing I am noticing since last 2-3 days.
While I was on ASC, while commuting, walking, etc if a girl is passing by, I had this thing of trying to make an eye contact with them.
Now when i am on TLAM, I don't even realize when a gal is walking pass by me. Only few times I notice, yes it's a girl but still don't look out for their eyes. I am like 'Yes its a girl. I should have tried to make an eye contact'.
I can come up with only 2 reasons for it.
1. My mind is too busy to notice anything.
2. The TLAM is making men as well as women equal/general in my eyes.
I guess you just have other priorities now. You don't focus on women anymore.
09-21-2015, 08:37 AM
Yeah maybe.
09-23-2015, 09:04 AM
Day 13
Was almost transferred.
Was going to get transferred to other place.
But my senior didn't lemme go. He went against his seniors to cancel my transaction. Quite obvious. Cos I am the one who gets most of the work done. Execution as well as billing. He takes away the credits. I've never minded. But in an attempt to do it, he said his seniors that I come daily late. Asshole.
The cancellation of transfer haa pro as well as con.
Pro : it's very important work for the main boss. By getting it done, I would have highlighted my name and entered his good books which would help in raise of future salaries.
Con: it's a bit far from my home. Will have to commute from crowded public transport and also get up early.
Though I can still get a transfer if ask them directly.
Now m confused whether I should or I shouldn't.
Apart from that, have headache n feeling angry throughout the day.
Was almost transferred.
Was going to get transferred to other place.
But my senior didn't lemme go. He went against his seniors to cancel my transaction. Quite obvious. Cos I am the one who gets most of the work done. Execution as well as billing. He takes away the credits. I've never minded. But in an attempt to do it, he said his seniors that I come daily late. Asshole.
The cancellation of transfer haa pro as well as con.
Pro : it's very important work for the main boss. By getting it done, I would have highlighted my name and entered his good books which would help in raise of future salaries.
Con: it's a bit far from my home. Will have to commute from crowded public transport and also get up early.
Though I can still get a transfer if ask them directly.
Now m confused whether I should or I shouldn't.
Apart from that, have headache n feeling angry throughout the day.
09-24-2015, 10:44 AM
Day 14
Truckloads of dreams last night.
Remember a few in bits and pieces.
1. I clean shaved after a long time. N man, I looked damn hottie after I did it. Girls as well as boys were all behind me appreciating while I still was mirror watching me. (like aftershave commercials)
2. I got married all of a sudden. I couldn't have sex with her that night. Nor the next couple of days due to some or the other reason. But i wasn't irritated. I was in very much love with that gal whereas we were just hi-bye frnds b4 and we married due to some urgent reason. Every second, every situation in that dream was all about love. But i dont remember that girl from the dream, but m sure she was some1 from my previous /less talked to current frnd. Even throughout the day, I thought about that dream, I felt so much loved n happy.
3. I have a gf and we share a full of love relationship. , (don't remember the girl from the dream, but it was either from my 2 ex's) and yes a gf dream just after a marriage dream. Lol.
4. I invented some kind of impossible machine and ppl were like is it even possible.
Although I know I had even more dreams, I can't remember them.
Now i really dunno what's it about all this love feeling while being on TLAM.
But yeah I switched on to Astral projection b4 sleeping n i was asleep within a minute..
And 2-3 times a day my first ex thoughts cone to my mind. (although we are no more together from 5 years and in contact since 3 years)
Truckloads of dreams last night.
Remember a few in bits and pieces.
1. I clean shaved after a long time. N man, I looked damn hottie after I did it. Girls as well as boys were all behind me appreciating while I still was mirror watching me. (like aftershave commercials)
2. I got married all of a sudden. I couldn't have sex with her that night. Nor the next couple of days due to some or the other reason. But i wasn't irritated. I was in very much love with that gal whereas we were just hi-bye frnds b4 and we married due to some urgent reason. Every second, every situation in that dream was all about love. But i dont remember that girl from the dream, but m sure she was some1 from my previous /less talked to current frnd. Even throughout the day, I thought about that dream, I felt so much loved n happy.
3. I have a gf and we share a full of love relationship. , (don't remember the girl from the dream, but it was either from my 2 ex's) and yes a gf dream just after a marriage dream. Lol.
4. I invented some kind of impossible machine and ppl were like is it even possible.
Although I know I had even more dreams, I can't remember them.
Now i really dunno what's it about all this love feeling while being on TLAM.
But yeah I switched on to Astral projection b4 sleeping n i was asleep within a minute..
And 2-3 times a day my first ex thoughts cone to my mind. (although we are no more together from 5 years and in contact since 3 years)
09-26-2015, 11:38 AM
No major update.
Apart from
1. Thanks Voytek to lemme know about sigmas.
2. I received my sandisk sport finally.
Apart from
1. Thanks Voytek to lemme know about sigmas.
2. I received my sandisk sport finally.
09-26-2015, 10:56 PM
Day 16
Saw this dream where there's this place like a brothel. (never been to one in reality)
It's like a big room with 10-12 beds with girls sitting, or lying on them separated by partitions.
