10-10-2021, 03:19 AM
I say semi-journal because I don't think I'm going to be consistently posting. I've been running OFv3 since July 23.
The effects of this one manage to be both wider in scope and more shallow than the old 4G OF1.1. Now THAT was an amazing program that in hindsight I wish I ran far longer than the recommended 3 months.
With v3 the feeling that I "can't" do some specific task, or just about anything in general, is slowly dissolving. It's subtle and slow enough that it would be easy to miss if I didn't actually think about it.
An example - I've had an interest in computer programming in general and game development in particular for a little over 20 years, but previous attempts to learn these skills have not gone well. C++ classes in high school and college went very badly (the syntax and my brain just didn't get along, at all). I messed around with different versions of RPG Maker but the scope of everything I needed to learn and do just to create a POS asset flip eventually overwhelmed me and never created a full game with it. It wasn't that I couldn't do it as much as I didn't believe the sales would end up being worth the amount of time I would have to put into it. There's nothing quite like working on a game for 3 years to end up making about $1/hour after all is said and done (as many indie devs can attest).
About 3 years ago I picked up a book on C at the recommendation of a friend and I saw that I was able to get a grasp on it, but didn't devote enough free time to it to learn enough to become employable. HOWEVER (finally getting to the point where OFv3 comes in) I would credit the subliminal with getting me to think about that again, directing me to think in the direction of being able to learn those skills. I went back to some Zenva courses I never got around to doing which led to a trip to the library to get some books to fill in gaps they left (with my transmission dead I had to call my mom for a ride which is something I really didn't want to do on a personal level and would credit the sub for having me focus on the upside rather than her constantly asking about it, like I'm going to be a master programmer a week after getting a stack of books from the library) and eventually buying the gamedev.tv training series. I dropped the $350 on the lifetime membership, significant because I don't have any money coming in at present but was thinking only of the value the skills could represent rather than depleting x% of my savings.
All of that said, v3 makes me miss OF1.1 even more and does not come close to delivering the biggest benefits of that sub. v3 "only" tries to get rid of fear. 1.1 went beyond removing fear and actively added bravery to give you the ability to maximize the benefits of your new fearlessness. When running 1.1 I developed a knowingness that I am capable of being, doing and having anything with nothing being able to stop me (that was much stronger when I ran it at the time and might have been permanent had I known running it longer would have greater benefit). That overwhelming feeling of empowerment does not exist in v3 at all. If it sounds like that above, it is quite different. The steps I'm taking from v3 are both timid and based in hope in comparison. If feels like it'll probably work out, maybe, or at least not be a complete waste of money and time. The level of belief in what I do is not raised with v3 the way it was with 1.1. The confident belief in my actions that 1.1 generated is not here at all.
The effects of this one manage to be both wider in scope and more shallow than the old 4G OF1.1. Now THAT was an amazing program that in hindsight I wish I ran far longer than the recommended 3 months.
With v3 the feeling that I "can't" do some specific task, or just about anything in general, is slowly dissolving. It's subtle and slow enough that it would be easy to miss if I didn't actually think about it.
An example - I've had an interest in computer programming in general and game development in particular for a little over 20 years, but previous attempts to learn these skills have not gone well. C++ classes in high school and college went very badly (the syntax and my brain just didn't get along, at all). I messed around with different versions of RPG Maker but the scope of everything I needed to learn and do just to create a POS asset flip eventually overwhelmed me and never created a full game with it. It wasn't that I couldn't do it as much as I didn't believe the sales would end up being worth the amount of time I would have to put into it. There's nothing quite like working on a game for 3 years to end up making about $1/hour after all is said and done (as many indie devs can attest).
About 3 years ago I picked up a book on C at the recommendation of a friend and I saw that I was able to get a grasp on it, but didn't devote enough free time to it to learn enough to become employable. HOWEVER (finally getting to the point where OFv3 comes in) I would credit the subliminal with getting me to think about that again, directing me to think in the direction of being able to learn those skills. I went back to some Zenva courses I never got around to doing which led to a trip to the library to get some books to fill in gaps they left (with my transmission dead I had to call my mom for a ride which is something I really didn't want to do on a personal level and would credit the sub for having me focus on the upside rather than her constantly asking about it, like I'm going to be a master programmer a week after getting a stack of books from the library) and eventually buying the gamedev.tv training series. I dropped the $350 on the lifetime membership, significant because I don't have any money coming in at present but was thinking only of the value the skills could represent rather than depleting x% of my savings.
All of that said, v3 makes me miss OF1.1 even more and does not come close to delivering the biggest benefits of that sub. v3 "only" tries to get rid of fear. 1.1 went beyond removing fear and actively added bravery to give you the ability to maximize the benefits of your new fearlessness. When running 1.1 I developed a knowingness that I am capable of being, doing and having anything with nothing being able to stop me (that was much stronger when I ran it at the time and might have been permanent had I known running it longer would have greater benefit). That overwhelming feeling of empowerment does not exist in v3 at all. If it sounds like that above, it is quite different. The steps I'm taking from v3 are both timid and based in hope in comparison. If feels like it'll probably work out, maybe, or at least not be a complete waste of money and time. The level of belief in what I do is not raised with v3 the way it was with 1.1. The confident belief in my actions that 1.1 generated is not here at all.