(09-24-2012, 01:04 AM)Tiesto Wrote: [ -> ]Looking forward to join the rank of Indigo MindLabs' Alpha Team under the guidance of Commander Shannon L. Matteson. 
Alpha Team? A-Team! Yeah! I pity the fool who ain't no Alpha.
Shannon, if you could recall, do you remember which stage of AM 5.0 begin implementing the 'Everything is Possible' and 'Seek The Challenge' programming?
EIP starts in Stage 1. STC programming begins in either 1 or 2.
(10-01-2012, 12:39 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]EIP starts in Stage 1. STC programming begins in either 1 or 2.
That is excellent! Hitting it that early is just what I need.
(09-23-2012, 12:59 AM)Tiesto Wrote: [ -> ]Today I had a talk with my cousin, he just came back from Australia, he opens up his own business there as a Leadership and Success Coach, I had quite an amazing discussion with him and he opened my eyes and help me to see a lot of my flaws. Too bad I couldn't get a hold of him for too long because he has a lot of clients to take care of.
From our short meeting I realized more and more that I think too much, this cause me to be:
1. Indecisive.
2. Creating a lot of self doubts.
3. Getting affected by a lot of negativity from others.
4. Wanting to do so many things and end up getting confused what and where I should go first.
5. Waiting the right opportunity to come.
I realized that I have to make these changes within myself:
1. To be a quick decision maker, to follow through with my decision with 100% commitment regardless with what will happened.
2. Stop over thinking things which will lead to more self doubts.
3. To be able to see things as they are without attaching negative connotation to it.
4. Feel the fear and take action anyway, and constantly improving from my mistakes.
5. To realized there is no certainty, there is no right opportunity, the right opportunity is what I make it to be, so I should stop waiting for the right opportunity to arrive, and deal with whatever is in front of me first, while at the same never lose sight of my ultimate goal.
I'm sure there are plenty more flaws I haven't realized yet at this moment, and but just from this list alone is already very frustrating to me, and it is even scarier for me to make the necessary steps to create the changes I need to change. Right now I'm just feeling overwhelmed and overloaded with self realization, a lot of anxiety coming up from having to take the necessary steps to take me into unknown territory far from my comfort zone.
I am now becoming more and more convinced that the right subliminal I should pick to support me in this journey is AM 5.0, AM deals with all these problems I have and more, when it comes to subs I'm going to stop thinking about what subs I should use anymore, and now I will fully focus on just using AM 5.0, and that's it. If I think about it any longer, I will become confuse and indecisive again, so no more thinking which subs to use, I set my mind on it.
I also have some exercises to do given by my cousin, which is to practice to make 10 quick decision everyday, just do it and follow through no matter what happens, so I will this do also. Another exercise I will do is prioritizing, choosing 5 most important priorities in a week and "JUST DO IT" without thinking and talking myself out of it. Seems like a simple exercise but turns out not to be so easy for me, but like any exercise the more I do it and do it properly, the better I will get.
So much fear and anxiety I'm feeling at the moment, the strategy I will take to face this is to remind myself that I don't need to do everything all at once, learning to take small steps bit by bit everyday, and build my confidence as I go along.
This post will also be a reminder for me that this is what I have to do first.
I'm also nearing the end of my 6 months of BASE 3G, and I haven't felt many of the statements internalized yet, which I'm sure due to resistance, but it's alright, since now I know what is the next step to take. Starting next month it will be AM 5.0 journey for me, and from my previous experience I know that 4G subs works me (ASC), and AM is one the most powerful 4G subs there is, I'm confident that AM 5.0 will be able to support me in the right direction.
I also catch myself doing the above things. Those are some of the reasons I'm going through Alpha now.
(10-11-2012, 06:35 AM)rayrocanaldo Wrote: [ -> ]I also catch myself doing the above things. Those are some of the reasons I'm going through Alpha now.
I think AM 5.0 is very powerful, I haven't been on it for too long, but I'm starting to feel it's making changes and pushing me to do things I don't want to do, at the same time I feel like I just want to be left alone, always looking for quiet empty place where no one is around, I want my solitude.. I'm getting strong urges to achieve my independence never relying on other people, and truly become my own man even if I have to pay the price with pain and suffering.. I never had any other subs even 4G subs hit me this quickly, I can't imagine AM in 5G/HST/SOS, I just feel it's going to be awesome!
Aggression also been increasing.. I also don't feel like making a journal for Alpha, I don't know why... The effect is like a rollercoaster going up and down, what I feel today will change tomorrow, and change again the day after tomorrow, I'll probably just do a summary at the end of each stage or after the entire 6 stages when the changes are final...
I've also been trying shift my focus when I'm suffering, I shift my focus on the benefits that I get from the pain, instead of the pain itself.. Nowadays I'll try to remind myself I'm grateful for all the hardship I'm going through, because it will make me powerful mentally and emotionally.. Just like during hard physical training, the more harder the training is, the more painful it usually become, but at the end of the day I'll always level up, and be a stronger person, I try to remind myself all these hardship in life is actually the same thing, now I'm grateful the more hardship and pain that I experienced I become happier, because I know I'm going to go up to the next level of mental and emotional strength, not to mention more maturity as well..
I remember I read a quote once about coal and diamonds, I can't remember exactly what was the exact quote, but the point is coal is created from weak pressure, while diamonds formed from super mega intense pressure... All these pain and suffering is awesome, because I'm creating a diamond!
Bro, I know what you mean. I've noticed that when using subs for a long period of time there's always that tough, initial stage where everything just sucks. But as you said, that pain and hardship makes us stronger and once it's over we're much stronger than we were and become better.
The Alpha Set is a long journey but you will LOVE how you feel after you finish.
I like your diamond metaphor, Tiesto! It kicks assssss!!!
(10-11-2012, 08:34 AM)Tiesto Wrote: [ -> ]I remember I read a quote once about coal and diamonds, I can't remember exactly what was the exact quote, but the point is coal is created from weak pressure, while diamonds formed from super mega intense pressure... All these pain and suffering is awesome, because I'm creating a diamond!
Lol, it's my sig. Love that quote.
(10-11-2012, 09:56 AM)K-Train Wrote: [ -> ]Bro, I know what you mean. I've noticed that when using subs for a long period of time there's always that tough, initial stage where everything just sucks. But as you said, that pain and hardship makes us stronger and once it's over we're much stronger than we were and become better.
The Alpha Set is a long journey but you will LOVE how you feel after you finish.
Thanks bro! I can't imagine what it will be like after completing the Alpha Set, AM fixes us up in so many ways, that it will probably feel pretty surreal making such a drastic change and become a new person in just 6 months.