11-02-2024, 05:09 PM
Something I've noticed:
It always feels the strongest when I wake up in the morning or when I wake up from a nap. Now I'm not gonna lie: it's partially because when I go to sleep for the night, I go to sleep listening to DMSI, but even on days where I played it throughout the day, or when I take a nap later, that's the case. I feel the energy, I feel the lust and horniness and my thoughts get INCREDIBLY sexual, even without morning wood or touching myself.
That aside, I was listening to something on YouTube yesterday where someone was saying that one of the key things that makes or breaks manifestation chances is acting as if one already has it. I realized that when you have a messy pig sty of an apartment and you consume bitter internet content, you send yourself the message you're not that guy and you don't love yourself or feel you're worth the effort or energy just sitting there caving into your addictions all day. So when I got home, I took a nap it then woke up and instead of getting on my PC, started cleaning.I have not finished all my cleaning, but I got a lot done today and got my stuff packed before heading in to Florida.
I feel I'm making necessary changes to my mindset, my lifestyle and other things that make a big difference.
I'm starting to get out of my own way finally.
That said, one blockage I have is that there's a tug of war going on between my execution of the goals of the program on one hand and my beliefs about promiscuity and desire for a real romantic relationship on the other.
Before using an A/MYPRL sub I figured I'd take some time to experience being a sex magnet first.
I think it's cause for so long, I've had ugly duckling syndrome and some deep seated self esteem issues that made me wanna feel like I'm "that guy" you know? But as I work on those issues (with the help of this program) I find myself wondering: Do I need to be that guy? Does it really matter?
Also after having my realization regarding how one treats oneself yesterday I found myself online at some point in the day today, on FB just sharing memes and responding to peoples' posts. I found myself today giving wise advice to people, connecting the dots between what I'm telling them and what I myself need to do, like, take my own advice.
One of which being "Focus only on the people that do shit for you, don't give anyone attention in any way who doesn't deserve it." Not even thinking about them or watching content that talks shit about them.
Another being to stop focusing on shit that displeases you, just have fun and focus on what makes you happy. Be grateful for shit and focus on what's worthy of gratitude. After all, the kind of woman I would want would be someone who matches that kind of love and positivity. As would any guy living the kind of life I want to manifest in general.
I do just wanna be the kind of person who just has fun and has faith, you know? I'ma try to do that.
I just have sexual hangups I guess, getting in the way of things. A sense of shame regarding promiscuous behavior. I worry that kind of behavior would make me weak, because it lacks discipline. Also, worries about energetic entanglements. "Nevee have sex with anyone you wouldn't want to become more like" I would say. Mixing one's energy with people who have a toxic or unhealthy energy to them is kind of a worry.
I always said to myself "that's easy to say if you ain't drowning in opportunities for pussy" Now that I got this, I wonder if it's a crisis of integrity or just my ego finding a clever way to cockblock me from executing the goals of the program?
I figure it's at least partially the latter.
It always feels the strongest when I wake up in the morning or when I wake up from a nap. Now I'm not gonna lie: it's partially because when I go to sleep for the night, I go to sleep listening to DMSI, but even on days where I played it throughout the day, or when I take a nap later, that's the case. I feel the energy, I feel the lust and horniness and my thoughts get INCREDIBLY sexual, even without morning wood or touching myself.
That aside, I was listening to something on YouTube yesterday where someone was saying that one of the key things that makes or breaks manifestation chances is acting as if one already has it. I realized that when you have a messy pig sty of an apartment and you consume bitter internet content, you send yourself the message you're not that guy and you don't love yourself or feel you're worth the effort or energy just sitting there caving into your addictions all day. So when I got home, I took a nap it then woke up and instead of getting on my PC, started cleaning.I have not finished all my cleaning, but I got a lot done today and got my stuff packed before heading in to Florida.
I feel I'm making necessary changes to my mindset, my lifestyle and other things that make a big difference.
I'm starting to get out of my own way finally.
That said, one blockage I have is that there's a tug of war going on between my execution of the goals of the program on one hand and my beliefs about promiscuity and desire for a real romantic relationship on the other.
Before using an A/MYPRL sub I figured I'd take some time to experience being a sex magnet first.
I think it's cause for so long, I've had ugly duckling syndrome and some deep seated self esteem issues that made me wanna feel like I'm "that guy" you know? But as I work on those issues (with the help of this program) I find myself wondering: Do I need to be that guy? Does it really matter?
Also after having my realization regarding how one treats oneself yesterday I found myself online at some point in the day today, on FB just sharing memes and responding to peoples' posts. I found myself today giving wise advice to people, connecting the dots between what I'm telling them and what I myself need to do, like, take my own advice.
One of which being "Focus only on the people that do shit for you, don't give anyone attention in any way who doesn't deserve it." Not even thinking about them or watching content that talks shit about them.
Another being to stop focusing on shit that displeases you, just have fun and focus on what makes you happy. Be grateful for shit and focus on what's worthy of gratitude. After all, the kind of woman I would want would be someone who matches that kind of love and positivity. As would any guy living the kind of life I want to manifest in general.
I do just wanna be the kind of person who just has fun and has faith, you know? I'ma try to do that.
I just have sexual hangups I guess, getting in the way of things. A sense of shame regarding promiscuous behavior. I worry that kind of behavior would make me weak, because it lacks discipline. Also, worries about energetic entanglements. "Nevee have sex with anyone you wouldn't want to become more like" I would say. Mixing one's energy with people who have a toxic or unhealthy energy to them is kind of a worry.
I always said to myself "that's easy to say if you ain't drowning in opportunities for pussy" Now that I got this, I wonder if it's a crisis of integrity or just my ego finding a clever way to cockblock me from executing the goals of the program?
I figure it's at least partially the latter.