Hi Everyone,
A lot has changed since 2020. Things Got so bad that my siblings actually said that I have turned , needy, pessimistic and unreliable. We live in same house but no one actually talks to me or come into my room.
Tbh alot has happened waves of emotional chaos came in my family towards my siblings but I as the eldest one … Took as much as possible. Until the end .
Now I am broken Mentally and Emotionally. I can keep on venting, but things won’t change. I was on so much high vibration vibe. Now I am on so Low.
All I can say Fear amplified so much that I started having chest pain … Started when siblings started to cut me out …
Anyway I have been on ASR-5.9G 3 loops and it’s making me better …
Sounds like you may need to find a different living situation. Are you at an age where that is possible?
(12-23-2024, 12:26 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]Sounds like you may need to find a different living situation. Are you at an age where that is possible?
Not Possible right now but tbh..I was the causing all the problems. She has her own issue and what I was unconsciously doing was dumping my problems on her. My OCD and Anxiety were off charts.
I am on
Effexor-225mg
Luvox-100mg
Seroquel-25mg
Ritalin-20mg
and some sos benzo but I am needing them much less now
I am listening to this on loop 12 loops 6 PM-6AM everyday. Now You might be wondering why well because its working and I am also noticing changes. OCD and Depressive Thoughts are decreased. Noises and Doorbells dont bother me anymore. My theory is Simple--No matter what the Mental Issue or Disorder I or anyone is going thru...OCD, ADHD, Severe Anxiety or stuff like what insecurities and shame...Fear is what causes all of that. I choose ASR-5.9G cause I was thinking and stressing about thing so so much that for past 2 months I was in bed just thinking about removing myself from this existance. I stressed so much that I started lossing my hair and stopped taking care of myself...Well things are now getting better. I am slowly learning to let things go and stop blaming myslef for all the things which were out of my control....This Sub is Awesome. Dont ask how long I am gonna listen to cause I have no intention of chasing another sub infact I dont have any intention to chase anything no FOMO...I am done.. .I can finally dream.
Seroquel
I'm glad to hear you found something that is working for you, but... what are you going to do when I upgrade that title in 6G? lol
Just out of curiosity, what other titles have you used to try to help with all this?
And do you have a support system for dealing with it?
(01-20-2025, 10:20 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]I'm glad to hear you found something that is working for you, but... what are you going to do when I upgrade that title in 6G? lol
Just out of curiosity, what other titles have you used to try to help with all this?
And do you have a support system for dealing with it?
Tbh Idk what I am going to do when 6G arrives. Time will tell.
I have use E3 and and OF-5G and Tbh it just backfired. I mean Its like my brain wont accept it anymore and I was causing chaos. I started losing interest in everything after bearing 3 years of Trauma.....Its like I was falling and I was slowly turning immature. I didnt know how to stand up. Its like I was mentally Paralysed.
I got a support system I have a Therapist(But I just feel exhausted thinking that I have to go so far to his office just to vent out stuff.) and My Doctor. I really dont want to stay on Anti-Depressant forever but maybe I have to..cause I loose my shit when trying to come off them...
It would seem that E3 and 5G OF weren't advanced enough to be very helpful for you. I'm glad you have a support system in a therapist and doctor, though.
Reasons for needing anti-depressants are different for everyone, but for me, it was my diet. In my case I am sensitive to the balance of carbs to protein rattio I ingest. Too much carbs and I start feeling depressed. I can always tell by eating an egg. If it goes away half an hour after that, I've gotten out of balance again, and I need to reassess my diet.
I tell you this in case it's helpful, but don't assume that's your core reason also.
(01-23-2025, 08:00 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]It would seem that E3 and 5G OF weren't advanced enough to be very helpful for you. I'm glad you have a support system in a therapist and doctor, though.
Reasons for needing anti-depressants are different for everyone, but for me, it was my diet. In my case I am sensitive to the balance of carbs to protein rattio I ingest. Too much carbs and I start feeling depressed. I can always tell by eating an egg. If it goes away half an hour after that, I've gotten out of balance again, and I need to reassess my diet.
I tell you this in case it's helpful, but don't assume that's your core reason also.
Shannon right now the only thing I can do is to thank you.. Your Subliminal did transform me into something….They did a wonderful job at keep me in check but tbh …I just don’t know what to do .. Trauma really has fcuked me up …I really wish I could fix this …Idk why I feel as if life is over ..Cause my brain won’t function properly..I am just living one day at a time ..