Cycle 10 - Day 1
What I like about OF: it decreases „performance anxiety“ a lot. If you know what I mean.
There were times in the not so distant past where I had really trouble with this issue - all these thoughts were running through my head and distracted me (like does she enjoy what I am doing) Now I can enjoy sex much more fully.
Cycle 10 - Day 6
It seems that I am slowly becoming a bit more relaxed about life in general. If something goes wrong it goes wrong. No more endless worries about every bits and pieces.
I give you an example. When I started working out at the gym I was endlessly looking for the perfect workout plan. I wanted to do everything correctly to get the most muscles from it. Now I do a plan which is the most fun to me without thinking that it might be the wrong plan.
Cycle 11 - Day 2
Since the beginning of this cycle, nightmares are occurring frequently. Last night I dreamt I had to move back to my parents because I lost my job and had no money.
Cycle 11 - Day 4
OF decreases my approach anxiety dramatically. Yesterday at the gym a girl was doing a calisthenics skill which I tried to learn some time ago. I complimented her and asked her about her routine and we chatted a bit. Today at the supermarket a girl with a very nice summer dress crossed my way and I told her that I find her dress beautiful.
I could not even image doing that (sober lol) a few weeks ago.
(09-22-2020, 12:41 PM)Omni3 Wrote: [ -> ]Nice one
Thank you for reading my journal :-) It feels really great.
I had some thoughts „should I do this?“ before asking the girl at the gym but in the past I always decided „nah stay in your comfort zone it’s gonna be embarrassing“.
After I left I saw her going to her mother (I guess it was her mother based on her looks) and they started giggling.
Well a few seconds thoughts popped up in my mind thinking again „ok maybe I shouldn’t have“ but it was only a few seconds and afterwards I didn’t care.
So the insecurities regarding approaching are not gone completely but I feel like it’s definitely going into the right direction.
Yes, I found with USLM3 I became quite 'magnetic' plus those old inhibiting thoughts weren't there.
We're watching your journey
Cycle 11 - Day 9
I met the gym girl again. This time short nod and little smile and then her boyfriend appeared. Well that’s pretty okay I guess (in German I would say „passt schon“ but I don’t know how to translate that properly).
Many dreams related school and university these days.
(09-27-2020, 02:53 AM)Mr_steevee Wrote: [ -> ]Cycle 11 - Day 9
I met the gym girl again. This time short nod and little smile and then her boyfriend appeared. Well that’s pretty okay I guess (in German I would say „passt schon“ but I don’t know how to translate that properly).
Many dreams related school and university these days.
Perhaps something like, "Eh, it's all good."
Not too bad I would say. Do you speak German?
(09-27-2020, 05:12 AM)Mr_steevee Wrote: [ -> ]Not too bad I would say. Do you speak German?
Ein bissien.
I took a bit in middle school, then 3 years in high school. After that, a year in college. Unfortunately, I've forgotten a lot of it. Most people take Spanish around here, since there are so many Spanish speaking people from Mexico.
I'd love to visit Germany. I regret not having studied abroad to immerse myself in the language and culture.
(09-27-2020, 05:44 AM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ] (09-27-2020, 05:12 AM)Mr_steevee Wrote: [ -> ]Not too bad I would say. Do you speak German?
Ein bissien.
I took a bit in middle school, then 3 years in high school. After that, a year in college. Unfortunately, I've forgotten a lot of it. Most people take Spanish around here, since there are so many Spanish speaking people from Mexico.
I'd love to visit Germany. I regret not having studied abroad to immerse myself in the language and culture.
You should come and visit Germany when times are getting better! I would visit the large cities like Berlin or Munich. If there is time you should also visit the countryside. It’s definitely underrated. And Of course drink some German beer lol
(09-27-2020, 06:31 AM)Mr_steevee Wrote: [ -> ] (09-27-2020, 05:44 AM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ] (09-27-2020, 05:12 AM)Mr_steevee Wrote: [ -> ]Not too bad I would say. Do you speak German?
Ein bissien.
I took a bit in middle school, then 3 years in high school. After that, a year in college. Unfortunately, I've forgotten a lot of it. Most people take Spanish around here, since there are so many Spanish speaking people from Mexico.
I'd love to visit Germany. I regret not having studied abroad to immerse myself in the language and culture.
You should come and visit Germany when times are getting better! I would visit the large cities like Berlin or Munich. If there is time you should also visit the countryside. It’s definitely underrated. And Of course drink some German beer lol
You betcha!
Cycle 13 - Day 2
Almost 4 months in. Crazy. I have nothing major to report the last few days. If I have time the next days I will write a summary about the things which improved over the last 4 months.
I have read the sales description of OF again and i have to admit it describes the state of mind pretty good.