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I couldn't resist the urge to try this since it include stuff like ultra success and PRA, besides, it seems a few titles include brain optimizer or will include it so i can resume once all of this is done.

To understand my background and current situation i will elaborate further on some things: 

1. I don't give a damn about terms like masculinity or femininity, if someone try to talk me about those topics or woke shit like that i immediately leave the chat, men are men and women are women, simple as that. 
2. I am most aligned with the description of ascendant male as i don't give a fuck about pretty much everything regarding social status or how i am perceived, i prefer my stuff to remain a secret if possible though i don't see much of an issue either, unless something can be used against me, that said, my social life is almost non existent besides business, doesn't mean i can't maintain conversation but my answers are pretty much short and value way more interacting with a single person instead of groups of people.
3. I'm pragmatic as humanly possible, i like efficiency more than anything, so don't expect me to challenge myself or shit like that, that said, it doesn't mean i'm a machine that only speak productivity language, in fact something i detest most about jobs is having to work more for pennies, so don't expect me to write stuff about having to get better and work more, rest is as important as breathing and do nothing sometimes is more rewarding.
4. If i avoid responsibility is because i'm pretty much tired and saturated from living, i mean, life is already hard in every way and sometimes i just want a rest from everything.
5. My life, my rules, i'm stubborn as hell with this.
 
So far the first days i woke up as if a sergeant was barking to my ears. 

I'm able to keep my intrusive thoughts at bay, kind of ¡stop daydreaming corporal! and whipping my ass to move. For some reason i got more energy.

And for some reason i can't stand watching videos of people speaking anymore, that's kind of intriguing.
Welcome to the train fam. It's great to see hard boiled journal. Keep em coming. Good luck.
Thanks! Good luck for you as well.
I always knew i was on survival mode, meaning i tend to toughen up emotionally most of the time, AAM is just reminding me how it was to live without hardening myself and i find it quite difficult to put into practice, thanks to decades on survival mode, as usual my body reflects my own discomfort but thankfully it's just my swollen gums, i wonder why the hell that part always react like that to extreme hardcore emotional healing stuff, at least the pain i'm getting this time is minimum.

The last few days i've been watching less and less my usual entertainment, don't feel like watching anymore, instead i'm feeling this urge to engage on more dinamic activities, i'm not a sports person so that's out the question, perhaps some fencing as i like swords and i find it very attractive, talking about attractive, i'm starting to crave women as well, at least the part of me that tells me most of them only want my wallet is not bothering me, perhaps i just need to give myself a chance to open more to others and stop expecting them to stab me on the back.