Subliminal Talk

Current schedule:
4 days ON/ 2 days OFF. 5 loops Ultrasonic per day.

I was looking over my history of IML subliminal, and the duration I ran for each. I realised that I’ve been hopping quite a bit from one sub to another. The only subs that I ran for the complete recommended months are AM6 and OGSF.

I will the mindful from now on to listen to a sub for the full recommended amount of time. E5 should be run for 8 months.

Alternating between days filled with apathy and days where I feel more happy, more at peace. Memories, events that have hurt me in the past, come to memory for brief moments, then they disappear.

Things I need to work on:

• stop telling little lies. I have a bad habit of compulsive lying and omission
  
• become more assertive in expressing my needs and desires in a relationship 
  
• Become more honest with others and stay true to my word as a man. I think this is an important quality a mature man should have.
  

3 months of E5 completed.

I’m also realising that I have a deep need for validation that I get from casual sexual encounters, and that can’t be satisfied, no matter how many women I’ve been with.
This is a problem because it prevents me to fully committing to a woman and having a long term relationship.
I realize that this is partially from a need of dopamine, and partially psychological, as a need to feel loved, desired.

(12-04-2024, 03:53 AM)GreekGod22 Wrote: [ -> ]I’m also realising that I have a deep need for validation that I get from casual sexual encounters,  and that can’t be satisfied, no matter how many women I’ve been with.
This is a problem because it prevents me to fully committing to a woman and having a long term relationship.
I realize that this is partially from a need of dopamine, and partially psychological, as a need to feel loved, desired.

When you stop seeking others' validation, you find true freedom.

Last night I had an intense dream, revolving around various themes: responsibility, maturity, taking care of my mother, facing fears (pitbull dog), and acting quickly in face of danger.

Noticing growth in the area of emotional maturity. I’m able to analyse my past mistakes, relationships, why it happened the way it happened. I’m less emotionally reactive.

Lots of dreaming last night, and also the night before. Reliving past events, but in a different setup, and dream-like reality. One was about me being back in college/ university, and I was struggling to reach my class, having to go through certain quests or dangers.
I’ve had such dreams in the past too, struggling to reach a destination, but never really getting there.

Noticing a reduction in self-destructive behaviours and thoughts lately. Much less porn watching, less desire to smoke, and more focus on healthy habits like quality nutrition and other health-related habits.
It feels like the sub is really picking up steam in this fourth month of usage.
I’m still on 5 loops Ultrasonic.

Also, I will start a new job in January, with a good pay,  so the crisis period that I’ve mentioned before is coming closer to an end.

Experiencing frequent dreams. Some involving engaging in sexual activities. It’s weird because my libido at the moment is not particularly high, on the contrary. I’ll take it as E5 influence allowing me to more freely express my wants and desires through the medium of dreams.

4 months of E5 completed.

Last night was the beginning of a new ON cycle. I had 2 intense dreams, one was about being chased by a wolf, the other was about doing some kind of ritual in order to notice benefits in my behavior or energy, just like I would expect from a subliminal.

I usually forget most of the dream details by the time I fully wake up, so that’s all I remember.