02-14-2021, 11:11 AM
About a week away from being the two month mark of being on OFv2. Some things that I've noticed are porn use has been cut drastically, and is now maybe once a week? Even when I do look at it I don't feel good about it. This tells me a little more time will be needed on OF to get completely over using it, but I'm almost there I can feel it.
Also, I mentioned in my one month update that the need for eating a lot has decreased significantly. This has become even more apparent as I continue to use OF. In the last two months I'm down 13 pounds and can be completely satisfied with one meal a day or one normal sized meal and then something small later on in the evening. Exercise habits are great, and I'm on my way to getting in the best shape I've been in my life and I'm finally starting to feel a lot better physically.
One fear I can tell I still have is financial success and financial independence. In that past I can say I've had a bit of a gambling problem, which cost me a lot of money. This includes a lot of trips to the casino and losing lots of money there as well. Over the last 5-6 weeks the desire to go and gamble isn't really even there, and my thinking is moving towards what I can do to get out of debt and finally be free from debts I've held on to for way too long. More time on OF will certainly be needed to finally be over this.
In my OFv1 journal there came a point in time where I had this sudden realization that I'm not happy with where I'm at and that I just want more. That feeling faded for a long time but has recently resurfaced over the last week or two. At work I just feel like my job is pointless and I'm just going in circles and not really growing or learning anything that can be beneficial for my future. That's gotten me to start thinking about moving on and looking for a position in an area that I've desired for the last two years or so. I'm also not happy just sitting around the house watching tv or watching sports as much as I used to. This year I'm going out and doing more with my life and adventuring more than I ever have.
Good progress is being made but more time is definitely needed.
Even though I've purchased NSFM for future use and I'm also planning on getting MLS for the future as well, I'm going to continue OF for a little longer. Seems like my next year at least of subs are already mapped out. Finally feeling optimistic about the future.
Also, I mentioned in my one month update that the need for eating a lot has decreased significantly. This has become even more apparent as I continue to use OF. In the last two months I'm down 13 pounds and can be completely satisfied with one meal a day or one normal sized meal and then something small later on in the evening. Exercise habits are great, and I'm on my way to getting in the best shape I've been in my life and I'm finally starting to feel a lot better physically.
One fear I can tell I still have is financial success and financial independence. In that past I can say I've had a bit of a gambling problem, which cost me a lot of money. This includes a lot of trips to the casino and losing lots of money there as well. Over the last 5-6 weeks the desire to go and gamble isn't really even there, and my thinking is moving towards what I can do to get out of debt and finally be free from debts I've held on to for way too long. More time on OF will certainly be needed to finally be over this.
In my OFv1 journal there came a point in time where I had this sudden realization that I'm not happy with where I'm at and that I just want more. That feeling faded for a long time but has recently resurfaced over the last week or two. At work I just feel like my job is pointless and I'm just going in circles and not really growing or learning anything that can be beneficial for my future. That's gotten me to start thinking about moving on and looking for a position in an area that I've desired for the last two years or so. I'm also not happy just sitting around the house watching tv or watching sports as much as I used to. This year I'm going out and doing more with my life and adventuring more than I ever have.
Good progress is being made but more time is definitely needed.
Even though I've purchased NSFM for future use and I'm also planning on getting MLS for the future as well, I'm going to continue OF for a little longer. Seems like my next year at least of subs are already mapped out. Finally feeling optimistic about the future.