I notice I have become more rational, and starting to have a plan for my life. I have learned to face the music of my situation and starting to acknowledge the responsibility that I have to take myself where I want to go.
I know that my depression have cost me around 5 years of my life. But that's a fact. Nothing can be done about that. My friends will possibly get houses and probably get families before me. But I know that I don't want to throw myself into that before I'm in a place where I'm ready to take on the responsibility that a family deserve, and I have some things I want to go after in life which will be hard to do with a family and the responsibilities that follow it.
I know plans often change, but right now my subliminal plan looks something like:
LTU5 (16 months - almost 14 of those done) - switching when LTU6 get out
LTU6 (6-12 months)
UMS2/3 (24 months)
AM7 (24 months)
So that how my 5 year plan look like. Will surely be interesting to look back at this post and what happened during those years in 2025.
(06-13-2020, 12:43 PM)Zubrowka Wrote: [ -> ]I notice I have become more rational, and starting to have a plan for my life. I have learned to face the music of my situation and starting to acknowledge the responsibility that I have to take myself where I want to go.
I know that my depression have cost me around 5 years of my life. But that's a fact. Nothing can be done about that. My friends will possibly get houses and probably get families before me. But I know that I don't want to throw myself into that before I'm in a place where I'm ready to take on the responsibility that a family deserve, and I have some things I want to go after in life which will be hard to do with a family and the responsibilities that follow it.
I know plans often change, but right now my subliminal plan looks something like:
LTU5 (16 months - almost 14 of those done) - switching when LTU6 get out
LTU6 (6-12 months)
UMS2/3 (24 months)
AM7 (24 months)
So that how my 5 year plan look like. Will surely be interesting to look back at this post and what happened during those years in 2025.
That's some future thinking! I don't like planning like that as I'd rather be flexible and I do like your resolve.
As for the past... yeah, all you can do is not wasting past mistakes by learning from them. It's so sad but undeniable.
(06-13-2020, 04:18 PM)Mystic Pymp Wrote: [ -> ] (06-13-2020, 12:43 PM)Zubrowka Wrote: [ -> ]I notice I have become more rational, and starting to have a plan for my life. I have learned to face the music of my situation and starting to acknowledge the responsibility that I have to take myself where I want to go.
I know that my depression have cost me around 5 years of my life. But that's a fact. Nothing can be done about that. My friends will possibly get houses and probably get families before me. But I know that I don't want to throw myself into that before I'm in a place where I'm ready to take on the responsibility that a family deserve, and I have some things I want to go after in life which will be hard to do with a family and the responsibilities that follow it.
I know plans often change, but right now my subliminal plan looks something like:
LTU5 (16 months - almost 14 of those done) - switching when LTU6 get out
LTU6 (6-12 months)
UMS2/3 (24 months)
AM7 (24 months)
So that how my 5 year plan look like. Will surely be interesting to look back at this post and what happened during those years in 2025.
That's some future thinking! I don't like planning like that as I'd rather be flexible and I do like your resolve.
As for the past... yeah, all you can do is not wasting past mistakes by learning from them. It's so sad but undeniable.
I think you need to have a plan in place to have something to start from, there is still other areas you can be flexible in. As Benjamin Franklin said "if you fail to plan, you are planning to fail" or as warren buffet put it:
“An idiot with a plan can beat a genius without a plan.”
One interesting thing I've thought and noticed over some time. Ow. When you look at a person, you will often see that their left en right side of the fave look different. The right side is the person, the person they present to others while the lest side is the true person - the emotional side behind the persona. Look at and compare the two sides on a picture and I think you will notice what I mean.
Edit: i found an interesting article on the subject
https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/...y-the-face
Just a little fun milestone - 1000 loops of LTU5 done!
I try to formulate in words how my development feels and what has happened, but whenever I try to put it into words it's just doesn't seem to capture it and seem very simplified, so I refrain from doing so right now.
Ok I have thought it through regarding DRS and come to the conclusion that I really need it. But fear and guilt came in the way of me allowing myself to realize that. Looking forward to LTU6. Will buy it the second it comes out.
Really excited to try out the new FRM in LTU6, hoping that it will be the next subliminal that are being built.
Some reporting:
* Less anxiety, had e conference call today and didn't feel close to as much anxiety about that as I used to
* Feeling a bit more motivated to take on life in general
* Less procrastination