Stage 4, 2 weeks in
Ok it's getting a little bit too much to just think its a random thing. In last 2 weeks I got more sexual dreams than in whole last year... And I mean at least one dream a night, every night! It's interesting because a lot of them involve me approaching 10ns and being super bold with them, others just start in interesting settings there we are already in bed, or other place and it seems to go naturally to kinky stuff from there. (Normally I am not the type who is approaching girls (partially because of small city and closeness of girls here) and that makes it even more interesting)
From what I heard is that from stage 4 some sexiness programming is being introduced. It might just as well be it. Other things I am noticing is big confidence boost and new believes that I am worth the best of the best women out there. Another great believe I am noticing is that I think I am good and successful with women and I am the big catch here.
Its awesome too see some changes so early in the stage, because normally I only get to feel them at week 4. This leads me to believe that even this stage has a lot of fun for me in future
! And can't wait for stage 5 with its social enchantments and deeper SM programming!
Stage 4, 3 weeks in
Yesterday I have made few big realizations why I had so much trouble communicating with girls. It seemed recently that they all have lost their logic, for example girl from new year party (we haven't chatted besides few messages 2 weeks back) have invited me to her concert event (through facebook) 3 times in 2 days, and last day she even textted me asking me come. After I told her that I am busy that day, exchanged few messages back and forth, and suggested that we can meet up other day she just said "Good nigh
".
Only after talking with a friend (girl) of mine and reading some SM diaries here that it hit me... "She is so attracted to me and she doesn't want to look desperate", keep in mind that she is a good looking 9. I guess she is simply not used to have to play not by her rules. I understood this then friend told me that recently I have changed a lot and it might seem that not many people can stand up to me as equal and that might make a lot of girls insecure. Plus reading some crazy reactions in SM diaries seems by small amount similar to what is happening here. I guess I will just have to adjust my game a bit, lower the amount of teasing and giving a bit of approval to girls then they deserve that.
Now only then I have calculated to how much I am listening to sub it often adds up to as much as 15-18 hours out of which 9-10h is a sleep.
Some new changes I have seen is my body language suddenly improved, became way slower, more controlled. I always had a good walking posture, but now it seems I have that alpha aura around. I just love walking in crowded places because it seems like where I go people just walk to the sides and give me my way. Also noticed increase in hidden (45 degree) stares from girls when I am walking too.
It's funny you mentioned this. I've been noticing too that although women's logic have been telling me they're not attracted (yet), their body language and actions are telling me otherwise. Glad to see I'm not the only one seeing this as well.
Stage 5, day 6
Well more and more I am in AM6 the more I feel like I am actually doing something like WM2 instead of AM6. Wherever I go I get stares, waitress trying to flirt with me, coming to my table as much as 9 times just to ask if I have everything I need. Overall in last month and a half I probably got more attention from women than in whole last year, so improvement is big and it seems like its only starting to pick up.
I guess that might be the effect of Optimus Engine that is pushing me to fix my weakest link. Lately lots of my beliefs have changed, started to believe that I am the catch, that I am worth the best of the best girls and it seems like the reality is responding to that in law of attraction way for example it seems like thing are just happening so I could easily get to talk and make friends with hottest girls (talking about the 9-10s in looks). From class group assignments to random meetings in city.
Have been noticing that I find most girls now are simply boring, lifeless and without goals in life, but at the same time I attract more and more ones that are worth my time. Another thing that changed, or at least became more apparent is my seduction style. Now I am not taking the initiative and most of the time let girl to escalate the talk and do most of the seduction. The only thing I do is then talking and listening look them deep in their eyes. It seems to drive them nuts, you can clearly see them start to blush, get a little bit of panicked and start to talk more fast. I take initiative only then girl have put quite a bit of work herself and I feel like I want to.
Can feel strong non neediness, my ego getting down and simply not caring then I get rejected (not all girls do respond to me, but its only a matter of time
). Now the main question is whatever I should do WM2 or SM3 after I finish with AM6.
