It's time for a quick update. This stage seems to be more difficult than the last one. It's like every second stage feels good and the others do not. Anyway, especially in the first week I had a lot of dreams. I don't remember well, but they dealt all with violence or sexuality. On the one side I experienced something similar to Geodude in with SM3. My sex drive went really up, but at the same time I was pretty indifferent to women. However, it looks like there is some resistance now. I feel a temporary increased neediness and I am often tired in the last days. I also feel a bit depressed. But the real crazy thing is that really many things go wrong no matter what I do. That's really strange. Hope I can pass this "bad luck" and the resistance soon.
I think I have overcome something big. The next 2 - 3 days after the last post were terrible. I didn't feel so bad since stage 1, but now I see an upward trend. I feel pretty confident and sexy again, even if I think there is still a little bit resistance. Now I am facing another problem. I have to take exams and the learning require very much of my conscious brain power and together with the subs it's a bit too much. I think I have to reduce the number of listening hours for a few days and add some days to the end instead. I wonder if Sarge's porn diet would help me to recover my brain chemistry.
The other thing I notice is that I have to think often on doing BAMM, which is really crazy, because: 1. I have not the slightest idea where to get the required sum to buy it (well, maybe I should run attract your perfect wealthy lover instead of SM 3.0
), 2. I even don't have the slightest idea in which direction I should take action to become a millionaire, 3. I always wanted some financial freedom, but I wasn't necessary into the millionaire thing. Maybe AM 6.0 makes me think bigger.
I finished Stage 5 two days ago. There isn't much more to report regarding to Stage 5. After recovering from my depression period I started to be more confident again. The most exciting thing I can report is that I got a date. It was a little bit surprising, because she made the first step. I have been approached in the past but they were usually women I was completely not interested in. That's different now. It's not the woman of my dreams but she is ok and the date was the same - ok. However, we decided to meet again. This is a real progress, because I never got a second date in my whole life. To be honest I prefer not having a long term relationship for now but since I am not even sure if she really wants a LTR I decided to take the second date. Let's see what happens.
Stage 6 is relaxing until now and I feel really good about it. Since yesterday I get more looks from women again. They are even looking at me and smiling if they are with their boyfriends
I am really looking forward to SM3.
Didn't write for a longer time, because there isn't much happened. Few days ago I was tapping on something and realized in the tapping process that one thing holding me back are the (possible) expectation from my family when it comes to how I should be. I was tapping on that a lot, severe layers came to the surface. At the end it was a huge release, I was crying for at least ten minutes but afterwards I felt much better. My confidence level went up and I don't feel bad if I am trying to be how I think I should be. Besides of that I felt at this stage a bit indifferent but I also can feel that this stage is bringing things together.
If that a sadness crying or joy crying thing?
I felt like all the weight on me has been taken away so and I was just grateful about it. So I would say joy.
wow, keep posting about this bro..
i can't wait to buy this product too..
The program is coming to the end, just a few days more. A few days ago I met a buddy for a coffee. We didn't see together for longer now. I was earlier there and while waiting I got some looks from women like so often in earlier past. At a point a women passed me. After passing me she turned her head several times and looked at me. A few minutes later she came back and the way she looked at me was even different. I think I looked that way at women I put on a pedestal in the past. But this time it was like I was the prize. This program is just great! I will write a summary after I finished AM, I think I will do it at the end of next week. I will take a break of 7 - 14 days before I start SM, because I just feel tired last days and I feel like I need the break before I continue.
Oh my GOD I SO want to do the Alpha female now! I didn't read all just that last post but I put gorgeous men on a pedestal at times too, like you used to with some women. I can TOTALLY relate to that though of course some men put ME on a pedestal I think but I want to feel more like you, yes yes yes like I am the prize which I do get at times but I mean by the kind of men that I tend to put on a pedestal, you know? I am very fussy and yet I also feel at times like the kind of men I like are out of my league, even when they are in my life and going out with me!
Well, have a break but it sounds like you have done a lot of work with this program good on you for your self discipline. Awesome journal post to read, anyway.
(08-27-2014, 04:49 AM)Athena Wrote: [ -> ]Oh my GOD I SO want to do the Alpha female now! I didn't read all just that last post but I put gorgeous men on a pedestal at times too, like you used to with some women. I can TOTALLY relate to that though of course some men put ME on a pedestal I think but I want to feel more like you, yes yes yes like I am the prize which I do get at times but I mean by the kind of men that I tend to put on a pedestal, you know? I am very fussy and yet I also feel at times like the kind of men I like are out of my league, even when they are in my life and going out with me!
Well, have a break but it sounds like you have done a lot of work with this program good on you for your self discipline. Awesome journal post to read, anyway.
Thank you. Some stages were hard, (especially stage 1), some were cool and fun, like stage 4 and 2. I must say it was the first time a woman looked at me that way. The other women usually looked flirtatious or just friendly which was really cool, too. But this time it was really a new level. I was reading your journal and it seems like you are going your way. Just keep going.
After adding two additional days I finished AM6. In the last few days I was thinking a lot about my life, how it is, how it should be, etc. It's like I getting a bigger picture. I also feel that my focus is shifting. Before AM6 sex and women were the most important thing for me to improve. And before doing AM I already realized that personal development is the foundation for all additional stuff. I am still going to do SM3 in few days, because it's an area in my life that really needs a lot of improvement, but now the other things like career, money (and even social contacts to some degree) became almost as important as women and sex are. I am thinking a lot about doing BASE or even BAMM after SM. I don't know how I can get the required money (especially if I am really going to do BAMM), but I think I will find a way when the time comes. Due to SM I have a half year to figure it out. In a few days I will post a detailed summary.
