Working on that audition repertoire. It's not exactly easy but I'm enjoying myself. I think I should be able to do well, given two weeks to prepare.
I'm regularly getting very long, involved dreams now, related to lots of things at the same time. The program appears to be working just fine and I'm getting less uppity uppitiness from my resistant parts which makes my life easier. Granted, I had to go for high volume (13/15) hybrid with more loops than prescribed, but I don't mind. The only side effect I can see is that I get really sleepy every now and again, and could easily sleep 10 hours in a row when I'm snoozing.
Ooof, preparing for two auditions at the same time with extremely varied repertoires (one's like, a Mozart chorus and a baroque aria, the other's Berg and Wagner, lol) on short notice is making my brain all tired. I'm totally taking a couple of days off from singing after I'm done with this stuff this week.
Went to a very nice party last Saturday, my mojo is returning. Currently also fliritng with a girl I met through a dating app as well.
Had some wonky healing dreams recently, as per usual. Apart from being tired I'm feeling relatively good, so there's that.
So I went to one choir-job audition, it went well but then a friend reported to me that a dude who works there infromed him that the auditions were a sham - they have to do public auditions because it's a publically-funded institution, but the outcome was predetermined and they hired some buds of the new conductor or whatever, lol. Helllooooo, nepotism, lawl. At least the opera's director invited me to be buddies with her on linkedIn, haha.
But, the other auditions I've been preparing for have extended the deadline by two weeks, so I'm still working on that stuff. Should be finished with it by Saturday and I can't wait, could use some rest.
I do feel somewhat physically exhausted due to overpracticing a touch maybe, but that's been known to happen with demanding repertoire, heh. Gotta keep reminding myself to not pratice for more than an hour per day, I guess!
Anyway, I was feeling pretty good, then wonky sensations started kicking in again and were there for a couple of days, but they've passed now. This has been happening every now and again on these healing programs.
Can't wait to be done with them and switch to something that's not healing-oriented. Two more months to go!
Been socializing a bit here and there. A friend from that "peer support" course asked me to attend the psych-ward she's been working at and give a little talk to the patients there, went there today, it was pretty fun, they seemed happy with the talk and everything, so there's that.
Ooomph, finished up that audition recording and sent it out. Since I have overpracticed a touch I'm not really all that satisfied with the result (I could have done a much better job had I not been exhausted) but eh, hopefully it'll be enough to get my foot in the door. Glad to be moving on to other things as well. So I'll be resting up a couple of days and proceeding further.
Anyway, the healing subs are still doing their healing work. I'm still getting depressive responses to them (especially while actively listening to the program and then for a couple of hours after I stop listening) but they're less pronounced. Two more months to go! That'll be nearly a full year on healing programs, heh. I'll sure be glad to move on to something else! (Gonna give OED another shot, and then it'll probably by USLMaxx unless something new comes out in the interim I'd like to run).
My libido is gradually improving, methink. I like it. I might be fapping a bit too much due to that, I guess, but I don't mind, kinda glad my sex drive is on an upswing, TBH.
A friend from that "peer support" course asked me and another dude to come visit the psych ward she currently works at to give a little talk to the patients there and the peeps were pretty enthusiastic for some time after (most of them, at least). It was interesting. The friend reported afterward the ward psychologist had group with them later that day and she said she's not yet seen her patients in such good spirits and so talkative, so good job, us, I guess!
By the by, I kinda forgot to mention that about a month-and-change ago I decided to do one more month (or thereabouts) of EHPRA v6 because I felt like some stuff that kept repeteadly cropping up fell outside the scope of OGSF. And it was a pretty good decision, I think, after two weeks things started getting unpleasant, but now it seems that some more important stuff got resolved (got some very indicative dreams) and I continue feeling better and I'm not getting, let's call it, "internal turmoil". I'm planning to stick with EHPRA v6 until the new year and then it's back to OGSF.
So the reports from last two months are more EHPRA-related than OGSF related, heh. Since about, I think, November 7th?
Funnily enough, I visited my crazy parents for the holidays and me crazy mum is like, "oh, what's that stream playing? It's very pleasant" and now she's kinda following me about while I'm listening (which is a bit annoying)
Back to OGSF. EHPRA was still working on something (like, school recollections mixed with music and sports..? Wonky dreams) but I guess it's time to go back to working on GSF proper. Feels way different, I'm even getting slight feelings of being "on edge" (I wouldn't call it anxiousness per se, more like - after you're through a situation of perceived danger and your nervous system is still running on high adrenaline/generating cortisol? Something like that) and a touch of maybe a headache, but it comes and it goes.
It also feels like it's started working on more recent experiences than "way back" experiences.
I changed the thread title as I'll probably be keeping one general journal here from here on out, as I feel less of a need to post and such so I won't be doing it as often and feel there's no need to spam the forum with threads.
So I finished my OGSF v2 run and am now running OED 5.11G again. Currently it's working in a "slow and steady wins the race" way, as I can see improvements in erecticle quality and lessened stress related to maintaining such, but the effect isn't yet as radical as it was for the first two weeks when I was running it last year (it's been nearly a full year on EHPRA and OGSF, heh!).
I will also be using the 6G DRS, even though OED is 5.11G and has the NDRS, because I'm kinda tired of how much more in-life effort and work I have to keep putting into detonating various energy attacks and undue influences. So I willl probably be running the DRS 6G whenever I'll be going out to social gatherings/auditions/protests and the like for 2 loops, and then I'll be returning to OED 5.11G for the night/rest of the day. I already posted a bit of feedback in Shannon's Journal Discussion regarding DRS 6G and don't have much new to say about it yet.
Oh, my bad, I actually *do* have something new to say about DRS 6G. Decent people appear to be liking me/cchatting me up more and treating me with more respect, not-so-decent people appear to be trying to test my boundaries a little bit more. We'll see how this develops.
From my current observations, it would seem that DRS 6G is also way more effective than earlier versions against people who try to influence you negatively by proxy (f. in. through rumours, slander and the like). Awesomeness!!!! Hopefully this will keep up as I keep using it.
OED 5.11G seems to be doing its job as well, although it gets put way on the backburner when I use the 6G DRS.
(02-04-2025, 10:11 PM)Have at ye Wrote: [ -> ]From my current observations, it would seem that DRS 6G is also way more effective than earlier versions against people who try to influence you negatively by proxy (f. in. through rumours, slander and the like). Awesomeness!!!! Hopefully this will keep up as I keep using it.
OED 5.11G seems to be doing its job as well, although it gets put way on the backburner when I use the 6G DRS.
I was hoping you'd drop some gems on DRS 6G and you didn't disappoint man. That's great stuff to hear! So with the negativity by proxy are you finding that the rumors are shutdown quicker and/or are you finding the individuals spread those rumors seem to distance themselves from you more?
For now I'm noticing that people who would be normally influenced in some way by such are not being influenced anymore.
Darn it, I'm experiencing so much very needed *relief* and *peace of mind* when using DRS 6G that I'm kinda wondering whether I should just switch to the nearest 6G release ASAP.
But on the other hand, I really want to use OED because it's a pesky little issue and it's made my sex life unpleasant at times. And it's triggering anger responses in some poeple, f. in. my psycho ex (and I'm not using this term lightly) and her, as that - also very much psycho - fellow Vaknin terms them, "flying monkeys" (I call such people "przydupasy"
), which makes them energy attack me heavily.
Now it's a conundrum what to do. Because I assume it's gonna be quite some time before OED 6G is released.