Format: 45/days per stage. Then running it again.
Goals: Love the evil in all women. Love the scarlet in them at its basest level, genuinely. Be a Socialite (interactions wise) with women.
Currently
tage 2: Day 26.
Thusly, socializing has become cleaner, easier and far more NATURAL. I can see the difference and feel the difference. Words fly out, I feel less concerned with what to say.
Now to the harlotry: This pretty girl (8.5) saw had only 3 hard limits sexually......Fucked for 1.5 hrs. Half way she rummaged through her purse, pulled out a ball gag and a leash & collar with “f.toy” letter tag. Use your imagination.
Afterward, she said she usually has to watch porn after sex, but she was a satisfied customer.
I got misunderstood:
Goals: Love the evil in all women. Love the scarlet in them at its basest level, genuinely. Be a Socialite (interactions wise) with women.
if you think evil about women, how you can love they with this? and why you thinking they all got some evil in them? I am asking because I got some resendments to woman because of my thought about they got evil in themself.
subscribed, good to see some six stage
(12-12-2019, 01:10 AM)tolgaocal80 Wrote: [ -> ]I got misunderstood:
Goals: Love the evil in all women. Love the scarlet in them at its basest level, genuinely. Be a Socialite (interactions wise) with women.
if you think evil about women, how you can love they with this? and why you thinking they all got some evil in them? I am asking because I got some resendments to woman because of my thought about they got evil in themself.
subscribed, good to see some six stage
Their unconsciously, instinctual vicious sadism. Even though they are sadomasochistic. I can love because I do not seek, or force to be pure. They are very much human.
Resentful of the idea of what you think a woman is, then the realization of how big the disparity between your mind and actuality. Does that make sense?
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I agree with Darkness about women, don't think they behave as goodhearted as in the movies. In my opinion they act more like animals when they don't know you, once you have fed them what they crave though it's another world. It's more instinct with them than anything else, it's survival, jealousy, attachment, a great amount of pretending to be pure, inability to say openly the truth about themselves.
Darkness can you add more details about your interaction with the woman in your first post as I'm not sure what happened, did she first flirt with you, did you get laid, where were you, was she a complete stranger?
(12-12-2019, 02:36 AM)JackOfHearts Wrote: [ -> ]I agree with Darkness about women, don't think they behave as goodhearted as in the movies. In my opinion they act more like animals when they don't know you, once you have fed them what they crave though it's another world. It's more instinct with them than anything else, it's survival, jealousy, attachment, a great amount of pretending to be pure, inability to say openly the truth about themselves.
Darkness can you add more details about your interaction with the woman in your first post as I'm not sure what happened, did she first flirt with you, did you get laid, where were you, was she a complete stranger?
I got you!
She was a stranger, it was unexpected. We met at a function, we chatted it was good chemistry between us , I started to my second chakra get flashes of heat when talking to her. Even though the conversation were not sexual. I grabbed her number, and got together a couple days later. Got to her place, started kissing me and complimenting me saying I was cute . I go down on her till me jaw started to hurt little I was paying mind to her leg shaking and or her Jing passing my energy channels but I couldn’t detect either as marker for doing a good down there. She was moaning and said I was good at it. I then started spanking her asked to tell me when it was too hard.She didn’t seem to even care, as long the nextdoor neighbors don’t complain how loud i was hitting her. My hand did hurt a little, but to make her red was the aim. she also deepthroated lots without me asking.
When we started to fuck, I was asking her how dirty she was, and what was off limits. If she likes spit. She asked me why? I said because hearing about that is arousing. Whilst going down on me she stops and gets up goes to her purse. Pulled out her leash and a collar that said “f.toy”. When I put it on her, I then fucked doggy standing and had her say please sir and thank you sir. As I yanked back she asked please mister can I come? I told her to beg for it again and again, till she right at there, I finally told her to come as hard as she could. She then repeatedly says “thank you sir for letting me come!” as she comes. Post clean up she said feeling good and that the sex was good, satisfied. Usually she has to finish herself off with porn. Compliments me more.
My type of girl honestly! No feelings, great uninhibited sex.
he he...
that sounds more like a SM adventure...
Stage 2: Day 31
Cleaner and clearer socializing.
Had girl I work tell me she cannot eat a cookie without thinking of me. Showed me a meme that that was oddly specific to me.
Told a girl who I thought was bisexual I was attracted to her, she told me “ im flattered but you know that I’m lesbian, right?”
I said “ my bad, thought you were bi” she responds “ no, worries”
Next day I see her and she sassy and flirty with me. Teases and texts me now. How different.
Another coworker got super happy and says she is such a loser for feeling that way after getting my number. ( I’m not attracted to her though, & she knows)
Genuine feeling of sexual satisfaction still from the last fuck remain.
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Starting stage 3
It’s more of socialite programming continues. I’m struggling less with socializing with girls. It seems easier to flirt more and talk woman language. And humor it’s not as irritating. Working with a lot of girls so it’s much more fun.
People seem to think about me, and tell me they did.
Negative: I was bombarded non stop with thoughts of the only girl the meet my criteria from 4 years ago, that I also felt an almost psychic connection with. I didn’t want to think of her. I failed with her sexually.
I messaged her on Facebook. Have not heard back. I think she has serious boyfriend and might be a fiancée. That thought of that KILLED me inside.
Sometimes I wonder if was imagining that psychic connection ( I was able to read her thoughts off and on). If it was in fact a connection.
If I was, I will bury all thoughts of her and move on. Even if hurts.
İs there anything to update ? Mr. Darkness, what about manifestations? Did you noticed anything different
(01-31-2020, 06:10 AM)tolgaocal80 Wrote: [ -> ]İs there anything to update ? Mr. Darkness, what about manifestations? Did you noticed anything different
It’s been quiet due to working a lot. Just been making female friends. I did deal with a dampening in socializing ability, not as funny as I was before.
Stage 4 starts February 11th. I appreciate you checking up on me.
when you start stage 4 I would really want to know about your feelings or beliefs that changed towards women until then. I thank you that you decided to make a journal about your WM journal. I like to see these six stage sets
(02-01-2020, 03:20 PM)tolgaocal80 Wrote: [ -> ]when you start stage 4 I would really want to know about your feelings or beliefs that changed towards women until then. I thank you that you decided to make a journal about your WM journal. I like to see these six stage sets
Absolutely. Also I still have to run Woman Magnet 2 more times. So 1.5 years to really judge.