@ Lionking
But this exclusivity-honesty issue is what breaks my open/honest/vulnerable "strategy", because that's not something I can be open with right from the get go. So after she gets to see who I am a little better, but the question is: is there a "moral limit" somewhere. I'd bet some would say its before sex, but really I think the getting to know each other only starts after that, when the pressure is off of her. That's the first occasion I think she might have a good feel of what I'm about, when we've typically seen each other 2 or 3 times. "When a relationship starts to form" feels like somewhere after our 2nd or 3rd hookup.
seeing other girls and delaying the actual verbals as long as you can and deflecting the first times she asks it, but I don't like it. I had one girl start to develop feelings for me, and when I told her I'm not looking for a relationship she said she knew that quite well, but that she still somehow made herself believe it might be happening. Haven't seen her since. And this was a girl who saw me with a few other women in clubs and knew our group of guys always talked to girls. Anyway, that creates internal conflict for me and takes the fun out of it.
The way I see it we are vulnerable 24/7 but its more of a do I choose to be more vulnerable. When approaching women it takes a lot of balls man , because your ego can only take so much.
Here is a formula that I came up with while overly thinking at work today ; Intuition - which is a feeling , then you have knowledge which is more of an acceptance thing , and then you have trust which is taking action. At some point in time that formula will pop - up. Its more of hey am I being true to myself and what do I really want ,the thruth starts with you. The relationship is being formed from the get go. if goes forward if doesn't it doesn't .
Stage 3 Day 31/32
The day started with me missing a package I got a new phone. Ultimately my goal was to pay less then 50$ a month but because my phone is used as a laptop / mp3/ kindle//// I decided to invest a little more on a phone so I am only saving $ 20 total . So hopefully I wont miss the package this time. Woke up went to my FWB's house and had a nice time ; she is treating me like a king . Before she treated me like a prince lol . After that not much just work and overly thinking. I was thinking about stage 3 how much I matured. Today I got hit with a nuclear bomb of truth , I can see why people want to stop AM , its very hard to face the truth. So far my conclusion on the SUB is I would definitely recommend AM ; but only to those who sought and are seeking for truth. For example would I tell anyone that I know to use AM , NO. AM is something I worked to find , finding the site alone was something I worked for , also people are very judge mental . My philosophy is you want something go get it yourself and show yourself how bad you want it. Would I recommend AM to someone who is reading the journals and found the site ; the answer is if you want Tormenting truth then yes. Those were some of my thoughts today.
Today is my birthday , yay lol I am not excited about aging. Regardless , I am thinking of getting a tattoo today , I am going to wait and see how the day progresses. After reading more of the new base thread I decided that I am going to wait till next year sometime or maybe the following to use base I am not emotionally ready to start a business. I will proceed with SM3. Although WM is just as tempting. Anyways I have been overly thinking a lot something I didn't use to do , so its a sign the sub is working. I need to PSTEC Negative a couple beliefs I am thinking I fear failure , but how can that be when I decided to step up and take the game winners in pick up basketball. So I don't know I am trying to be truthful to myself and find my fears and anxieties . But there is a lot of things I need to be click tracking and what not so I am going to figure those out. Anyhow That's all for now , when I get to overly thinking I will work on my journal again.
Stage 4 day 7
The day started with me having a dream. I was in a van and there was a cute girl driving and then we hit a stop because another women around 18 to 20 was crossing the road. As she was crossing she stopped and stared into the van slowly approached talked to the girl driving and got in. As the other girl was driving the one who got in the van sat down on me. I was pretty much kool with both of them but the one who sat on me wanted me hardcore and the one driving was saying get her number and attempting to make out with her , almost as if she was jealous.
Other then that I feel pretty good I paid my old circle a visit one guy owes me 500 plus dollars another 100 , I wanted to know if they intend on paying me back so either I dismiss them for good or keep around as genuine friends.
I started singing today lol something like I don't want to hear your bull**** it was funny but I forgot the sequence of the song.
I notice that I watch less tv , listen to music on my terms as in I don't listen to the radio like I use too; I enjoy silence now.
I was thinking about going out tonight idk yet. As far as subs go im leaning towards WM now , I feel like AM has made a bit too serious and I could use more playfulness. My game AKA inner self is more of a sex magnet type so WM would be more of a challenge for me. AS im writing this one of my buddies who owes me the 100$ just called me saying he needs a wingman. I think hes trying to be kool with me again.
I was also thinking on how this subs work , because it seems like people are reading my mind I never understood that. Anywho it seems to motivate those around me as well I noticed my old circle of friends are taking action and doing similar things that will lead to path of alpha.
I was also paying attention to people and their need for control / manipulation funny how that works.
Idk how I feel about relationships anymore , im starting to feel like I used too I just cant be in a full committed relationship maybe I haven't met the right one but yet my other girl could be just that; I was visiting her this past Wednesday and one interesting thing I noticed is how fast she took her clothes off when I meant business that seamed like a record to me I was secretly laughing at that lol.
That's all for now sincerely your friendly neighborhood Jackpot...
Stage 6 ( Last day)
Finally on the last day of am. Overall tremendous growth , I can definitely see how this stage gives you the choice between Wm and Sm. I'm going to take the week break and then on to Sm ; I'm doing a quick post to complete the journal and then a review on my thoughts of Am.
Why not start SM right away? You can do that, no need to breaks. AM later stage preparing you for SM subs. ;-)
dang there's a whole 2 months worth of missing data - mind filling in the gap?
BTW my tattoo philosophy is that if I have the same tattoo idea for more than a year, it may be worth getting. The tattoo on my left shoulder was planned for 6 years and is a part of my culture so it will never become something I don't relate to in the future.
Not like you need a water break in between subs lol. Just take a day. The sooner the better.
@ womanizer. I heard the am6 refresher is powerful you might want to finish of strong with that.
(08-06-2014, 10:17 AM)Womanizer Wrote: [ -> ]About me : I have been doing subs for a while so I see results quickly , previous to this I was doing maximum learning speed so I could learn faster stupid adhd.
Did maximum learning speed help you in any way?
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GlaizenGold777
I read somewhere that you need to wait a week before starting SM OR WM.
@eternitys_child
I get lazy when it comes to posting all the time , plus I wanted to stop monitoring the sub consistently.
@fonzy
are you Portuguese? I wasn't aware I had to do the refresher before starting Sm , I need to check the instructions again ; My first run was pretty solid but I plan on using am for years to come , would like to see AM7 polymorphic results with the testosterone sub in there like a regulator or some HGH suggestions.
@
Dee
Yea maximum learning speed is so underrated. I think Shannon should include maximum learning speed in all the subs ; for the short time I did it I seen results . I also noticed people getting insecure and acting superior towards me , lol talk about insecurity. So if you do it , there will be people trying to one up you lol , but yea its legit. There is so much I need to work on not because I have too but because I want too and the 6 stagers is what im focusing on , but eventually il get to maximum learning speed again.
That's a good idea and no but I get mistaken for one sometimes. 6G is supposed to implement changes very fast.