my dmsi notes

[Leo1990]

Feel much better today.

Vibe is better. Did have coffee.

3 runs this morning of B and two in the later evening. (Seems better when I split it into two parts).

[Leo1990]

Update:

Not a fan of B.

Pretty much feel nothing. Meh. Its like what I was feeling before I even ran DMSI. Bland.

I want to start A again. It was interesting. Fraught with downs and ups. I'd like to explore it more. Minimum 3 runs per day.

[Leo1990]

Update: On two to three runs of B. No noticeable effects. Strong urge to start my business, be on my own, I see that as the ultimate freedom. The thing that women see to be super sexy and desirable... a free man with no strings (job, family, debt, obligations).

Had a dream (not sure if it was related as I was not running the sub during... 36hrs prior) that was interesting.

It involved me being surrounded by a group of people and a shaman. I think the objective of what I was doing in this dream was to allow spirits to posses me in some sort of capacity. Like a Ayahuasca ritual.

I remember closing my eyes in the dream and the shaman dripping some sort of eye-drops (probably drug-laced) into my eyes and then me tripping out (I dont remember this... as it was getting early outside and the light interrupted my dream).

Kinda bummed it did not continue.

[Leo1990]

Nothing much to report. Playing 3x a day on average x2 a day. Cant listen all @ once.

- Had one dream where my father was picking up women, but dont remember how it ended.
- Had an urge to watch an old movie Shrek for the first 1hr (where hes all about doing his own thing)
- Had an urge to watch an old porno that I used to watch when I was a lot younger.
- Been having urges to keep working on starting my business through an App I am developing. Desire to talk to or approach women has dropped off severely.

[Leo1990]

Today has been a bit of a downer.

Listened to 4 runs on A.

During listening, saw a neighbor of mine get into a car full of his friends and it immediately brought me back to my younger years (5yrs ago) where I was massively depressed because I felt alone. I started to tear up.

Went to a street fair with ~5-10k people. Lots of cute women there too. No desire to approach, but I had a desire to want to be with people.

Part of it I think comes down to the goals I put on myself.

I am currently building a product that I hope takes off and gives me a life of freedom (where I do not need to rely on a job). Then I think that would unlock my potential with women since I feel hindered currently, living w/ my father.

I've got these forces pulling me in different directions.

One is saying:
"You're never going to be as young as you are, go approach women and seduce them. Who cares if your living with your dad."

The other says:
"Put all your energy into creating this business and then when it works out, you'll have women banging down your door and you'll be super attractive and sexy."

With DSMI, the second voice has been massively strengthened.

I am going to try lucid dreaming to see if I can get past my resistance too.

Let you all know how that goes.

[Mr Confidence]

Okay I have one advice for you: If its women you want choose: "You're never going to be as young as you are, go approach women and seduce them. Who cares if your living with your dad" That is my personal believe. Too many men waste years and even decades pursuing a career or building a business in the hopes of attracting women, when in reality its not a necessity and actually talking to women and being with women will get them women much sooner.

[Blacksheep]

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[Leo1990]

Okay I have one advice for you: If its women you want choose: "You're never going to be as young as you are, go approach women and seduce them. Who cares if your living with your dad" That is my personal believe. Too many men waste years and even decades pursuing a career or building a business in the hopes of attracting women, when in reality its not a necessity and actually talking to women and being with women will get them women much sooner.

For me its a little different. I just want to OWN my freedom. I feel like that is critical to my success in life overall.

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I have given up trying to figure out why DMSI would work the first week and then nothing after. I have used 3.2 for a whole month now, atleast 1 loop per day.

I have decided to try other versions to get a feel for those, to see what best suits me.

Currently trying 2.5 for one month.

[Leo1990]

Had strong desires to approach some cuties last night.

3rd day so far and the vibe I'd characterize is more sexual like Jim Morrison.

C'mon baby light my fire

[Leo1990]

I've been all over the place and not consistent.

I'm going to take a break and continue with 3.2a 4 runs hybrid when I am finished.

I had some success, but then it dropped off and I think I ran into some resistance and was not consistent with confronting it with side A because I switched to side B too soon.

So I'm going to continue after I give my brain a break to clear out.

[Leo1990]

Now on 3.3 like everyone else. Been listening pretty religiously, but had a hiccup a few times and missed a few days.

Had two dreams:

One about being called an asshole and owning up to it with no fear.

Another about my dog who passed away almost two years ago, who I miss very much!


Noticed being more horny, a little bit more of staring at asses. I remember this during 3.2, but it was only for a few hours (on 3.2).

I am hoping it will increase and project that aura that I was also feeling at the time.