I take couple of rounds. Then I take a third round. And the second last girl is from previous office. The same girl with whom I have flirted a lot in reality. She is always ready for flirt. But that's it. Nothing more than that.
After completing my third round, I think 'Oh. She is an escort. Never felt so'
Them I move on from there, I am at school. Many ppl are sitting there. I was doing something, when I hear a voice calling me. I recognized the voice n i mentioned her name but couldn't find her. I look back. There she's sitting at the second last bench looking like a goddess. (this girl had a huge crush on me in early childhood, say 11-13 years). She was happy to know that I recognised her voice after so many years (9 to be precise). She moves from her place to come to me and I notice behind were my 2 that time so called best friends sitting. ( In later part of my school I had set this girl with them. They both were best friends, both liked the same girl and one ditched the other guy. They remained best friend but both backbitching about each other to me as I was later the third best friend.).
After meeting the girl, I move down the floor, there's my senior saying he will coming on the holiday to save a paid leave as he is next week going on a vacation. I move down another floor and there's my house with knee length water filled in it and my mom washing utensils and the tap or some plumbing line got damaged. I come out of the house and realise that's a big house with brothel, school, my house, my office in the same building. Like a hospital with different wards, departments at different floors.
Saw this dream where there's this place like a brothel. (never been to one in reality)
It's like a big room with 10-12 beds with girls sitting, or lying on them separated by partitions.
I take couple of rounds. Then I take a third round. And the second last girl is from previous office. The same girl with whom I have flirted a lot in reality. She is always ready for flirt. But that's it. Nothing more than that.
After completing my third round, I think 'Oh. She is an escort. Never felt so'
Them I move on from there, I am at school. Many ppl are sitting there. I was doing something, when I hear a voice calling me. I recognized the voice n i mentioned her name but couldn't find her. I look back. There she's sitting at the second last bench looking like a goddess. (this girl had a huge crush on me in early childhood, say 11-13 years). She was happy to know that I recognised her voice after so many years (9 to be precise). She moves from her place to come to me and I notice behind were my 2 that time so called best friends sitting. ( In later part of my school I had set this girl with them. They both were best friends, both liked the same girl and one ditched the other guy. They remained best friend but both backbitching about each other to me as I was later the third best friend.).
After meeting the girl, I move down the floor, there's my senior saying he will coming on the holiday to save a paid leave as he is next week going on a vacation. I move down another floor and there's my house with knee length water filled in it and my mom washing utensils and the tap or some plumbing line got damaged. I come out of the house and realise that's a big house with brothel, school, my house, my office in the same building. Like a hospital with different wards, departments at different floors.
09-28-2015, 11:31 AM
Day 18
Reading a book on quitting smoke since 15 days and completed exactly 18 pages. The new chapter is about fear.
Note to self:
Run OF after TLAM.
Reading a book on quitting smoke since 15 days and completed exactly 18 pages. The new chapter is about fear.
Note to self:
Run OF after TLAM.
09-29-2015, 01:30 PM
(09-28-2015, 11:31 AM)waahbeta Wrote: [ -> ]Day 18
Reading a book on quitting smoke since 15 days and completed exactly 18 pages. The new chapter is about fear.
Note to self:
Run OF after TLAM.
I quit smoking after doing it for 10 years and I was over 2 packs a day, very addicted, could barely go 30 minutes without a cig.
There's no way out of it besides going through a shi**y time. You are going to want cigs badly and it is going to suck a** more than anything ever.
If you cheat with just a few puffs then you are filled back up with nicotine and have to start all over again.
You are quitting nicotine, not cigarettes.
All you need to do is tell yourself "This is going to fuc**ing suck A**" and then just simply never put a cig in your mouth again and it will suck more than anything for about 3 weeks, and then for about 3 more months it really really sucks a** but you start getting used to life without cigs, and then for about 6 months or a year you just don't feel right and then after that you are basically back to normal and can't even understand why you ever even wanted a cig. You literally don't even remember what it's like to crave a cigarette.
Just tell yourself you're going to have a shi**y 3 months and then feel a little off for the rest of the year and that's all you need to do, but it's important to remember if you cheat and take a few puffs because you're freaking out then your body will be filled all the way back up with nicotine and those 3 puffs just made it so you have to start over again.
Just tell yourself it's going to be hard and it's going to suck extremely bad, but the time will pass and you will feel normal again and you'll never crave nicotine ever again.
You either have to go through the extreme shi**iness of quitting, or you have to smoke until you die. There's no way around it.
It's a trap.
09-29-2015, 07:57 PM
(09-28-2015, 11:31 AM)waahbeta Wrote: [ -> ]Day 18
Reading a book on quitting smoke since 15 days and completed exactly 18 pages. The new chapter is about fear.
Note to self:
Run OF after TLAM.
'Easy Way to Stop Smoking' by Allen Carr. I highly recommend it.