As it seems, by the end you will be drowning in women and you will want to be a millionaire!
I already want to be a billionaire, but at this time business is going great, in last 2 months my small jewelry business profits increased by around 400% and I want other areas of my life to catch up (balance is the key to happiness
). On business front for near future already preparing overseas expansion project.
Stage 6, Day 10
Ok, lately I have been neglecting this tread it is time to give a update. I guess I will focus this update on girls because most of my focus lately have been on them and improving this side of my life.
Stage 5 and start of stage 6 was quite interesting in a way that I no longer notice so many stares from girls as before. I believe that is just because I am no longer interested in looking for them everywhere I go. That is very good because it mean my neediness for others acknowledgement is going down. Interestingly have been getting a lot of random discounts from cashiers girls (like -50% special discounts that cashier can only use for her self). On good side too I have become a little more social and fun, people seem to like me, want to talk to me and are attracted to me more than ever. Have been in few dates with a 10 after long, long pause from dating girls (I guess I had a some sort of fear for them before because I wasn't looking at any of them romantically and only cared for sex).
Dating adventure I had:
Another good thing is lately have been in few dates with hot and cute 10 and she seemed to be head over heals into me. From these few dates definitely noticed that I can generate that kinda "James Bond" sexual vibe even in casual situations. Love the feeling of sparks (or should I call flames?) shooting between our eyes.
In our 3rd date at late evening she brought up the topic about her last boyfriend and how much of a control freak he was to the point he would even allow her to meet her friends. She told me that she wanted a open relationship so she could socialize and flirt as much as she wants, but now she doesn't know what she wants because she really likes me and doesn't want that go to the waste. At that point I kinda got confused because in a long time she was the first girl I considered actually dating. Well now we come to the spot there I fucked up a bit, I have tried to kiss her after few minutes of talking, but she rejected me and told me she doesn't want to hurry. NOW moving to the crazier part is that then we were out of car and saying good bye to each other we locked our eyes and sparks started flying around again. After like 30 seconds of looking into each others eyes and talking I felt she started to tremble and then she pooled me in and gave me a long deep kiss and when saying good bye she told me to text her soon.
Well logic ends here, because after that date she really started playing hard to get, even dodged one meeting we have arranged, started to answer without smiles or sometimes not answer at all (totally different than before). I believe she is playing hard to get because after dodging the meeting later that night she messaged me asking what I am doing and then I answered she cut conversation again
. Few days later I have messaged her again, saying that I should be free in city that day and if she would want to meet, but she told that she is busy and have to pick up a friend from the airport. We exchanged few more messages and then she bluntly cut it again. Right now decided it would be best to just leave her alone and try to play hard to get myself, if she wants to meet she will message me her self or at least let me know she wants to communicate.
Of course any input or advice's from you guys are more than welcome, I always to learn!
Check out Johnny Soporno.
Did you react badly when she mentioned the open relationship?
(03-21-2015, 03:18 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]Check out Johnny Soporno.
Did you react badly when she mentioned the open relationship?
Will check, thank you, would love some good youtube channels of dating (not pua type) that teaches the actual dating and progressing relationship, not how to get laid fast.
No, I have reacted normally, told her that at this stage of my life I am fine with either type of relationship, both have its own pluses and negatives. The only thing I might have shown neediness (would have been vise to wait one more day to tease her) is that I called her next day around 15:00 for a 10min chat instead of messages and asked her how is she feeling after our talk and how her day was.
The medium is the message.
If she's cooling off, you should too which is exactly what you're already doing.
Hows it going with the 10-girl?
(05-04-2015, 01:43 AM)dissonance Wrote: [ -> ]Hows it going with the 10-girl?
Nothing new with her, kinda forgot about her now. I really enjoyed spending time with her and we have really clicked, but I have fucked up being too easy to get. The only thing I try to take out of it is experience and improvement so next time I meet girl I click with I will know what to not to do
By the way now I have started new SM3 journal, more stories there.