Nice. I can relate to this. I've started looking at BASE too. I almost feel like I'm slowly getting old and I need to hit my money goals already.
Well, I don't know how old are you but I am already playing in the 30+ league so it's a good time to go for the money goals, too.
Here we go. Did AM6 has some impact on me? Yes, it had. Am I the ultimate alpha now? Probably not. Why? I already mentioned somewhere that I come from a point far below an average guy, so change take time. I think two more runs will do the trick. But it doesn't lower the results I got. My confidence and social comfort went up, the fears and neediness went down. Now I am usually able to make and maintain eye contact, even with good looking women, I am able to smile at them (and often get a smile back). I feel more relaxed in social environments, my body language has improved. I went from a point where getting women (I even would have been happy with A woman) was the only thing I could think of to the point where other areas of my life became almost as important as women. I went from a point not wanting to be a millionaire and not wanting to become an entrepreneur (because I feared the risk and responsibility) to really considering it. To be honest, if someone had told me about 1,5 - 2 years ago that I spend $500 for a subliminal program, I would have laughed him out. But now I think it was the most important purchase I have made regarding my own development.
I rated the points in the list based on the initial state I was in, not on the state I think it could be possible. But like I said I am still seeing room for improvement in almost all areas. So here comes the list:
• Increased self confidence
- Yes
• Increased self respect.
- Yes
• Better self control.
- I am buying less useless stuff I would say there is an improvement in these terms. When it comes to things like beating up some guys or so I never was like that.
• Little to no interest in and concern with what others think of you or your actions.
- Definitely less interest than before
• More interest and comfort in being your own man and doing your own thing.
- Yes
• Better self esteem.
- Yes
• Better self image.
- Yes, some positive changes here
• Stronger sense of self.
- Not sure what does it exactly mean compared to self esteem, self image and confidence so hard to rate how it changed
• Being able to handle rejection without taking it personally.
- Didn't have many occasions to test it, but as far I can tell I had some improvement here
• More social confidence.
- Yes, but it's one of the points where I am seeing a lot room for improvement
• Less to no social anxiety.
- Less anxiety, but here the same like the point above
• Enjoying socializing more.
- Yes, but like the other social parts it can be improved
• Much more confidence and relaxation when dealing with women in general, and especially those you find attractive.
- Yes, I feel better here
• Willingness, confidence and ability to simply walk away from situations you don’t like.
- I am not sure I had such a situation where I would have stayed in before
• Refusal to allow yourself to be taken advantage of, walked on or treated poorly by anyone, but especially females.
- I got one situation in mind I definitely solved different than I would have before. Besides of that I don't remember women or people in general treated me poorly
• Alpha/Dominant male body language.
- Yes, much better bodylanguage
• Alpha/Dominant male attitude.
- I am not sure what male attitude is really about, so hard to tell. But if it means that people respect me more so yes. Had situations where (male) people excuses themselves just for touching me accidentally. And people usually walk out of my way (which was completely opposite before)
• Alpha/Dominant male “aura” of unexplainable sexual attractiveness that women love so much.
- Yes, much more women look at me and smile. Especially at stage 5 some made body contact without any logical reason for.
• Alpha/Dominant male eye contact and communication.
- Eye contact is much better, when it comes to communication I just can tell I feel like people respect me more if I talk to them and more people ask me for advice than before.
• Better, more easily expressed sense of humor.
- Don't know
• Enjoying the company of others, and especially beautiful women, more and more comfortably and easily.
- Yes
• More beautiful women in your life.
- Besides of those who make eye contact and smiling at me in the city there is no change in my personal life
• Having beautiful women notice you more, find you more attractive, and want to be with you more, physically, sexually, relationally and emotionally. (In other words, they’ll want to spend more time around you, be much more likely to want you as a boyfriend/lover/husband, and be more interested in you both sexually and emotionally.)
- Yes, they notice me more, but besides of that I don't know what they think or feel, because I just didn't talk to them
• Treating socializing as just a fun game.
- I wouldn't say it's a fun game, but I enjoy it more
• Being entirely unconcerned with getting the interest of any woman, because you know there are plenty more where she came from.
- Not entirely, but I have lost really much of neediness compared to before
• Refusing to allow females to dominate or control you.
- Didn't have such a situation, so I can't rate
• Taking care of yourself better, in terms of exercise, eating, hygiene and dress.
- Yes
• Drastically reduced or completely destroyed neediness.
- Significantly reduced
• Having purged and overcome a significant amount of guilt, shame and
fear.
- Yes
• Having become more mature as a man.
- Yes
• Having made significant progress healing and growing past emotional traumas and issues.
- As far I can tell, yes
So it looks like my result is pretty good. I was thinking about the reason why I had such a good impact and I found a statement from Shannon in his journal where he tells that subs works usually pretty good on water signs (I am cancer). Maybe it's one reason. Maybe I was just ready for some changes, because before AM6 I really didn't like myself and my life like it was anymore. Now I am seeing it much more positive again. I am planning to start SM3 on Friday. I hope it helps me to get the women/sex thing handled. So far.