Ok Stage 1 wrap-up (day 32)
I have become more outspoken and blurted out comments at work I never would have made before. This caused some stifled laughter and wide eye moments but I was agreed with. I've also started building conversations and returning questions, joking with people more, in short being a conversationalist. I am also enjoying chatting to women, not with expectations of dating or shagging but just to get used to conversing with them. It's something I've never really done even in previous relationships which would often be full of awkward silences.
I have also had some blokes giving me the evils again since the club incident. It's like they hate me even though I've never met or had interaction with any of them..weird. Conversely I've noticed a fair few cute women suddenly look away when i've caught them staring at me.
So to summarise stage 1...The effects on me so far are:-
1. Jealousy, insecurity and despondency all now virtually gone (still have the odd relapse but it doesn't stay long. I did have an annoying thought that kept coming up and that was that this was "stage 0"??!! just thought i'd mention it.
2 Big increase in desire for self improvement, clothes, smellies, more showers. Big increase in my daily workout. Junk food intake much reduced ~75% and drinking more fluids, green tea and decaff coffee
3 Can maintain eye contact and have become more sociable and much more assertive. I do get pissed at people having stupid or pointless ideas that affect me or people that don't make effort or are clumsy and although i can tame it i have blurted out opinions i would never have said before. Confidence levels are also much higher.
4 Very positive outlook on life and more appreciation of things generally. Much happier about myself, not the dispondent "life's passing me by and I'm too old to change" attitude
5. Neediness with women much lower. Although i still want the whole female thing it's not a driving force as i can see that there will always be plenty more women around.
6. Urge to fap almost gone,I feel i'm letting myself down if i do it and i'd much rather save it for a beautiful women. I'm enjoying just feeling sexy for a change and my body likes this energy source as i am much more energised and productive
7. Some men give me really threatening stares which i just don't get! A few Women have been staring at me then quickly look away if i catch them.
8. I have developed more appreciation of women in general and not just 'hot babes' But I also feel that a fairly regular turnaround of them in my life is necessary to avoid sameness and boredom. I don't feel at all happy with the idea of the one woman concept and monogomy. Life is about variety and this should be experienced. I'm not talking about being unfaithful to a woman but one relationship at a time
9. I've also lost that tired feeling listening to these subs. Perhaps it's the nofap thing or I'm just getting used to them.
10 The last few days I've gone from feeling great to my previously miserable self and back to feeling great. Saturday was a prime example as i felt miserable and really believed i was wasting my time doing this whole sub thing. I didn't want to do anything let alone socialise and yet Sunday I was strutting around like a celebrity! They are fairly rapid mood swings but i feel alright now and have developed a coolness about me like, "hey check this dude out!"
I can definitely say that stage 1 is a clear out stage. I feel so much better than i did 32 days ago and much happier and positive than i have been in many years
I must admit i didn't think stage 1 would be very noticeable but it really kicked me into touch and gave a me a good shakedown. A prodigious boot camp for the mind! I'm very excited but a bit nervous of what the next 5 stages have in store..Stage 2 starts tomorrow
. I'm just wondering how intense your rush of bliss will be when you realize in the future that having changed your perspective over the world, as you have, opened doors you hadn't known of before.
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