(07-19-2014, 07:32 AM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ] (02-02-2014, 07:17 PM)Benjamin Wrote: [ -> ]Maybe she meant another kind of ATM hahahha. I'm not sure if anyone will get the reference.
Mmmm... lol, hope so.
EDIT: Woah! How'd you get such good results? What's your secret?
Regarding the ATM girl, I have to say again: That was a superclass girl, absolutely stunning, the type that never ever would even look at me or even talk to me. I have always been like a ghost for them, someone to ignore or be a means to an end (other guys). That scene was beyond ridiculous, because it a) happened and b) the big contrast in feeling. Earlier in my life I would just mentally collapse and be hard on myself for a long time when being ignored and now I was not nervous at all, told her what she wanted to know, and got on with a more important thing (my life). I didn't care about her at all. I think that's where the sub really delivered.
Good results:
I think I may have gotten my results, because I attacked and eliminated a lot of negative feelings and memories during the last months. A lot of people do similar things on the forum by tapping or other methodologies.
I'm back from the festivity I have been, which I chose as a test platform, because that is where I wasn't able to go over ten years ago, because the anxiety was too intense. I never tried it again.
Ok. I was able to go there. That's big. Because of a lot of negative memories are and were connected with it.
I experienced not nearly the bad feeling I had back then. I felt sometimes a bit out of place, but it's not too bad. I can tackle that rest of anxiety with other methods. I think without NSFM it would have been worse, but it was ok. Women are definitely staring at me, usually from about 30-50 m away and seek eye contact, which is weird.
The last days I have been busy thinking about what to do next. I listed my options, made plans and checked which actions would be the most profitable for me. I have some great ideas in the realm of computer science, which needs further study and research, but if doable, should be profitable. However there are alternative routes that have appeared via people I know.
Cool. Do you think you felt out of place because you weren't in the "place" of being anxious?
(07-19-2014, 02:54 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]Cool. Do you think you felt out of place because you weren't in the "place" of being anxious?
Something like that, yes. I think I had the picture in mind that usually triggered the feeling, but because it wasn't there or not as intense as before I was somehow "fishing" for the feeling.
did u 'manifest an improved circle of friends, so that the friends u manifest are genuine, long term friends who will help you for the long haul, instead of stabbing you in the back'?
thanks
(07-21-2014, 03:29 AM)Hold007 Wrote: [ -> ]did u 'manifest an improved circle of friends, so that the friends u manifest are genuine, long term friends who will help you for the long haul, instead of stabbing you in the back'?
thanks
No, I did not.
I'm undecided, but determined doing another sub.
So the next days I have to decide on my next sub. I don't want to waste more than 2 weeks to do the next sub.
Let's say, the new BASE sub takes up to 6-8 weeks building (because of all the suggestions that have to be worked into it), then I'd rather be on stage 1 or 2 of the new sub (WM/SM) already at that time and I have only 4 months to wait for using BASE finally. Also, there would be the first journals online and I would know what to expect of it.
Another option would be the Fonzy-Experiment, doing NSFM longterm. I know that I would feel awesome all the time, but I am really unsure, whether that would help me. I'd like to wait what happens in Fonzy's life first. Currently it looks good.
Yet another option would be BAMM. But something is holding me back, maybe it's that I really don't know what to expect of it other than Millions (maybe). What happens to my personality and other aspects of my life? Is it better for me running that for years instead of doing AM/SM/WM/BASE for the next years? Would another 2 runs of AM6 be a killer workout? And in the end do I just feel as good as using NSFM for an hour? ;-)
I experimented with NSFM for few days in the last two weeks and it has been great.
I let the programming from AM6 settle a little bit and found that there is a lot of calmness there as a result of the last 6 months. I encountered a lot of beautiful women in stores etc. and apparently made a huge impression on them, but I just did not care. First thing is, what do I want to do, and the rest will crystallize around it.
My next sub is SM3. I'll do another journal for it.